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Thursday,Nov 15 2007, 12:24:56 PMI need sleep!!!!
Feels sucky. Not very sure but apparantly Arte didn get any sleep last nite due to the cough (again...) The mind seemed unrested the entire nite... The same few issues flooded her mind... till 7am... Peng san*
1 of her greatest problem is that she likes to cont ram at the wall which she knows is useless... Think of things which she knows is unlikely or think of solns when there aint gonna be any...
They say to follow the decision made by the heart... But apparantly it always leads to wrong decisions.
Damn~ It sounds so negative! Cheer up gurl cheer up!!! =p
Tuesday,Nov 13 2007, 01:10:33 PMsick?? Grrrrr
Nth much to do... Decided to come online to blog...
Went out today with Sa to find sth in town... Just went there like yesterday to find sth... In fact went to quite a few places to find sth yesterday oso but... Nvm didn exactly got what I had in mind. Only got sth close. Anyway, back to today.
Have to say that I'm gonna have a nitemare of it falling from the sky coz I've seen so many of it the entire day. It's overwhelming and somemore have to use my imagination to "imagine" how it'll look like on some1...
Except for that is meeting Min for din at Novena n home.
Didn really had a fantastic day due to the kuku insufficient sleep yesterday. Damn. Thoat's so very in pain and the damn nose's blocked. Wanna breath using nose oso cannot coz nose block. Wanna breath using mouth oso cannot coz throat's so damn in pain... Wats worse is the non stop whooping cough due to the super dry n pain throat. Can some1 pls get the stupid cough bug away from me~!~!~@ Grrrrrrrr
Sunday,Nov 11 2007, 12:22:23 PMRest of the week events...
Just a short one to summarize the rest of the week...
Thurs was deepavali. Met QY for dinner.
Fri nite,last min met Evonne, Ad, Jeremy to go St James. Yao was supposed to join us. But last min didn turn up coz he had to accompany his mama who's in town.
Clubbed till bt 4. Ad cont with his frens and tired jeremy was too tired so he headed home while Arte & Evonne went off for supper at Harbourfront Mac. Chatted till 5.
It was raining cats n dogs when we walked out of the building... Lucky Arte managed to catch a cab aft Evonne left.
Home.
Sat...
Met Xingyu and Betty for lunch at Vivo followed by Yee n Nik for dinner at Cityhall. Stayed out till bt 11 plus...
Sun...
Stayed home. Didn feel well... Flu, Sore throat and cough filtrating my immune system.... Grrrr
Hope to find a job soon... Tink I'll fall even sickier if i still dun...
Thats all folks till nxt joun....
~~~Still trying to get over the feeling of dumping 4 mths of hardwork down the drain... The feeling is damn shitty cause I really spend a lot of effort as I really like the industry... The the time spent finding the infomation and looking at the schematics and trying out the calculation... But then again, I did not regret tendering as I am not willing to do the same mistake... To return to the coy right after tendering...~~~
Saturday,Nov 10 2007, 05:25:54 PMThe tender and last few days at work...
Finally, I still tendered...
On Monday, before meeting, shifu jerry was updating me the events of the previous week... Then he told me to be short n direct. I cont to tell him that I will be tendering. He stared at me. I cont, "you told me to be short n direct.". He cont to ask why didn I give him advance notice....
In the noon, bt 5, I took 2 Purchase Requisitions and the letter to Ms yang's office. After letting her sign the Purchase Requisitions, I handed the paper to her and to her that I have decided to resign. Had a chat. Told her that I wanted sth more mobile. Aft much for a while longer, she accepted the letter. Left her office.
Got Jerry into the office. They had a talk. They left the office to dunno where... Jerry came back to see if I was able to stay till Wed. Agreed cause I still have some stuff to settle.
Tues... 1st thing upon reaching the 2nd floor, the finance ppl already knew bt this. Was rather stunned. Jerry says that the Boss would like to talk to me later.
Bt 10 plus... HR manager went into the boss office. Got me in. Had a chat... Harry said that errors were unavoidable and I shldnt just give up like that. They offered me internal transfer. HR offered 3 posts. HR said if i wanted the proj post, I could go to find YT to know more bt his job scope and see if I was suitable... Just kept quiet... Actually the mobility wasnt the actual issue for the tender. It was just a secondary issue.
