Journals
Thursday,Sep 28 2006, 01:04:13 AMevery had one of those weeks
it jsut seenese that im having one of those weeks. you know the ones there you feel like nothing is going right at all. i been going from being sick with allgeys, to crying over every little thing, to not being able to comtrate on any thing...
it seem to all start when i was trying to get my gov paper done to turn in, i could not stand to be in the house that day, or even town, that sturday i had missed up big time at my job.... i was so upset that i done such a dum thing, that all i did was cry, i wanted to go with john out of town, but my mom was giving a hart time about that. he said he was going bespite, and all i could do was cry and clening on to him. well, i did get to go out of town, made me feel a little better. but let me in a time crunch, one that i could get out of, but ones i got home, its like i lost all my contration and will over monday night. sense then all i feel like doing was cerl up and hide under the couvers.
Friday,Sep 15 2006, 05:11:32 PMthe asnwer to human kind pizzal
what is love with out life, and what is life with out love. people ask this things over and over to them self to only find no asnwer. but here is my asnwer to question that pleges herman kind. love is not some thing that you should seek after like gold. do not say you in love if you only love the fact of love. love should not be fear, but respect. love is not binding, but freedom. love is for every thing, jsut not some parts. love is when you go to hell and back agin, when its jsut one little fight or disagreement to the freak outs. love is when you catch them when the floor is pulled out from under them. love is nothing more then a Best Friend with hugs and kisses. every one knows that Best Friend are not found, but made.
so, do not seek for love just to had it, let it come to you, then that is when you be the happyest.
Tuesday,Sep 5 2006, 11:08:00 PMto the ex of the world
some people are jstu jerks. you know how they are by the way they treat you and every one around them. sadly i been with many of this, i know beucase of the way they treat me even after they dumped me. really its hard enough to lose girlfriend or boyfirend as it is, but to add to it to lose you friend jsut add to the sutsideal pain you feel. to all those people out there that dumped some one why can not you jsut forgive them and be there friend if they want to.... well that is if they did not cheat on you, or hit you or lie, or some thing like that. people that do that to people jsut should be hanged and shot. to the he before the him's: sorry did not work out, you jsut could not stand up to your family at all, Him 01: you better sleep with one eye open becuase if i find you ll show you what real pain is, Him 02: eh, you jsut to young and never wanrted me to do much of any thing.
Pokey: i love you so much, i know you would whisp my way to the chapal if you could. i jsut got to ask why there is so many people like this int he world though? im sure that people do not want to be treated like shut, but let they them self treat people like this. >.< some days i jstu wish i had to power to make it all stop. but let all i can do is start with my self and hope that catch on.... *rolls eyes* doutbfull. but maybe one day pokey