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Alvinwong's Homepage http://www.zorpia.com/Alvinwong Sat, 02 Jan 2010 11:20 EST Sat, 02 Jan 2010 11:20 EST Zorpia.com she have change http://www.zorpia.com/Alvinwong/journal/1889361 its always about her. i'm feeling fuck up this few days, my off has been canceled, my parents pressurising me to get jy to remove her tattoo, a few times i wanted to head for some drinks after work, but i stop myself. yes i'm doing it for her, but seems like she got one step ahead of me already. its just a god damn tattoo,why cant she accept my parents money and remove it? and then her parents came down to fuck me up good, asking me nicely to spare her some thought and give her some pride when they didnt know exactly where she spend her money on. so i'm always the middle man pacifying both parties taking whatever shit sling at me. why must she seek her parents approval? its been 1 year plus. she borrowed money from her uncle to remove her tattoo in the end? the money end up some where else. the last thing i know she went out with someone after work and never tell me anything. i have no one to talk to nowadays. my last confidant left me by saying, ' you know what? be a man la alvin.' wtf. fine. its a bad year indeed and i still have to worry about my sis seeing someone nine year older than her.  i hate to create new blog. this blog have been abandon a long time ago, lets hope the wong person dun visit here.   Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Alvinwong/journal/1889361 Wed, 18 Mar 2009 10:49 EST life of a psp addict http://www.zorpia.com/Alvinwong/journal/1837656 wasting 2 freaking years of my life away in front of my psp, thats what national service is for. to make the matter worse, i'm weighing a few more pounds heavier. whats this? mid age crisis? everyday was like a routine, you go to camp, flunk your bag down and start to play psp, the clock hits 5 and you rush home for dinner, meet the girlfriend. look forward to the occasional friends gathering. the world move before your eyes and in no time you're already 24 and still feeding off from your parents. my mind is subconsciously asking me to do something productive but consciously its in a blank. for the past few weeks i try to do some flash document to impress myself like how i did last time but nothing came up.. recently there was a misunderstanding with my gf regarding a pic which my friends took and posted in her blog. it was certainly a foolish and stupid mistake to pose like the rest of them, which i did in a drunken stupor. there were so many of those pose which my friends took with one another regardless of status but why couldnt she understand? but what done is done, i admit my mistake. it was my fault for posing like tat with another 'friend'. my primary concern now is whether should i approach her to ask her remove the pic. but everyone have the freedom of right to blog, i wonder what should i do now.. Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Alvinwong/journal/1837656 Thu, 18 Sep 2008 07:48 EST renchi hospital rogue? http://www.zorpia.com/Alvinwong/journal/1821749 after the news came out about the venerable abbot being charged with several counts of fraud, i was very sadden by the news, to add salt to the wound, my colleagues was extremely unhelpful by adding crude remarks about renchi and the abbot is out to cheat money. further more alot of ppl cancel their giro donation with renchi. i think its time ppl see clearly before making narrow minded decisions, just because of a few blacksheeps, you condemn the whole organisation? were those illegal transaction personal gains for meng zhi? none at all. one is a loan for mandala buddhist society and another one is for his personal assistant a poly student. if the whole renchi organisation is rogue then why still admit in patients? i wonder what will become of the world next time.   Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Alvinwong/journal/1821749 Sun, 20 Jul 2008 10:53 EST country home.. take me home.. to a place. i belo.. http://www.zorpia.com/Alvinwong/journal/1820301 if only i can just walk out of my family, freaking piss off already, a few days ago i have a big dispute over with my parents just because of my sis's ex. tat fucking dispute cause me to surrender the family car keys back to them and now im home bounded. whats more? i'm broke after paying for my ticket to early ord, 1 month's pay just went down that bloody indian pocket, im totally cashless and carless strapped at home worrying how the fuck am i going to turn up for my friends invitation to dinner and another friends birthday. right now if only i can get away from everything that ever matters live my own life, have a job and live in the countryside... Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Alvinwong/journal/1820301 Mon, 14 Jul 2008 10:51 EST nothing really http://www.zorpia.com/Alvinwong/journal/1800084 Its been long since i decide to blog today because every words i say will have repercussion. life was like a daze. i need to stay focus and stop wasting time doing nothing. i need to continue my research on remote viewing, so far i have already bought an audio track  consisting of theta and beta soundwaves. i haven really seriously try it for fear of disappointment, or perhaps the pdf (paranormal dampening field) could be a factor. but i believe i can overcome it, its all just the matter of the sub conscious. i have always wonder how come i felt like sleeping during lecture while fully alert playing game for hours. Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Alvinwong/journal/1800084 Sat, 03 May 2008 04:08 EST what should i do? http://www.zorpia.com/Alvinwong/journal/1780925 nowadays i'm always looking forward to the weekends, and when it comes, there was always nothing much to do. theres always alot of things i have on my mind like what to study this time round, the deadline of enrolment is reaching soon, i cant manage my time effeciently, my english is deteroriating everyday, i'm growing fatter everyday. i look at my past blogs and i realise i've been a real bum since i enlisted in ns. everyday playing psp in air condition room with the senior medic and a few others. i need to get connected with outside life, i cant let this thing carry on. but first i have to decide wats the best education that suits me. i cant decide which to choose, a further study in bachelor of multimedia technology or bachelor in econs and finance? i have to focus.. i cant keep slacking all the way.  Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Alvinwong/journal/1780925 Fri, 07 Mar 2008 06:28 EST clementi woods fort road adventure http://www.zorpia.com/Alvinwong/journal/1743740 yesterday after work we went to get some fries and drinks then afterwards we decided to go clementi woods since she say it look quite beautiful. going back to the place reminds me of my childhood where i will go there with my primary school friends to explore deeper part of the woods. i still remmeber how they use to play spirit coin there and was overheard by the teacher and punished. haha. then one day our group leader suggest going there as he seem to saw something mysterious with the formation of the tree trunk, making it look like a skull. haha. i couldnt believe what i did that day, i brought along my toy gun as a safety precaution. its not really a toy gun, but maybe an air gun, and it shoots fake rubber bullets out. well.. it can cause serious damage to the eye if fire at close range.haha. upon reaching there, we all were looking around like thieves.. in the end, there was nothing at all with the tree trunk, and my friend and i was make a laughing stock for him to bring us on a wild goose chase and me to bring a toy gun.. Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Alvinwong/journal/1743740 Sat, 03 Nov 2007 00:39 EST happy moments http://www.zorpia.com/Alvinwong/journal/1743392 life is still great for the happy side of gemini. cant wait for dear jy to quit her job this sunday so we can meet more often. =) finally able to meet her for day activities instead of late night outings.. haah. the other day was fun indeed, drive to mount elizabath which is behind ps to sight seeing, we saw a dark figure sitting alone near a dark building which scare the hell out of her. hahah. after that we went to an old nafa campus just beside selegie road, which is converted to a open air pub which is much better than those smelly underground ghetto pubs, one thing though the toilet was abit too errie for her and we have to leave to find a better one, even though i volunteer to go inside the cubicle with her. haha crap. i wonder what i can do during the sunny days with her, we can go sentosa and go suntanning, then i can get to see her in her bikini. hahah, then go cycling in the two seater bike, enjoy the wind breeze. things i have nv done in the day for a long time.. =) Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Alvinwong/journal/1743392 Thu, 01 Nov 2007 10:58 EST bloody restart http://www.zorpia.com/Alvinwong/journal/1736295 fucking blog restart on me, need retype over again. well well.. days pass by really fast. me and my gf is about 2 months old. things were all still good. but today there was a misunderstanding purely my own fault. i thought she was close with me untill i ask her about it, then found out.well guess i need to try harder. Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Alvinwong/journal/1736295 Sat, 13 Oct 2007 16:03 EST 1 month anniversary http://www.zorpia.com/Alvinwong/journal/1732667 yesterday we went to night safari. it was exciting, because it was the first time i been to a zoo since i was 10. it was fantastic, the atphosphere, tram ride. everything.. the best thing was i enjoy being my girlfriend. the way she holds on to me, bites my hand, poke me in the ribs. and i was very touched later when i found out she did something out of consideration for me. even though i know i cant replace his ex, i hope happy moments like this will last.. Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Alvinwong/journal/1732667 Tue, 02 Oct 2007 08:07 EST the new member vivi http://www.zorpia.com/Alvinwong/journal/1730261 today was an eventful day indeed, went down to spca to look for my gf lost poodle. and upon reaching we report the matter to them, they told us someone reported a lost poodle a while ago. we were in luck, haha. my gf was very glad i suggest to come spca. we immediately rush down to meet the kind soul who pick vivi up from the streets. the girl was happy we found back our own dog, and we offer her 50 as a reward for keeping her for one night. when i went back home, things weren't so cheery, my parents were pissed about me not getting the veg they wanted. and they continue to say unpleasantries till i was sure about to leave the house for good, which i did later on, but i came back after a few hours.. Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Alvinwong/journal/1730261 Mon, 24 Sep 2007 10:21 EST the day before yesterday http://www.zorpia.com/Alvinwong/journal/1723908 it was a day of anticipation, even though there was some differences, i decided to just go ahead. theres nothing to lose, im not young anymore. jeslyn seems to be right choice for me. shes quiet, soft spoken,humble just wat im looking for. so on 2nd sept 2007 i ask her the question, 3rd sept 2007 she agreed to be my girlfriend. my first gf.. haha i was so happy, finally pass the stage of confusion and loneliness... Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Alvinwong/journal/1723908 Tue, 04 Sep 2007 08:01 EST so much things http://www.zorpia.com/Alvinwong/journal/1721566 its been long since i blog, the recruit life is finally over. the final stage of it was the best, our company won everything, the footrill comp, best battalion, best pt, best sergeant. for the last week of my recruit life everything pass by in a daze. at night all of us will gather in a group in a bunk and share stories of girls, cars and weekend pubbing.. then we'll place the bed together with the lights off and continue our story. and so i decided to go join them at boat quay, glenn was the organiser and through his gf, i get to know jeslyn who might be my first potential gf and tat will put a stop to all the gay nonsense tats been spreading behind my back. but i dunno why, i felt i wasnt ready yet, i only know her for one month and dated out for 2 times only. shes pretty and got a good character, not materistic, willing to come join me and my friends to watch movie without me go fetching her. but she's too quiet, and theres very little topics to talk about.. one thing is for sure, she likes me.. wahhaha. Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Alvinwong/journal/1721566 Tue, 28 Aug 2007 06:19 EST sunday at home http://www.zorpia.com/Alvinwong/journal/1682774 Working at raoul was quite relaxing, except for the shop in charge who was gave me hell everytime I go out for a 5 mins break. Today is another boring Sunday night at home. National service is coming soon, and I really hope I can pull through. â€˜The daily enlightmentâ€™ was a great book, it really helps me to think rationally when things donâ€™t work out fine. Lord Bertrand Russell once quoted â€œThe secret of happiness is to face the fact that the world is horrible, horrible, horrible.â€ That quote of his refers to the first of the four noble truths:       <ol style="MARGIN-TOP: 0in" type="1"> <li class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-list: l0 level1 lfo1; tab-stops: list .5in">Life is full of dissatisfactions. </li> <li class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-list: l0 level1 lfo1; tab-stops: list .5in">They have their causes in wanting (greed) and not-wanting (hatred), that come from our delusion. </li> <li class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-list: l0 level1 lfo1; tab-stops: list .5in">The end of dissatisfactions is possible in Nirvana. </li> <li class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; mso-list: l0 level1 lfo1; tab-stops: list .5in">The way to end dissatisfaction is the Noble Eightfold Path. </li> </ol>       So far I have only realize the first and second noble truth, and keep my wants to the minimal. The not wantings was easy though, as long there is no hatred, no bad karmic deeds will be pass on. The third and forth truth was difficult to understand, but maybe next time.. Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Alvinwong/journal/1682774 Sun, 20 May 2007 05:39 EST hide and seek or peek a boo? from alvin wong http://www.zorpia.com/Alvinwong/journal/1673938 blue by dj kenji was a great trance. everyone should listen. let me define the terms of hide and seek in detail terms, hide and seek was played by everyone when they were young, unless u are anti social, thats a totally different case. anyway the hider will try to hide as long as possible, evading the seeker as the hider knew if he was being found, he will have to suffer the penalty of forfeiture which varies differently for different ppl, it was not an enjoyable game unless played by ppl age 10 and below. whereas peek a boo is totally a different activity, it is an enjoyable game play by ppl of all ages, u seek the attention of the opponent and the opponent seek yours too while hiding behind a smallwall. it was the human natural instinct to shy away once spotted like that of the baby when she giggles and look the other side of the wall waiting for him to appear. if only eve didnt bite the apple, and wasnt poison by the 12 serpent characteristic, the horoscope. i wonder wat the world will be like, no more mind boggling games and no more advancement? advancement?! yes, there wont be advancement in the society at all. for eras of lifetimes, advancement have been spurr on by the combination of the 12 serpent characteristic, jealousy, hatred, fear, anger everything. u name it. so why do u think god plant that tree in eden's garden in the first place, but advise adam and eve not to eat it? u know why? becos god created them to be perfect, they are too perfect and loving each other that they arent progressing. if i'm nt wrong they were immortals then and have live for centuries. (for sims player) god must have been thinking, wat the heck is my sims not progressing. so he decides to involve his little brother, lucifer. hey bro, i'm bored with my sims, could u do alittle something, but not too much? create some kind of hocas pocas, because u know right, i cant do it myself, i'm a holy person. and so lucifer plant an innocent tree there in the garden of eden. little did he know that he was in for a surprise, eve who bite that poison apple was infected with the 12 horoscope characteristic and the 7 sins, and she bore a child out of lust, abel if i not wrong.and slowly the world start to advance, ppl start to make knife, drugs, gunpowder, liquor. before god can let lucifer do much damage, he intro several religions to the world to pacify the inner demons of human kind. it works, but it only applies to ppl who's willing to submit to the religions. lucifer still have the upper hand,.and so lucifer told god 'u wanted to involve me right? u say u wanted advancement. so i gave u advancement and i'm not responsible for the consequences.' to be continued.. Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Alvinwong/journal/1673938 Fri, 27 Apr 2007 12:23 EST