After seeing that I kept quiet, I was told that I was allowed to stay in the coy as long as I wanted and I can take my time to decided if i wanted the internal transfer or to leave.
Left the office... Jerry was nice enough give me a task to go to the old store to chk stuff and take sometime to think things thru.
Got a bicycle. Rode to the old store. Spent some time there thinking. Decided to retain my decision. Returned during lunch.
Even the last 2nd day of work, Jerry was still kind enough to teach me new things. Eyes turned wet... Jerry asked what happened. Told him sand flew into my eyes. Then Jerry say he ono mood to teach liao. Then we laffed and he cont to explain the stuff. Deep inside the heart, I wondered, where on earth can I find such a nice mentor who was still willing to impart me knowledge though he know that I was leaving. Many others wouldnt have been bothered.
After work, had dinner with the accounts gurls, Darren, Yao and Survyn.
Wednesday.
Last day of work. Got 1 good news for the coy. Managed to help the coy find an item which the rest have tot that it wasnt available and has to be manufactured by ourself. Was really happy for the coy.
Ms Yang brought us out for lunch. What made me feel worse was shifu, Jerry asking me to eat more. That made me feel even bad for leaving.
Except for that, cleared all the shits that shouldnt be passed on. And see what other things I could clear b4 i leave. Those that I cant, passed it back to shifu, jerry and the SH issues passed on to Jason. Passed the wire rope issue to Albert.
Went to see YT to inform him the outstanding stuff and who was to take over ths stuff till Cindy's back. He sighed and asked me if I was giving it my last shot b4 I leave. Gave him an affirmative ans. Then aft reporting things to him I chked if I had any thing missing, he sighed once more and said there wasnt any other issues. Bid him farewell and left his office.
Went back to organise the stuff to pass back to Jerry. Jerry said that if I really wanted to go to service, he would be willing to go with me to speak to the boss. Tot that mayb I shld really consider internal transfer. Heard sth. Decided that since I was serious bt tendering, I shldnt take back my word cause ppl will tink that I'm playing tender to get what I want.
Cont to clear my stuff.
5.30. Offically ended my last day. Decided to do some personal things. Went round to pass choc to the colleagues whom I have worked with and those who have offered me advise and guidance in a way or another and those who have offered me help.
Last 3... Ms Yang, SS and Harry... Bid them farewell and thank them for the guidance and to give me the opportunity to learn so much in the post I was offered. Ms Yang wished me all the best in my nxt job and said that if I needed anything, I could just contact them. SS asked me when was I going to officially inform him that was resigning. Told him that I did not know how to put it to him since it was him n Ms yang that gave me such a strategic post. They have tot so highly of me and I let them down. I really didn know how to tell him that I was giving away the golden opportunity which they have been kind enough to bestow upon me. Harry said that I could drop by the coy like another 1 of our ex colleague.
Eventually went to clear my table. Passed the notes that I have collected though I know that it might not be useful to him. But well, it beats dumping it to the bin. Halfway thru, SS dropped by my seat and say free go St James to chill. You bet it man!
Aft tat cont to pack the stuff. Returned Harry the bks he have given me. Passed Moe the shoes to return to store.
Left the coy...
Thruout the stay in the coy, I have nv shed a tear no matter how hard thigns went. But the last 2 days... I really couldnt control...
My regrets would have been that I've let my boss, the director and the senior manager who have seen much potential in me down... & I was actually willing to give up the golden opportunity of having a great future going overseas...
I really wonder how many bosses will be so nice to spend time finding suitable books for his employee and pass his latest collection of catalogue to her and even ask her she was having flu and ask her to take care?
Have to say, I'm very lucky to have been in this coy. The boss of the coy reminds me of my grand dad. The sales director resembles my dad. Senior manager like a super big sis. and my mentor and the asst engineer also reminds me of my dad.... If it hadnt been the fact that I made 1 wrong move, I wouldnt have left the coy. But looking at it from a different pt of view, I will be able to find a new and tougher battleground where there is less shelter and more over there, I'll be able to grow and also, in this job, I have learnt a lot and I know what type of job I shld be looking at...
Hopefully I can find such a job...
Thats all for now... Shall cont to update the rest of the days after the rest.