Sunday,Jul 23 2006, 02:06:23 AMTime

a other day, a other hour, a other minute waiting, lonely....  talk about the story of my love life...
that is what it all use to be, sadness, pain, happiness, heart racing as the minutes hours go by just waiting for that one call to hear their sweet voice.....
like i said that is how it use to be, there is still some of that but every night around 10:30, i go out my fount door and lay on my porch and stare out at the nothingness that lays beyond the edge of my curb.  i do not know if he is go show up, but i jsut lay there despite its still in the three digits and the dead grass matt is irritating my skin. i do not loss hope that he come or that phone ring.... i do not move from there...
i... I love him
what i feel for him what we have its so different then what i had for the others.... i do not even know where to begin to say that its like... .. maybe... maybe i found it... what i been looking for... belong and freedom....

Friday,Jul 21 2006, 01:09:31 AMRoll Coaster

"breathing deeply, walking backwards, finding strength to call and ask her, roll coaster favorite ride....." *sings*
its just one of those days that is great.... ^.^
first  at work, i did great on my interview. WOO....  plus, i stole my co-works tie.... and well... *evil grin* i wore it like i jsut came back from a office party and had to much to drank.... ^.^
best part was the teachers did not say a thing to me about it, jstu laughed and shacked their heads. it was great.  *grins*
but then i lost my cell phone in my co-works car.... so i was rising day the road trying to get to his place hoping that it was there.  on top of that i had to take one of my other co-works home. he was screaming in the pasher sit.
"oh, so not worry im great drive" *darts and wives between cars, while going 50 to 60*
*just screams* "set belt, i swear they saves life’s... lord bless them. they should make it one of the ten commences. thou shall all ways ware set belt"
and there i was jsut killing over laughing was i was drive still.
well after i made it home, i got to go out with my boyfriend and sale some. got about $15... not much, but its some thing and we empty his fezzes

"
The Poopsmith, he could talk
And Marzipan would rock
And the stick would be this big old tree
That'd try to eat everyone except The Cheat and me.
(Strong Mad: AND ME!)
(Strong Bad: We'll see.)

And The King of Town would be underground
In a box filled up with peas...

Bubs would give away flamethrowers
That shoot chocolate hundred-dollar bills;
My stupid baby brother would have been born with horns and a tail...
(Strong Sad: I'm evil.)

And Coach Z would wear this cool jacket,
And Homestar just couldn't hack it, (Homestar: I quit!)
And Pom Pom wouldn't change at all 'cept he'd look like an ABA basketball
(2, 3, 4)

And this little weirdo
Would be a modestly hot girl
To help me through the hard times;
You know, the kind that are only sorta hot
So they don't mess around with other guys."

*sings as she dances off into the sunset*
WWHHOOOO.... GOOD NIGHT NEW YORK

Saturday,Jul 15 2006, 02:27:35 AMits humorous

"Ok folks here we go ive got an issue that involves someone in my Past Zelda aka Aisha firefox  I told you it was over awhil ago and from what i hear the other day you were happy with  your new fiancee and you were moving to england with him im happy for you in  a sense  but it is over I told you why and no i didnt break up with you to be with my   girlfriend i thas been months since i broke up with you I am happy with my   Goddess more than i hav eever been with anyone and yes that includes you  if you wanna tell her what happened between us go right ahead if sh ebelieves you then  she believes you but you know what happened we fell apart cause you were so damn far away and I couldnt take the lil threee year old attitide  ooo oi had a bad day  i hurt my elbow whatever went wrong  no matter how small you called me or emailed me crying wanting me to pay all my attention ot you no matter what was goin on  on my end if i was sick working busy with family friends it was alwasy about you I mean dont get me wrong I love to help my gf I love to be there for the girl I love bu tyou were diffrent it was always you you you I tried to help you and explain things you thought i was treating you bad and talkingf down to you you ran to your  im friends saying i was controlling asshole i remember that I know you told me and they told me  iming me threating to kill me and the fact you couldnt accept who I was what religion I believe in you threatened to  leave me get rid of me becasue of that I couldnt take that  I had enough if you want to hear more just ask me hell you didnt even let me rp in ims with friends cause you was afraid  i was goin to run off with them and do somthing and yes I will admit I made a mistake while i was with you  it was for the reason i didnt care that much and an old flame who i no longer care that way for came back to me that is over and so are you and I   To my gf if you read this  please understand I  hav eever lied to you and never will believe what you will bu ti think you know me by now sweety  and Zelda if you keep  talking about me and if you harass my girlfriend as you did me and my freinds before i will make sure I am an enemy you dont want to make  so Im asking nicely this time back off Becasue I love my Gf more than I ever have  any other gf and I will alwasy be there unless she sees me diffrent now anyway i hav eto leave now im pissed and i need to blow off some steam  I love you baby please forgive me fo rbeing rude ill explain later."

HAHAHA, this is how he acts just because i said one little thing about him and i did not even say a name. its not like any one reads my post any how, so just chill, ill talk and write about who I will.  its my right and plus why you getting all touchy? its not like its detrimental to any one you know.
oh and I really like the part you put words in my mouth again, talk to any one of natal friends and they would know half of that is just you being jealous.
do not worry about you gf, I do not play with kidys any more.
im just find it humorous that you blow a gasit over one little sentins that in no one would any one really know who it was.... HAHH

oh and if we going to play the threting game, you do not want to miss with me. lets jstu say after the last bf, i do not hold back