Sunday,Jun 15 2008, 08:12:29 AMwho or what am i?

Why is it the only time i feel true happy is when im alone and just saying whatever, doing what ever i feel, just with the music turned up and dancing and daydreaming… i feel when im at my wildest, im the most happy…  

Over time im beginning to think that im not really any thing, im just there…
like a wild animal or some thing out there… i feel a lot like the story Nightingale
im not meant to be cased, changed, trained, moved, molded…
maybe.. just maybe im like a blue rose..
you know what a blue rose mean and is, no? (answer: Blue roses traditionally signify mystery or attaining the impossible. They are believed to be able to grant the owner youth or grant wishes.)

I feel like I just mean to se watched, not owned… like many try to do to me. I would not mind if there was some one else there, I love to play. But play with me not against me… I guess what this is about is trying to find someone that is not there, trying to get my wings back for good… “If I was trapped would you save me, if I lost my wings would you be there?” do you know what that means?

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Monday,Jun 2 2008, 05:38:47 AMA-kon 19

i jsut got back from a-kon, well, really i been home sense 7 today (sunday 6-01-08), but there is some pictures of me at a-kon in my pictures, and here is a link to some more
Z Gallery

hope you liek them, leave comments about them... its the only way ill make it until next a-kon... for now going to bed in hopes that is stops feeling like its moving or going up and down elvaters.

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