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Sat, 17 Nov 2007 11:15 EST

今天和獅獅 and 美眉喝茶。。他也去。。

擺了冷面。。他說我一直在微笑﹐可我的眼里只有悲哀。。。我裝著沒聽到

期限越來越靠近。。我只能收起心。。擺冷臉。。才能讓自己不再依賴他﹐不再留戀他。。

剛剛肚子痛。。頭暈。。被他看見了。。我不願告訴。。不想他以為。。裝病留他。。

鐵絲頭說"放手吧。。時間會治療。。你會再笑的"

放手。。真的快樂嗎?

空間太大的夜晚。。唯有忠心的vodka陪伴。。我才能。。安然的入睡。。。

-傷-

Emptiness....

Sat, 18 Jun 2005 12:29 EST

Date: 19 June 2005 Time: 0120 Location: Home

Emptiness is such a scary things especially when the sense of having someone to be there 4u is so strong.............itz will scare u til u feelin like cryin, shoutin, yellin juz 2grab ppl attention...even juz 4a second of time...........

A swap of ppl surroundin doesnt necessarily make u feel warm in heart...in stead sometime it makes da emptiness inside u shouted more loud....but sometime...when u are alone...emptiness was not present....funny ways how ppl are....

Things change alot when years pass by.....u grown up...responsibility juz like a rolling snowball..itz become bigger n bigger.....ppl look up 2u...hv hope in u...more problems ahead of u....best frens weren't so close bcoz each has new partners that they spend most time with.....schoolwork,asgm all pilling upon u..

Everyone has their own way to overcome everything thou.........some seek advice from elders,some juz need a person to leen on,some shouted out loud on top of moutain,some play games o some juz simply take some time off 2b alone n refresh...either way would be a right way for the right person....

Emptiness could make a person thought about alot of things....past,present o future....think n makes things great...make the best out of u...so either way...emptiness wasnt such a scary thing..

Date: 27 Apr 2005...

Wed, 27 Apr 2005 04:17 EST

Date: 27 Apr 2005 Time: 1710 Location: Home

Mom n dad not at home 4a week.....hv 2take care everything...lazy 2go out eat...so have 2cook 4myself n sis....suddenly feel like im becoming a hsewife for a week...wahahah

A pretty weird experience....cooking...not i nv cook b4...tis time is really cookin...soup,meat..gosh...itz not as easy as i tink it is...like last nite...try to fried fish...duno y...i juz cant fried out the taste like how mom do it...feel abit dissapointed...then make a veggie soup...luckily my sis didnt complaint bout my cookin....hahaha...

Dear was sayin that he wanna stay wit me til fri so tat he can cook n take care of us(now u understand y i dun cook)...coz juz both if us gals at home...he woli bout our safety....but,i wanna be independent...hahaha!!!actually is he stil havin class n he need to start doin his asgm n prepare 4his exam..bside, i dun wanna he waste his air tic too...not worthy...so i shove him bac 2kk...hahaha..

Stil....i wil try my best!!!improve my cookin!!! Gambate neh!!

Date: 26 Apr 2005 ...

Tue, 26 Apr 2005 05:23 EST

Date: 26 Apr 2005 Time: 1816 Locatio: Home

Juz celebrate my 21st years old birthday on 24th apr....finally bcome an adult...haha..B.C, J.W.,Yen, Y.Y., Kelv, Hong, Bry n Dear celebrate wit me on 23rd apr....went to planet hollywood...very very hapy....very very touch.....I'm so glad to c everyone so happy n "xing fu" .........hahaha....after hv dinner at planet hollywood....we went to MOMO cafe.....on midnite....they bring out a tiramisu cake....yum yum....gosh...so touch... For da 1st time, everyone bf show up....wow....gosh...itz like a big celebration....im really happy to c everyone...

On 24th, went to genting wit dear, sis n her bf..hahaha....went into casino 4da 1st time....gosh...alot alot of ppl in the casino.....juz play slot....didnt dare to play others....haha...money money money.....im really glad that dear would come here purposely to celebrate my b'day wit me...Jia you o ni go bac must study hard o...then hope you would come bac here asap....dun tink i like the feeling without u by my side...

