Journals
Tuesday,Dec 16 2008, 12:56:00 PMTues liao..
Somehow I tink some ppl are just guilible (except for me..) Haha. So easy to cheat by other ppl. Kinda wonder how they...
20th coming again... need to submit report.... It's soooo boring.
Monday,Dec 15 2008, 02:02:07 PMA detailed record of the wkend and coy lunch.
Dunno where to start. No mood to type cause it's gonna be a long one.
Tink the neck's muscle's pulled and the shoulder muscles also strained... But not very sure... only feel a bit erm 'suan'.... But well... All that can be done for now is only massaging it....
Cycling trip was well. Got a bit of burn on the thigh (which was why it's like so itchy and of coz the mosquito kisses too~~) Shall go into details later...
SBU lunch was today. Lunch was normal. But all I can say to myself was "Welcome to the real world." Apparantly, over the past few days, I've somehow seen enough. Seen how ppl 'bribe' over ppl and somewhat use others... and others, watch the show and some just use the situation to gain popularity.
I dun wish to go in the details of things I've seen over the past few days... But just a brief mention of what I've observed today..
A colleague (from 1 of the table) was drunk and creating a scene in from of the big bosses. Shouting their names. (I was wondering if he was shouting the names to praise them or in anger...) Till now, I choose not to comment nor do I wish to comment on the rumors that have been started (I kinda wonder, how will this story spread and what will happen to the guy...) Hopefully he does not get "S-ed" aft this event.
I'm not sure if some of the ppl were really concerned or they were just acting or letting it happen. Maybe it was part of playing with politics... Maybe I'm tinking too much. Guess it's better to give benefit of doubt.
But 1 of the thing I saw... Somehow it seemed to me that there was one who made use of the situation to increase visibility. Haha. The big bosses who were involved would not have noticed this.... What I saw was...
Some 1 was obviously acting. Shant mention names. Another, sarcastically mentioned some stuff... As if they were really watching some free show at the dining area. Funny is it?
Truth is that I've seen the guy go high before though I do not know him. What I felt is that if his frens know his character, they shld have sent him off aft the event before he made the commotion. There were so many of his frens around him, but only 1 pushed him away... Cant they carry him away together before he sprouted so much nonsense and got so close to the the bosses? Or were the ppl just happy watching the poor fella making a fool of himself and possibly getting himeself into trouble aft tat?
You might claim that he's old enuf to tink. But some times, ppl just do things that are un-justifiable... That's where the frens come in... Was that not in their instinct or were they too shocked to have anticipated that?
I'm not sure. Aft that there are still the ppl who fail to cont to happily describe bt him in such excitement...
The only sensible remark if heard was "What caused that behaviour? What could have been of him?" Rest were just like what last time Jerry used to say, tea break tales~~
Disappointment.
Gave QY a surprise yesterday. Went with the gurls over to her house... Added the DIY kenzo and the pooh to Wei's car's driver seat. Then drew a map for QY to find....
It was a funny one. We hid a lvl higher than her house lvl then gave her a call. We found a spot to peek at her and waited. We waited and waited for some sound from the door but there was none....
Aft a long long while, QY opened the door to get the envelop then closed the door and we wondered what went on... Then we heard the door opened again. Heard the lock unlocked and locked. Some one put on slippers and was leaving. We peeped. It looked like a guy wearing black pants... Prob her dad. Signaled Fang false alarm. Just as the signal was given, the sound of the door opening cam again... The door unlocked. Someone cameout to wear slipper. Door locked. The person passed by looked like her...
We tiptoed to the lift. Saw it stopped at 7th floor (QY's floor). It went down. We took the nxt one. In case she stopped at 1st lvl outside the lift to analyse the map, we decided to stop at lvl then take the stairs to lvl one.... Caught Wei (from the back) at the stairs. He did not see QY comming out of the lift. Faintz*
Started out blair witch proj. Sneakily sneaked to the carpark finding her.... Wei (and Sa initally) took the clip.... Aft sometime, QY finally found the car and opened it. Found Pooh, the DIY Kenzo and the card.... Called us. While Art and Fang walked towards her, Wei and Sa surprised her fr the back. What a surprise!
A pity the entire thing was not captured down....
Fri and Sat.... Desaru trip was not bad... Enjoyed the cycling a lot. But of coz Arte still wanna complain bt the strong wind blowing against the dir we were heading. Somemore it was upslope. It really felt as though we didn moved an inch (esp with 1st gear...) The beach was great~~~ Rest of the part of the trip was ok. Kinda look fwd to the nxt cycling trip~~
Sunday,Dec 14 2008, 09:50:54 PMOver the weekend...
Just a short one before geting to work. Maybe a more detailed one after getting home..
Glad to have gone for the Desaru trip. A rather nice trip out of sg. Kinda wonder why am I taking leave to torture myself worse still, at the end of all these, I find it rather nice and enjoyable~ (Suffered some ache here and there though~) =S
QY's celebration was another fun stuff. Kinda enjoyed arranging the surprise fer her. Haha Was telling Fang, it seems like we are arranging a surprise for Wei's proposal to his gf. Haha~ Nxt time if the guys wanna propose I'll def help to throw in ideas~~
A pity it' sun and we couldnt have stayed out longer. All got work on mon...
