Journals
Monday,Nov 29 2004, 01:21:28 AM"i'm sure it's written all over my face" well
"i'm sure it's written all over my face"
well..this is going to be quite shocking...very shocking..especially to andrew's close friends, Leo, Shino, Shien, Geraldine...andrew and I are getting engage on Christmas this year..yes...not kiddin'..*choped, signed, and confirmed* hahaha. We will have a small celebrations for friends which drop on sometime in Jan or Feb next year and we are going to have private celebration for us two only on christmas night. You must ask "Don't you think engagement means nothing just waste money only?" I don't know how to explain why are we doing this engagement ceremony...i'll let andrew explain this. We just want to make this official to our friends right now...and for everything else...you guys go ask andrew...ahakz...i'll leave this to him...
i'm leaving now..
finally posted this blog...hahaha...it takes so much courage to do this...
in the mood for love
simmy
Saturday,Nov 20 2004, 06:43:29 AM"So I'll say why don't you and I get...
"So I'll say why don't you and I get together and take on the world
and be together forever
Heads we will and tails we'll try again
So I say why don't you and I hold each other and fly to the moon
and straight on to heaven
Cause without you they're never gonna let me in"
haven't blogged for a while now, been quite busy with my new job, luckily i am under my sister's management so i'm getting along with new working environment fine...and about me and andrew, i guess you all know pretty much about what happened for the last couple of days, first we had the cigarrette incident, then after 1-2 days, we have the 'sister's wedding' arguement again. Been having a really rough week with andrew, it really mean alot to me if he can go to my sister's wedding with me (as he promised), i just felt like i want him to take part in my family event like this. My family and friends are important to me. He promised me about a week ago that he will "SURE" attend the wedding, so i was really pissed. We talked this over, and i've forgiven him, but i will not trust him that much anymore from now onwards...once...twice...i think i'm just overly dissappointed. And frustrated. The longer we are together the more problem exists. Esp problems like this. I'm not sure if i can handle it. I love him and ofcourse i want to be with him but if this keep happening i think one day my love and passion towards our relationship will soon fade out...
There are other problems as well, Jovial, which is Andrew's manager aka EX GIRLFRIEND, been saying bad stuff about me infront of andrew...such as :1) "She's so immature." 2)"Why do you date young chicks like this when you know they're going to leave you someday?" 3)"You guys are just not right for each other.." etc. It frustrates me sometimes you know, and can you imagine Andrew almost spend most his time with her in the boutique? With a women that doesn't appreciate my existence? Lord, it's torturing. I don't hate her, but i don't want to have anything to do with her, and i will not. I've never told Andrew about my feelings towards Jovial...but i just have to let it all out here, if i keep all this stuff inside i'm going to burst. And hopefully, Andrew will not get influence by the things people say to him. Or more frankly, he will not get influenced by Jovial. I don't want to feel this way but trust me, it might happen. Cuz they're together all the time, he spend more time with her than with me...
i know they're collegues but i can't help it...
andrew will not be able to spend christmas with me cuz he's working, and also new year, chinese new year, valentines day, my birthday...cuz he'll be working on those days. And he will be back to his hometown for a week next year as well, well this is tough...how am i going to deal with it? I'm wondering as well...seriously considering getting a part time lover, ahakz...
i better stop here now...take care ya peeps...ciao
Friday,Nov 5 2004, 02:47:33 PM"ain't that a kick in the head?" wonder what...
"ain't that a kick in the head?"
wonder what should i blog here since i have so much to say...i've already started work on Thursday..busy like hell, the first day i got there the boss even asked me to do engineering stuff..asked me to design bathroom interior...he must have thought i'm a smart ass or somethin'...
i'm now at andrew's place, he is watching sharktale now, and i promised him to watch a horror film with him after i done blogging here...'cuz this chicken scared to watch himself...haha...he is really cute sometimes...we spend alot of time together lately..he met my aunt, dad, sister, friends, and even my sister's boyfriend's mom..then last night..i fooled him, i lied to him saying that i'm really unhappy and leaving KL to Kuantan, and i told him i would like to see him for the last time. He said ok, so i drove all the way from Kepong to Kelana Jaya to see him, and brought him a cake, a birthday cake to be exact. You would ask, why cuz it wasn't his birthday..(his birthday is on August 9th) Well long story, andrew told me that this year he didn't get birthday cake...and he didn't really have a 'joyful' birthday and he mentioned that it would be nice if he could spend his birthday with his girlfriend. So i bought him a cake..and by the way November 5th (yesterday) is our 1 month anniversary for being together...when i saw him last night, his face was *hak mah mah*, and he looked really really depressed, and when he see the cake when he get into my car he stumbled, and i told him it was all a lie. Luckily he wasn't mad at all, 
, just huged me and kissed me...hehe...i'm glad i made it..i assume that this might be the most memorable *birthday* he have. I don't know if he likes surprises like this but one day this uncle might get heart attack if i keep doing this to him...hahaha.
this uncle lo done nice things for me as well, cooked for me, bought me the doraemon donuts and made me 45 birds...surprisingly we have so much fun together. I feel really comfortable with him, i do hope he feel the same way too. 
i haven't moved yet..have to wait untill my sister get married...there's only a month left..i really need to do more...
it's getting late and my eyes are just super darn tired...later peeps..
-simmy