Happy Belated B'day 2me~ ~!!!

Date: 18 Apr 2005 Time: 0147 Loc

Sun, 17 Apr 2005 12:58 EST

Date: 18 Apr 2005 Time: 0147 Location: Home

Been off for awhile....miss on9 soooooooooooooooo much...ouch ouch....so sad ('.") my comp got broke off again....for the Nth time....sigh..sob sob...now surfing thru net using honey laptop...luckily got honey...

Juz got bac2day(s'pose to be yesterday evenin) haha.....holiday...holiday...holiday 2months....gosh....whole 2months long holiday.....so happy..haha....exam juz end....hope marks wont sucks.....sigh...tis time...the subjects are so damn.....scary n woli.....sob sob...so scary...but well,enjoying holiday is pretty important too rite?haha...wekeke

B'day comin soon...cant wait for da day to arrive..da day i turn to ADULT officially...21 year old!!! hehe....will celebrate wit my dearest pals n oso dear dear dear come purposely from sbh juz 2celebrate my b'day wit me.....so touch....love u muc muc dear n HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY to U, my dear...muakszss...................

By the way,the only single in my gang...the old Birdie had finally got herself a lover...hahaha congratulation pal..muakszzs.....so happy 4u....hope he treat u wit love n care.....really happy 4u...

Juz got a new hair cut....honey keep on laughin when he saw me wit my new hair cut....sigh..sob sob...itz not really tat bad......at least i dun tink it is....but seems like nobody is sayin anyting nice nor bad bout my hair...everyone juz say CUTE.....SOB SOB.....

Well...til nex time....log off now....

Date: 1st March 2005 Location:...

Tue, 01 Mar 2005 04:21 EST

Date: 1st March 2005 Location: Uni Lab1

It's been a long time since i left this page....haha...been really bz lately....test,asgm,trips n prom nite!hahahaha....bz...bz...bz....but FUN

Juz had my prom nite last fri...the 1st prom nite tat i ever went....pretty fun...honey come oso...purposely from sarawak...haha...2accompany me...hehe thanx dear....i really touch!!!after prom nite...had 2 test on the nex day...auch!!! but still ok....tink can score...haha mighty mighty me!!! jk!!!

On last few weeks.....went for a one day trip to Kota Tinggi Waterfall....we gather at uni at 7:30am....reach bac at 1:30am...hahaha...but it'z alotz alotz of fun...get to noe a few nice,fun guys n gals!!! haha...thanx Jeebar!!!IT'Z THE BEST trip tat i been...bside Kota Tinggi Waterfall, we oso went to DUTY FREE Zone n Danga Bay..s'pose only 2places tat v're goin...but in the end...everyone was so happy..we decided to went to 3places instead!!!tatz y bac on 1:30am....hahaha....

Prom nite was known as TRINITE bcoz itz a nite organize by 3 clubs....the biggest n grantest of all in our uni!!!!I'm one of the committee!!!hahaha....tat nite was superb...although alotz of preparation has 2be done before hand...but...i'm really tat it turn out so well...we had fashion show,break dance and live band...i noe it sounds simple..but tatz our point...our focus was 2 let coming graduates had a nite they can enjoy n dance....dance....dance....we're giving away free door-gift..a cute lil' bear bear(got one myself)hahaha....had roses for sell....oohh...beautiful roses..Cass bf surpiz her wit flowers n a cute teddy.....so muc love!!!!...The DJ was funny...man..he can really turn the heat on!!!very funny..... nex yr...i'll definately go...as a gonna grad though.....sigh...so fast...leaving uni soon.....missin missin missin....

Tatz all til now...need 2 get bac study...having a test tis fri...Int. Mgmt!!

date: 2 dec 2004 time: 21:39 ...

