Journals
Wednesday,May 24 2006, 06:39:18 PMPoem Time
The Heros Last Ride
and rounded up his last battallion
and thought back to his love, the lady fair
and the last conversation he had with her
and after that would be happily ever after
wearily he looked at her with a sad smile
okay my queen for you one last mile.
living life not for me but for everyone
and ignoring the pain and emptiness inside
and instead worry about the happiness in your eyes
to his destiny on his very last ride
through marsh and rain and desert heat
his final enemy he rushes to meet.
the wounded warrior thinks back to his lover his friend,
to his lady love his heart does race
and he remembers her smiling face.
and he feels his life receeding,
and tears fall down his face,
he shall not return to his lovers embrace.
because it is at our heros lifes cost
and as tragically as it began
our heros legend his last ride it ends.
-John Wilson
Wednesday,May 10 2006, 12:58:38 AMSome one kill me or save me
I never been this missed up that I would do some thing like this. I normally all was gets things in on time. But I forgot to turn in my final, never forget things like that. what is wrong with me to forget things like that.
This one guy keeps wanting to sleep with me, I do not want he near me any way like that. I do not even want to be with any guy. I still in love, even thought he hates me.
Some one kill me or save me *tears falling down her face*
Thursday,May 4 2006, 11:37:24 PMLetter to Ku
you just do not get it, do you? You just do not get it at all… I keep poring my heart out to you….. I JUST WANT YOU TO LOVE ME!!! and you treat me like im nothing…. I just want to be special to you, I just want to be the only girl that your love, I want to be you angel!!! You do not even treat me like im your girlfriend any more.. that is all I want is to be your girlfriend.
I coming running to you for sympathy, some one I know that all was know that love me and be there…. and I get facts….. I keep feeling like you pushing me away, that you don to want me….
That is why I can up running and crying, telling not to leave, just begging you not to…. because I do not want to lose you and let I keep getting for you is ejection, you pushing me away and im scared, I do not want to lose you, I do not want you to leave. I just want be your girlfriend, I want to be special to you, WHY CAN YOU TREAT ME LIKE I AM ANY MORE????Thursday,May 4 2006, 06:13:45 AMLoyal
Im taken and im proud of that, because I love him, even though he is a ass to me and dose not care to state that he with me. his scream name is saru_gunjin, I LOVE HIM, just wish he would state and be proud of me
*breaks out sobbing in tears* I can not understand why he is not talking to me
why
is it that he can plan to do things with his friends but can not plan
out any time to call his girlfriend, especially the when he says I love
you more then any thing, and I want marry you one day.
*crying
out of pain* he use to be so sweet to me, called me his angel and sent
emails or called at least every other day if any thing, he use to let
me know what was going on
it kills me
and stress me out so much that he dose this, that he acts like he dose
not care, and dose not want me around, and ignore me because when we do
talk we end up in fights..
it should
not matter how dam scared you are, or how you hate it when we fight..
he should not just leave me in the dark, not even knowing the next time
ill hear from him or if I will at all, right???
If we really love one other as much as we say, that should not matter, right???
should not matter even if I live three states away, right???
*looks down as she tears roll off her check and hit the keyboard*
I
just want to be with him, I want to work things out and be able to hear
him call me his angel again, I want to be able to know what is going on
and for him to be happy with me and appreciate me..
Is that to much to ask for the one I love and the one that says he loves me back??