Journals
Sunday,Oct 4 2009, 04:19:23 PMCarnival Of Rust
D' you breathe the name of your saviour in your hour of need,
And taste the blame if the flavor should remind you of greed?
Of implication, insinuation and ill will, 'til you cannot lie still,
In all this turmoil, before red cape and foil come closing in for a kill
Come feed the rain
'cause I'm thirsty for your love dancing underneath the skies of lust
Yeah, feed the rain
'cause without your love my life ain't nothing but this carnival of rust
It's all a game, avoiding failure, when true colors will bleed
All in the name of misbehavior and the things we don't need
I lust for after no disaster can touch, touch us anymore
And more than ever, I hope to never fall, where enough is not the same it was before
Come feed the rain...
'cause I'm thirsty for your love dancing underneath the skies of lust
Yeah, feed the rain
'cause without your love my life ain't nothing but this carnival of rust
Yeah, feed the rain
'cause I'm thirsty for your love dancing underneath the skies of lust
Yeah, feed the rain
'cause without your love my life ain't nothing but this carnival of rust
Don't walk away, don't walk away, oh, when the world is burning
Don't walk away, don't walk away, oh, when the heart is yearning
Don't walk away, don't walk away, oh, when the world is burning
Don't walk away, don't walk away, oh, when the heart is yearning
Monday,Feb 23 2009, 02:28:36 PMMom you were right :)
My Mom! Always told me this! from the day i started to understand words!
That Allah Doesn't give u everything that u ask for
he only gives u what is meant for u and what u deserve :D
i was too stupid not to understand this EVER! i always got what i wanted! Always did get what i wanted :D
but today! after all this 26 years of my life! i know how true she was :D
he didn't really choose this girl for me :D he choose someone else :)
Though i realized this in all this time :D That i do have a Heart that BEATS
but I just wanna ask Allah one thing ! why did he forget to give her a heart? did she not even deserve one?
Saturday,Feb 21 2009, 10:02:53 PMKarma!
Karma Got me :D and now its ur turn Babieh :D
I always thought that i was many times the reason to make people around me smile! i know i was not a jerk anyways! well! i know i was a flirt! and i did flirt with a lot of women! i broke many hearts! made them cry too! made them suffer too! asshole me eh :( ! but well i did fell in love with the girl who i thought was the most amazing girl in this world :D XD told her everything about me! my deepest secrets! she knows everything about me :D
Well i hope and pray that love peace and light may always be on her :D !! but I have to agree today! that Allah! sees and knows everything! there is a saying in my language! which says ' Allah ke ghar mein Der hain Andher nahi hain" which means! there is patience and wait in the house of allah but there is never ignoring! another saying is ' allah ni lakdi dheemi chhe pan andhadi nahi' this means Allah gives u time to change and stop being what wrong of a person u are but if u yet do u would be punished in the life ur living today and tomorrow!
I broke many hearts played with feelings of girls who claimed and said that they do love me! never thought what would be it like till today! i know how it is
i just know i am sorry to all the people who have had this feeling cause of me! i seriously am ashamed for all my wrong acts! today i stand at a place where i dont even love anyone not even myself anymore! cause the hurt would never let me love anyone ever!
Allah! i thank you for punishing me today! that i know how much wrong i was in all this life span of mine! Thank you for showing me the right way of life today! thank you for telling me and making me prove the saying ' sher ni maathe sava sher hoi chhe" which means there is always a higher power then any power
To all whom i have hurt! i am sorry and i ask for apology! to forgive me or not is all in ur hands! if u dont i am ready to take sufferings more though it would be nothing of what i m going now!
I just want to tell everyone who reads this! never do wrong u are being watched by God! never break trust love and respect! its hard to find it back again!
Just want to take one name out here! who always told me i was wrong! but i never listened to her! Sis! u know i am sorry for never knowing ur love and care and telling me what would happen if i take my step one more closer:) i know what u mean now!
An advice to all who read this too :D if someone tells you that there is a well ahead of u! think twice before taking one more step ahead cause u might fall and just would be sorry for what u did :D ! and honestly do make sure that u jump in the well that u realize how wrong u were and can have a start someday
Allah! I love u more then anyone today! and i believe in you only! forgive me for all my sins i ever did! i will try never to do any more
Today! i know i got played! i thought i was loved :D but well i forgot that punishment from Allah will be anything and i just have to accept it :D! Allah! i do accept my mistakes and i m sorry for all :D hope u would forgive me someday! and i am promising u never to do mistakes i did before
in the end :D i just want to tell everyone :D that be prepared to be treated the same that u have treated others! god is watching!
Love to all Zohar Battiwala
Thursday,Jan 1 2009, 03:48:11 AM<3
Your Body in my body; Your Blood in my veins; Your Love in my heart. I am yours, You are mine, we are one. My heart IN Your tabernacle; my heart IS Your tabernacle.
Understanding is patience with attentive eyes
If a lover loses their patience, then their love was a lie
This can be discovered by the amount of times that were pushed
And when we seized to dismiss the flaws that were never overlooked
BY others who never bothered to care
Or those that weren't significant enough to ever be there
Through the times of our pasts
With the memories that last
Into the present, to the future and forever
However, all of that means nothing when love becomes a forgotten treasure.
Take me to your heart
Show me where to start
Let me play the part of your first love.
Oh, I know down deep you love me
But are you ever gonna love me
The way I love you?
The beauty of the heart..is the lasting beauty:its lips give to drink ,of the water of life.Truly it is the water, that which pours,and the one who drinks.All three become one when your talisman is shattered.That oneness you can't know
Friday,Nov 7 2008, 05:28:22 PMLove!
Love!! The word that always gets me hurt! love! the word that is full of joy!
At times! we dont see how much we love a person! we see how much the person is with us!
distances so far yet wish the love to be stronger! everyone has life where they are angry , bored, tensed,worried about things. all they expect that who cares if no one understands them the love will! they go to them try to talk to them! and they get angry!! and even the love leaves cause they think they dont deserve a day of their partner anger moment!
I learnt this! a long time back! when in a realation always remember if one person is angry the other half should not! the other half should be cool so things dont get more worse!! but well never works!
No idea what i m writing! i just hate me