Im CONFUSED from all and i just wish all my amazing SISTERS understand ..life is  not always what we all wish we go up but also drop down  .. and in last year i wos drop and drop more then i wos stay up im in big mess with my feelings i know what i wanna but its big question is somewone who i lost know also .. and bisade all i see to much pain and more pain around myselfe and all  what  happend to my friends , sisters for who i care a lott , and belive or not sometimes more then i care ever for myselfe .. i never been selfish thet is very strange word for me i wos always give much more then i wos take ever in my life all what i get it wos  by my own .. My sister terminated account couse fake behavior from some people at this site and i cant belive couse BABIE wos best woman who i know with smile what wos really SUNSHINE at this site .. without her stay just DARK around and all FAKE emoticions from people who hurted her ... life in fake world is not life and we all been just hurted  .. i  LOVE somewone but i LOSING him  and only GOD know how much i miss him all this f* time till we are away he is my GARDIAN ANGEL  and i missing him couse he is  only who wos always really care for me ever in my stupid life ... i cant even writte  here anymore ..i will stay  away from this place and i houp my sisters MIRA,JAMIE,MAI,JAN,DESSIRE,MIKI,EMILY... and all others  understand me i must leave .. love you all ................ and you all will forever stay in my heart ..

*MAYA* 

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TO MY GARDIAN ANGEL ..MY HEART WILL FALLOW YOUR HEART WHERE EVER WE BE NO METTER TIME AND PLACE  I HOUP YOU KNOW THET I NEVER HATE YOU .. I CANT COUSE I CARE FOR YOU  AND I ALWAYS DID.. LIFE IS SHIT WITHOUT YOU AROUND .. TRUST ME... ITS A BIG PUNISHMENT  AND PAIN WHAT YOU CANT DESCRIBE BY WORDS ... HELP ME  PLEASE - PULL ME OUT FROM DAMN FIRE