Journals
Sunday,Sep 23 2007, 01:26:19 AMLast week
This is goin to be a super short one.
2 mths plus ans I'm not sure if im cut out for the job. Damn so many things pending.
Monday... Jerry suddenly said that he'll be transferred anytime. Guess 3 mths is all they can give to me.... Dun ask me what's gonna happen... M I to stay or M I not.... Was told yesterday that there was this guy who's probation got extended. Have a feeling that my probation will most prob be extented too... and I have this feeling that some1 might get a promotion... Not to mention who...But if he gets it, I'll most prob go out of coy...
Anyway, here's the highlight of the week:-
went Broilers wit Ad on wed it's more like a net working thingy... Ended sleeping at 3am cause Thurs had a meeting for PL proj. End up the mtg didn participate much.
Went Broiler again on Fri with the manager (SS), Evonne, Tanni, Ad and Jeremy to cel the confirmation of the PL proj.
Yesterday was at office till 1030. Didn manage to do much thought. Aft tat, met HS, Min, Sa, UK boi n JH at Clarke Quay TCC. 2 plus... Headed home.
Sunday,Sep 16 2007, 02:51:54 PMNeed to get back to work tomolo....
Doubt i'll have much chance to update on weekdays hence decided to do more while i can.
Was supposed to go out today but decided to stay at home. CH's suppose to come over get back his text but we decided to postpone it to tomolo since it's still raining.... Talking bt the rain, I'm starting to wonder the reason behind the fact of my current lack of tolerance to the cold weather... Just a few mths back, while in Alishan, I rem the truth was that the weather's cold. but i was still able to bear the temperature.
Ok, I admit. I was shivering a little when we went to see the sunset and was luck to be able to get a nice "shelter". Anyway, I was still able to bear in the nite and later in the day. Anyway, that's not the issue. The issue is that the weather here's not as cold as there and yet now i cant even withstand the slightest change in temp and the feverish feeling kinda bothers me quite a bit... O ya talking bt Alishan, it kinda reminds me of my fantasy since Sec Sch to stay on the moutain amg the woods, away from civilization... Beside a waterfall... "Arte's Eutopia" that's that i'll call~~~
Ok nuff wuth the imagination
Was out with Leng yesterday for din... Talked bt quite some stuff... Then talked bt relationships...
A lot of ppl say it's easier and more likely to suceed if a gurl goes aft a guy compared to the other way round. But i realise that it's not true cause i've heard of quite a few cases where the gurls confessed to the guy and part of the guy's ans is ".... I would like to concentrate on my work.", a polite way of rejecting a gurl.
Actually kinda confessed once a few yrs back. But aft tat time, I realise that it's a dumb thing to do cause if a guy like you, the guy will tell you. But then again, this tot will still surface every now and then. I'll want to msg the guy and tell him cause its a fast and effective way to end the feeling. But when this tot also comes to my mind, i'll realise that it's kinda dumb coz it's just like taking a knife and stabbing myself when there wasnt a need. Since I already know the outcome, then why ask and stab myself when it's less painful to continue to like the guy?
In the end, I decided not to do anything. well, once in a blue moon, I do fwd some msges or send msges... Well, I guess as long as I dun say, I doubt he'll sense anything cause we aint exactly in constant contact. Actually it's not that I dun wish to contact... It's that I'll turn nervous and dunno what to ask or say even if I've called... Cause it'll end up that I am concern but I'll just end up saying things in a cool and unconcerned tone....
Whatever it is, I believe that like what I've said, I guess he might have choosen the other gurl whom all of us tot that they seem to be quite close. Anyway this portion of the journ is just fer me to dump all the nonsense bt feelings for that guy.
Was discussing with Leng yesterday if looks matter... Well, if u ask me what the gd pt bt this guy, i'll say he'll do super kuku things that will really stunn me. Stunn so much that I dunno how I shld react... Dunno to laff or to be angry... I still rem got 1 incident which he did some kuku stuff then I wanted to hit him... Then in the end, didn hit... But I also there was once when i did something (but cant rem what it was) and he really wanted to hit my head but only ended pushing it very gently.
Saturday,Sep 15 2007, 07:07:46 AM15 Sept 07
I'm starting to think that events are passing by too fast... so fast that I cant exactly remember what happen... Just pieces of events passing by...
I rem sometime this week, we (Alice, Evonne, Adrain and me) went out for dinner at the coffee shop which hung lotsa crab shells at boon lay aft work... That was bt 8 plus I guess... ya now I remember when it was... It's Weds...
Aft tat, Ad dropped all of us home- shannel at jurong, alice at CCK and me at home (lucky, he was goin to town to pick his gf aft camp. else I'll be cabbing home from CCK. Phews*)
Thurs, was supposed to go movie (881) with Evonne... Ended OT-ing till 9 plus once again. Had to do the water cooler sizing needed by Fri morning. Didn understand why the guy gave us the water outlet temp... So ended up using it as the system temp. In the end, on Fri realise that it's not. The system temp is 60C. Made the amendment. =p
Alice stayed back too... While she was calling cab at the gate, a cab came so she told the operator say no need cab liao. In the end, the cab say they dun go CCK... Then wanted to call the cab again, realise that Loh's office light was off... so we went back. Loh gave us a ride to Boon Lay aft which we cabbed to CCK for din. Aft tat, Alice acc me to wait 4 cab b4 she left for home... Waited 4 a long time cause stubborn me wanted a Hyundai Sonata... Then saw 1 at 2nd lane at the traffic. But the 1st lane got another citycab bhind a car... so alice was saying that i'll have to try my luck....