K la. Time for work. Shall cont nxt time~ Maybe if I'm back early fr work later.
Tuesday,Dec 9 2008, 12:43:39 PMfeeling beta~
I dunno what I wanna write... But I'm so in need to type a journ... I cant even wait for the page to finish loading and I've already started typing. Does this show how much I wanna type?
I've kinda just finished frying the fries and the eggs. A last min decision to make my own dinner. Tink it's a way to try to vent it out. Not really anger. But the upset.. Upset at myself. Upset at myself for being so gulible. Once again believed what was said. Then aft tat got shot saying that it wasnt mentioned at all. Using the "You're blur as an excuse."
But I'm very sure that had been denied before... I might have been blur but there are times which my memory works even clearer then the crytal clear water of the fountain or the dew that just materialise from the vapour on top of the mountian... This is how clear my memory can be.
But I decided to act nonchalent as that would have been a better way out... No pt digging onto the cement floor... I wun be able to dig any depth~ But this didn do much to remove that sickening feeling and upset.
Ok. dun ask me what it is about. I dun wanna talk bout it....
All I know is that I just wish that the feeling aint there... But it is. Thanks to my stupid 'gullibility'.
But no matter how, I'll need to figure out a way to remove this...
I'm no longer a child or a kid. I cant let my feeling get onto my way. Esp when it comes to work. I cant just take urgent leave cause I was feeling super down and emo. This is responsiblity to work. It is professionalism. I cant believe it. I nearly let myself succumb to the irresponsibility of just dropping my work cause I'm feeling so bad deep inside.... I nearly let myself drooop to that of a little kid...
But I'm glad I managed to hold myself thru.... cause I know that there is a responsibility to work that I must bear. I cant just anyhow take leave and drop everything just cause I feel like it.
The entire day @ work I've tried to contain the feeling. I managed to. I'm glad.
On the way home, I was silently glad that I happened to have a gathering with CH and ZW yesterday. Though the thing that made me upset came aft meeting the mtg~ I'm glad I've met them. Cause we happened to have the conversation which CH said that sometimes, we shld try to be more considerate to ppl round us. We shldnt just show our moods to ppl around.
Haha~ It reminded me sth. Min last min couldnt meet us on Sat as her mama's sick. She asked me to understand. I told her I didn. I didn. But I had to. I dont know how to put it. But 1 part of the brain refuses to understand. Yet the other know understanding the situation was the correct thing to do... It ended, I refused to understand. But I understood. Somehow I have got no idea to explain. But that was how it feels~~~
It's kinda wierd. I'm in the social university for longer a time then them. Yet, they are providing me the advises~~
Hava say, I'm glad to have such good budds around~
Actually, the down feeling was really bad. it's not easy to contain. Couldnt stand containing the sian-ness so made the way home... Nv meet Leng and gang... No pt showing the super sian face (like what CH has mentioned~~~)
Cant wait for the Fri trip~ Hopefully, it'll be a pep-up for Arte.
Wednesday,Dec 3 2008, 01:17:12 PMcomplains again~~
Time for journalling again..
I'm a bad gurl. All I can do is complain behind ppl back (in journ~~).
Was back from coy early. No mood.. Everyone thinks that the filing job is too lowly and they have got no time for it.. But they didn realise that if they dun file, they will take a much longer time to find drawing and will take a longer time in the future to get the drawing from the designer... So everyone else is just concerned bt "value-add" and is filing drawings part of their job... Inspection... But no drawing will result in more hold ups...
Inspector only know how to say busy with inspection. (then can go home in time) another inspector will only say need to key in data, no time (then if other ppl ask him to help do inspection, he'll be willing to help..)
What can I say except they win liao.
Colleague can drop email say wanna offer help. Have ask to help do filing when free... Then only wanna go inspection together and go meeting... I dun mind if help to do inspection at least help clear item (which is something useful).. If got time to get exposure at meeting why no time to help contribute to the proj and file the drawings?? Wanna help but wanna choose what to help... faintz*
Other 1 also good. ask the person to do sth say busy doing sth. then inspector busy ask me do help to chk status which is supposed to be inspector job.. like i very free like dat... ppl busy i free meh~
Typical singaporean... Only choose job and eee here eee there.... dirty job dun do throw. pretend nv see or eee here eee there....
Thats how these ppl climb... find whole world back them up... ask whole villiage to backup~~ It's kinda funny. Like those triad gang like dat.. Haha like play tug-o-war like dat~ Many big big ppl (in tug-o-war is size but in this is powerful ppl) in a nice way, this is called 'unity = power'.
ok nuff bt those complains~ cont will only make blood boil.
Watching the hk drama on ch 55.. Kinda funny~~ The guy brought the gurl to the rowdy dinner place on the 1st date~~ Yesterday even funnier. The gurl try 101 mtd to hint the guy to hold the her hand. Then the guy nv get the hint (still tink she wants to get a lappi~). Then end up the couple were in a crowded lift. Then she felt some 1 touching her. Then she told the guy softly but he nv say anything. Then she shouted. End up its the guy holding her hand~ =p
Kinda wonder how come so many 'masked' ninjas around that keep lying.. "faintz"