Journals
Monday,Sep 19 2005, 08:32:13 PMBelgium Trip September 2005
I am back from my 2 days trip to Belgium and Amsterdam churches la. It was a busy two days and there's a lot of travelling involved. I landed in Belgium airport at 9:00 am Saturday morning, then I took 50 minutes coach to Brussels train station and from there, took 50 minutes train to Antwerp Central station and walked to church. It was a long journey and I left house in Dublin at 4:30 am, arrived Antwerp church at 12:00 noon. I only booked my ticket on that Wednesday and I am struggling to go or not because of the costs of transportation and the amount of travel involved. God inspired me to think about the past, in Bible OT time, where people travel (on foot or by carriage) a few days from different cities to go to Journalism to worship God. I am only a few hours, no big deal. God is more than worthy for me to travel all the way to Belgium to learn, to experience & to grow in Him!
I started sharing in the youth fellowship Saturday afternoon to the young people there on topic: "Walk closely with God and ask God for signs before every decision we are making". I shared how God provided me with a car and job, and how God walk closely with me.
16:30, Pastor Chan (Antwerp Church) and me started driving to Amsterdam church to meet Pastor Wong, then Pastor Lum's (HK funny pastor) outreach meeting started at 19:00. It was a great outreach, many back-sliders re-committed themselves to God and new friends became Christians. After meeting at 22:00, we (Pastor Chan, me and Pastor Lum) started our 2 hours journey back to Belgium as Pastor Lum is speaking on Sunday in Antwerp. Again, a great outreach and as usual, the message was so funny and I couldn't stop laughing.
Before I went, I set 3 purpose for this trip:
a) To share and to see how's the youth in Antwerp, especially the ones who shared their problems with me in July 05 and the ones who became a Christian in the Mission Trip Youth Outreach.
b) To grow, to learn, to experience God.
c) To invite Pastor to Dublin if possible.
By the grace of God, they were all achieved! I learnt a lot, share a lot and see the youth growing in Antwerp as well. I have also check-in hotel, carry stuff for Pastor Lum a few times and go to 'dim sum' when he is in Belgium. So I shared about what God did in my life and about our youth here in Dublin. He was interested about the youth ministry in Europe (and in Dublin) as he himself is a youth pastor. So we had a great time talking but in my heart, I still felt difficult to ask him to come to Dublin as we only met for a short period of time. On Sunday afternoon, I was walking back to hotel with him as he need to get change after Sunday service. He suddenly said to me: "I would like to visit Ireland." In my heart, I said: "Thank you God!" as He opened doors for me to share what's in my heart. So I told Pastor Lum we would love to have him coming to Dublin to speak to the youth here as youth speakers / pastors / workers are lacking in Europe. I also share my thoughts about the aging problem in European Chinese churches as a lot of Pastors are not youthful enough or don't have the ability to minister and look after young people. If there's are no youth, our churches will be gone in one generation! At the end, he said keep in contact and asked for my e-mail address. I was so happy afterward..... just happy......
On the way back to Dublin, I was meditating on the coach... I was thinking the un-saved young people here... I started to, I am not sure imaging or seeing the youth outreach on the Thursday - 20th Oct 05. I see some of them sitting in church and listening to me sharing. I started want to cry as I see these people...
Then I just keep praying and thinking until I arrived airport.
So that's my sharing form the two days... Hope you all will continue to pray for the young people here in Dublin as they still not yet have the passport to go into Heaven when they die. Time is running out fast and the Gospel of Mark said: "Jesus is standing right outside the door!" Once Jesus opens this door, our time will reach the final stage before the New one come, and no one will be able share the Gospel and save lost souls anymore and forever! Please also pray for me as well as I will seek God every night this week about His calling and plan for me.
In Him,
Ah Hoi
Tuesday,Sep 6 2005, 12:27:25 PM無論發生任何事, 總要振作 !!
天父，慈愛的天父，無論發生任何苦難，請容許我仍要稱呼你為慈愛的天父。因為你並非隱藏在至高處，反而透過基督現身在驚濤駭浪當中，並背負沈重而粗糙的十字架，在泥濘的苦路上連跌數次，令你身上的鞭傷加劇痛楚，最後還要被釘在十字架上，任由三口鐵釘撕裂著你手腳上的釘孔。
耶穌啊！你在十架上留彌之間，還寬恕了釘死你的人 - 即我，忍受劇痛之餘，仍向著天哀問父神為甚麼離棄你。起初，我以為是我的罪把你釘在十架上，誰知，是你永遠的愛情，把你釘死在各各他山。
誰敢問你知否人世間痛苦，原來你不止知道痛苦，因你就是苦難的上帝，為了我的罪而陷在苦難之內，身心靈在極度痛苦中跨進死關。
為此，苦難的基督、慈愛的天父，你深切體會我的感受，你曉得不能再擁抱致愛親朋那種無奈的情懷，你了解呼天不應叫地不聞那種被棄絕的心境……。苦難的基督，求你緊緊的擁抱我。
悠悠夜空，聖靈用說不出的嘆息為我祈求，又透過微微寒風，把苦難基督的心聲送入我的心靈：「我餓了，你們給我吃；渴了，你們給我喝；我作客旅，你們留我住；我赤身露體，你們給我穿；我病了，你們看顧我……。」
慈愛的天父，多謝你藉保惠師對我發出微聲的呼喚，是的，基督，你正在這裡！
苦難基督，我在這裡，請差遣我，因為，壓傷的蘆葦，你不折斷，將滅的燈火，你不吹滅。這將折斷的蘆葦是我愛心的杖與竿；這將殘的燈火是我禱告的愛火。慈愛的天父，請救救我，讓我可在自己眼前的一大片稻田，繼續燃燒！
奉耶穌基督的名求，阿們。
(靈感來自吳振智牧師)
Saturday,Sep 3 2005, 09:28:21 AM陽光
出面好大雨
濕淋的人不很舒服
開始有點掛念陽光的日子
這陣子有幾場離別
生生死死 離離合合
多謝你們 我的知己 我的朋友
全靠你們 我才可以撐下去