In the end, my sonata just passed me n the citycab stopped... Took it home...
Fri...
Fridays are just super bad days.... Woke up at 7.30. Wasnt feeling very well. Didn manage to contact albert to tell him i'll not be able to make it in time for his car as the phone's left in office. Cause it's too late, didn manage to catch a bath b4 goin out. Wanted to take MC. but couldnt cause the Partlist for Punj lloyd has to be issued on that day. Somemore put Evonne too many plane liao so today cannot put her plane in the table soccer match.
Cabbed to work once again. 1st thing upon reaching was rushing to Albert's rm to apologize for the lateness. Aft tat was back to the seat... Office was quiet cause shifu's on leave and Cindy's also on leave.
Had the table soccer championship. Got kicked out on 1st round. Stayed for a while... Aft that, was to Holland V with Evonne till 10 plus....
Sat...
Was supposed to go back today. Got several PR's to generate etc etc... Ended staying home.
gonna meet YL for din later...
Wednesday,Sep 12 2007, 12:00:23 AMmy life....
Reached early in office just now... Actually super early today coz it happened that i missed the bus that allows me to be on time for Albert's car. In the end, took cab... So was super early... Plus the fact that I left office like bt 9 (OT till 4got time). In the end go back late still nvm. Prob is go back late still havnt finish the partlist... Faintz*
Tot bt it... Gonna give myself 1 mth (now is left 28 days) to see how things go in this mth. If performance is still not up to std then mayb this job aint suitable for me and it's time to move on....
That's all fer now.... Everyone's reached office. Time to start work. Till nxt journ~
O ya did i mention that I went back to NTU for dinner with Adrain and Darren... coz dear mr Darren says to go back there....
Sunday,Sep 9 2007, 09:37:36 AMThe week....
Havnt updated for quite sometime...
I'm not sure where to start...
The past 2.5 days at chalet with the ppl BH jie mei's and bro's was rather unfantastic. Everybody was rather sian (most prob brought down by me).Ever since I've stepped out of office on Fri, the issue resided in my brain till now.
I'm questioning myself whether or not i like this job and whether or not i'm capable enuff or it.
Quite a bit of stuffs happened on Fri...
Dropped into another mine bomb during lunch (this time with the supplier) once again... Don't ask what... All I can say is that boss's impression of me just dropped into a new low. Kinda wonders how come I keep stepping onto mines... Esp on Fridays...
Recieved a call from Jack concerning the seal costs.... Even I myself find the prices wierd so in the end, told him that I'll get back to him... aft I've chk-ed the costs. End up no time to chk.
Had a meeting with the other 3 guys in the dept... Mentor just kept slient most of the time... Interfering only when there was a need. Actually the meeting got nth much. Just deal with some of the gritty details...
Jerry says that I've done well. But looking at the facial expression of the 2 guys, I tink they hate me to core as I took some things from 1 guy to pass to the other guy... cause 1 of them look overloaded and stress while the other said the other time he wanted to tender cause he felt useless and outcast in the coy. But when I passed some stuffs for the other guy to do, he started to complain that he's got quiz comming up.... Can some1 kill me??
Actually already very lost. Now, it's even worse... The noon incident and the mtg made me felt so bad....
Stayed back hoping to do the PR so can send it over... and Survyn can send the PO on Mon. Jerry says need to let him chk... So in the end, only managed to let him chk like aft 5.30 then he say that no pt liao. So means I stay back for naught. FYI, I changed the PR like 4 times due to my carelessness already.... In the end, Jerry says, " I really dunno how are you going to be like in the future."
Got 1 proj dueing soon. Dun even noe got time to bring it in not... And I've yet to size and make purchase for the cooler. Faintz*
In the end, the entire fri nite at chalet was just Arte's complains bt work... Sat had steam bt for dinner followed by midnite KTV. Arte slept thru the rest of the day and at the KTV... Didn sing a single song... Actually wanted to go this morn instead. But Min cant make it... So in the end, we went for the midnite instead... While waiting for time to pass, Arte went to bed aft din (again)... bt 10plus, Sa came to get her up but she refused.... Really didn have the mood to sing at all just wanted to sleep... Then Sa ask how come sleep whole day hen ask if I'm running from anything and if it is work... Told her Ya and went back to sleep... In the end, dragged myself up and went to Kbox in town...
Reached there cont to sleep.... Went back to chalet. Cont to sleep.... Till morn...
Packed up ate bf. Came home. Watched a bit of show... Slept again...
That was the weekend...
The past week...
I rem sometime last week (tink it's tues), I went to Jerry's table... Stared at him... Couldnt bring myself to tell him... So just stared at him, trying to keep the tears away by smiling... Forced the words out of my mouth in mumbles...,"Eh I might be quiting..." He just stared at me, shocked. He asked why and suggested to go for a kopi but I told him that I'll be mtg the rest to go get wedding pressie for Rinov. So didn go...
I cant rem what I was doing the rest of the week...
Yesterday was supposed to be Rinov's wedding. Didn go coz the rest oso didn go... Yesterday was also told Ziwei's dad passed away... Intitally wanted to go to the wake but since I was clothed in T-shirt, shorts and bright pink slippers, I decided that it's a bad idea. But will be goin down later...
Realise that I'm sucha kuku head. Last week went to repair keypad 4got to repair 1 of the faulty button that's at the side oso.... Faintz*
& O ya... Wanna confess that I missed msg-ing Fang Happy Bday on Fri~