my HEART

once heard a story straight from the heart
About a girl and how her world began to fall apart
It all started when she met the boy that made her life complete
Just thinking of him made her heart skip a beat
They were the couple everyone wanted to be
There were no imperfections as either one could see
As the weeks passed they fell more in love and were less aware
Of how often life turns out to be unfair
Until one day she finally gave in
She realized there was no way she could win
She said I'm sorry but i have to let you go
As he reached for her hand she pulled away whispering no
When she turned around a tear slid down her cheek
He just stood there speechless, forgetting how to speak
The next few days were the hardest at home
She truly felt she was all alone
Her mom pushed in her face how she had won
Her dad said "i knew he was just another one"
Her sister said "come on you'll be ok"
And her brother just tried to stay away
At school it was like her friends weren't even there
None of them seemed to really care
Her life had no more color, just black and white
Even getting out of bed turned into a fight
Despite their tries things just weren't like before
Then he decided "i don't wanna try anymore"
At that she tried to cut him out
But the more she ignored him the more her feelings began to shout
When she saw him that day she could no longer just walk by
And before she knew it her mouth opened up and out came "hi"
He looked up and said "so now we're talking?"
She just smiled and join his walking
Everyday they talked a little more
And everyday she began to like him a little less then before
As the months passed by she became more and more aware
About how its ok life's unfair
Because eventually everything becomes your past
But your memories will always last
And with that i hope you see
Not all love is meant to be
But hold on and don't give in
Stand tall, hold up your chin
And believe me when i say
The right one will come one day
He'll open your eyes to things you couldn't ever see
I know this because..this is a story all about me...

all in one minute

I look at the clock,
it says 1:41,
i know thinking of you,
ill never be done,

you run through my mind,
and occupy all my time,
wondering why you're gone,
and why you're not mine,

i think of you constantly,
for some reason i cant stop,
knowing that for always,
you'll forever have my heart,

my days go by so slow,
cause you run through my head,
i said I'd love you forever,
isn't that enough said,

you also haunt my dreams,
if you know what i mean,
i wake up often,
with sweats and screams,

why do i sleep by myself,
I'm alone in my bed,
i know I'll be thinking of you,
till the day i am dead,

now still all these thoughts,
just run through my brain,
cant stop thinking of Nicole,
i think i'm going insane,

i feel i wanna kill myself,
people say thats not what to do,
but i turn and look at the clock,
and it says it's only 1:42....

for who i dont know

                                      LISTEN FOR LOVE

  There are times when we are timid and shy about expressing the love we feel.for fear of embarrasing the other person or ourselves, we hesistate to say the actual words 'I LOVE YOU'. so we try to communicate the idea in other words
    We say take care or dont drive too fast or be good, but really these are the other ways of saying 'i love you you are important to me , i care what happens to you, i dont want you to get hurt'.
      We are sometimes very strange people, the only thing we want to say and the one thing that we should say, is the one thing we dont say..And yet, because the feeling is so real and the need to say it is so strong, we are driven to use other words and signs to say what we really mean.
       And manytimes the meaning never gets communicated atall and the other person is left unloved and unwanted.
        Therefore, we have to listen for love in the words that people are saying to us, sometimes the explicit words are necessary but more often,the manner of saying things is even more important. A joyous insult carries more affection and love within the sentiment which are expressed insincerely.
         An impulsive hug say I LOVE YOU even though the words said might be different. Any expression of a person's concern for another say I LOVE YOU.
          Sometimes the expression is clumsy, sometimes even cruel.