Journals
Wednesday,Mar 18 2009, 03:49:43 PMshe have change
its always about her.
i'm feeling fuck up this few days, my off has been canceled, my parents pressurising me to get jy to remove her tattoo, a few times i wanted to head for some drinks after work, but i stop myself. yes i'm doing it for her, but seems like she got one step ahead of me already.
its just a god damn tattoo,why cant she accept my parents money and remove it? and then her parents came down to fuck me up good, asking me nicely to spare her some thought and give her some pride when they didnt know exactly where she spend her money on. so i'm always the middle man pacifying both parties taking whatever shit sling at me. why must she seek her parents approval? its been 1 year plus. she borrowed money from her uncle to remove her tattoo in the end? the money end up some where else. the last thing i know she went out with someone after work and never tell me anything.
i have no one to talk to nowadays. my last confidant left me by saying, ' you know what? be a man la alvin.' wtf. fine. its a bad year indeed and i still have to worry about my sis seeing someone nine year older than her.
i hate to create new blog. this blog have been abandon a long time ago, lets hope the wong person dun visit here.
Thursday,Sep 18 2008, 12:48:42 PMlife of a psp addict
wasting 2 freaking years of my life away in front of my psp, thats what national service is for. to make the matter worse, i'm weighing a few more pounds heavier. whats this? mid age crisis? everyday was like a routine, you go to camp, flunk your bag down and start to play psp, the clock hits 5 and you rush home for dinner, meet the girlfriend. look forward to the occasional friends gathering. the world move before your eyes and in no time you're already 24 and still feeding off from your parents. my mind is subconsciously asking me to do something productive but consciously its in a blank. for the past few weeks i try to do some flash document to impress myself like how i did last time but nothing came up..
recently there was a misunderstanding with my gf regarding a pic which my friends took and posted in her blog. it was certainly a foolish and stupid mistake to pose like the rest of them, which i did in a drunken stupor. there were so many of those pose which my friends took with one another regardless of status but why couldnt she understand? but what done is done, i admit my mistake. it was my fault for posing like tat with another 'friend'. my primary concern now is whether should i approach her to ask her remove the pic. but everyone have the freedom of right to blog, i wonder what should i do now..
Sunday,Jul 20 2008, 03:53:05 PMrenchi hospital rogue?
after the news came out about the venerable abbot being charged with several counts of fraud, i was very sadden by the news, to add salt to the wound, my colleagues was extremely unhelpful by adding crude remarks about renchi and the abbot is out to cheat money. further more alot of ppl cancel their giro donation with renchi. i think its time ppl see clearly before making narrow minded decisions, just because of a few blacksheeps, you condemn the whole organisation? were those illegal transaction personal gains for meng zhi? none at all. one is a loan for mandala buddhist society and another one is for his personal assistant a poly student. if the whole renchi organisation is rogue then why still admit in patients? i wonder what will become of the world next time.
Monday,Jul 14 2008, 03:51:01 PMcountry home.. take me home.. to a place. i belo..
if only i can just walk out of my family, freaking piss off already, a few days ago i have a big dispute over with my parents just because of my sis's ex. tat fucking dispute cause me to surrender the family car keys back to them and now im home bounded. whats more? i'm broke after paying for my ticket to early ord, 1 month's pay just went down that bloody indian pocket, im totally cashless and carless strapped at home worrying how the fuck am i going to turn up for my friends invitation to dinner and another friends birthday. right now if only i can get away from everything that ever matters live my own life, have a job and live in the countryside...
Saturday,May 3 2008, 09:08:08 AMnothing really
Its been long since i decide to blog today because every words i say will have repercussion. life was like a daze. i need to stay focus and stop wasting time doing nothing. i need to continue my research on remote viewing, so far i have already bought an audio track consisting of theta and beta soundwaves. i haven really seriously try it for fear of disappointment, or perhaps the pdf (paranormal dampening field) could be a factor. but i believe i can overcome it, its all just the matter of the sub conscious. i have always wonder how come i felt like sleeping during lecture while fully alert playing game for hours.