Friday,Mar 21 2008, 01:03:35 AMLife After Death!

So if you read my last journal i was talking about my mother being in the hospital WELL since that last journal my mother past away...Me and my brother had the biggest decision of our lifes...2 choose whether our mother lived or dies...now how does a 22 yr old male and a 18 yr old female have that type of decision? It was the hardest thing in my life...I dont no if i told you guys this or not but my mother was my best friend, my mother, and father she was my therapist and confider. My mother died on February 11th, 2008. I dont know if anyone out there really knows what im going through. All i have now is my brother and at that he has never really been there for me neither. The only person was there was my mother. I was raped when I was 11 yrs old and I think thats when my world startn turning upside down! My mother was a strong woman when i was in foster care for 2 yrs she was homeless with my brother and she never let me know it. She never acknowledged that she was homeless had no money to take care of my brother or even take care of herself. She lived in a car the whole two years. My mother was dedicated she always told me and taught me never to give up my hopes and dreams and that if i wus going to start something i have to finish it. She taught me never to quit because the whole time I was in foster care I never thought that I would be back at home with my mother and she faught long and hard for me! My mother always showed that she cared in many and different ways. She taught me alot of things about myself. She taught me to be STRONG!!! My mother meant the world to me and if she was here today I would express how much i love and miss the sound of her voice and I miss the way she called me BABY A and she would comfort me when i was in need of it...No one really understands the pain of someones loss until they experience it themselves. I never did until it was my mother laying to be put to rest. Like ive said before my mother was all i had so now im in this BIG WORLD all by myself with no one to comfort and hold me!!!

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Thursday,Feb 7 2008, 11:14:04 PMLife!!!

Man its funny how life is...how once second everything is fine and the other second everything jus falls apart. I havent been on this site in two years but I felt I must express myself cuz i am an emotional wreck. Monday superbowl night my mother was admitted to the hospital because she couldnt breathe. My mother is very over weight so its common for her to be out of breath alot. And it was common for her to go to the hospital because of her breathing but that night was different within a matter of 5 hrs my mother was in the CTICU and at first it dydnt ...

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Thursday,Sep 29 2005, 04:16:28 PMSep-29-05

Yesterday I woke up went to a friends house woke her ass up and then we were driving in our small ass town. And we get the idea to skip school for the whole day. So we skip and then her boyfriend calls and asks why aint u in school. She said she didnt want to go. I got a question for all the people that read this! Why is it that you do something like skip school and u tell ur boyfriend/girlfriend and they all like well why did u do that? Damn boy/girl does it matter what I do. So answer me back. The day before yesterday like uuh... Tuesday I ...

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