Thu, 02 Dec 2004 08:03 EST

date: 2 dec 2004 time: 21:39 location: K.L. home Holiday now.....s'pose to be happy now.....i am happy....but was interrupted by some bad feeling...it won't go away...til now....sucks..hate feeling like tis!!!so bad!!! My comp juz got format again....sucks those viruses that cramp my comp!!!damn!!! my sis!!! angry her like hell now!!!!i dun understand!!! everytime!!!!everytime!!!!y must she always use those stupid,idiot,rude words when talking to people!!!(including towards US!!her FAMILY) mind u guys....she's 6yrs younger than me!!! i couldn't stand the stupid way she talk to us!!!!whenever she's trying to express her angry o happy!! she will always use all those word!! like calling ppl fei cai!!! yes!!even towards her family!!!!!!! (those who couldn't understand wat that means...i'm sorry...itz a chinese/cantonese words) not juz so...she would even simply juz say go die!!sometimes!!!i'm so pissed off with her words that i would like to give her a slap till she wake up!!!looks!da truth!!how could she uses such words towards her own sis n parent!! could u believe her"?!!!itz not that i'm in a problem family...i'm in a good family background....dad n mom love each other too muc...sometimes even...eiiiuu.....stop!!thatz not the point...the point is...i dun understand y everytime she would like to use those words juz like she's drinking water!!!! damn!!!damn!!damn!!!i'm so angry wit the ways she talks n her idiot attitude!!!!!!eeerrrggghhh.....feel like crushing her now!!!eeeerrrggghh.....hate her like tat!!!alot!!!!!!!

Date: 4 Nov 2004 Time: 13

Wed, 03 Nov 2004 23:33 EST

Date: 4 Nov 2004 Time: 13:10 Location: Lab2

Doin asgm now....need 2hand in on Monday.....thinking...thinking....wat options stil can be written in it...if possible...wanna put in 3more pages la...

Missing home liao....didnt went back for 1month lo......mmmm.....miss mom cookin alot le....last week....joan b'day....hahaha..me n honey share the present....of course i pick la...hahaha...brought her personal item...very very sweet n nice.....even myself oso like very much

Final exam coming in 2weeks time...abit scared now....results for mid term....sucks!!!damn!!need 2 work hard on final... tutorial had end.....lectures..not sure yet..one aledi end...another not sure yet...think will finish on 2molo......so 2weeks off....2weeks of study week.......push myself harder!!!! EvERyONE....push me 2study n pray 4me.....nEed ALot.....thanksss....

So soon....juz start tis sem for 4weeks.....g

Tue, 19 Oct 2004 22:53 EST

So soon....juz start tis sem for 4weeks.....gonna hv mY 1ST TEST 2nite.....mmmm Information system Management......

Last week...went for shopping wit JOAN....hehe got 3 shirts n a bag...hehehe...cheap cheap cheap...all wit discount....nice nice nice.....wanna buy jeans later..hahaha....mayb nex week will go again...hahaha....shopping wit JOAN was alot of FuN~ ~!!! she knew alot bout fashion n wat suits well....wekekeke hope she would b free nex week.....then i can go shop shop shop wit her again....STRONGLY need recommendation on SHOES!!! hahahahaha...

date: 3 oct 2004 time: 1:11am ...

Sat, 02 Oct 2004 11:46 EST

date: 3 oct 2004 time: 1:11am location: HOME Finally,recover from illness!!! wahahah..sooooo happy....but alot of my frens fall sicks...even honey too :"( hope he get well soon...aledi sick still keep on eating all spicy n fried food....dun wan listen when ask him dun.....when i wanna eat..cannot!! so unfair la!!@_@ Bac in kl again....went out 2day(s'pose 2b yesterday coz aledi 1smtg mornin now) watch jackie chan new movie " xing jing cha gu shi" (new police movie) very very funny...nicholas so funny in it...wahahaha...but wu yan zhu is so bad in da movie le..mmm...always like him de..but see tis movie got bit drop liao la!!! so unfair la...wwaaaarrrggghhh.......but found a new target liao..hehehe...da boxer in it...wow..

date: 22 sept 2004 time: 11:05

Tue, 21 Sep 2004 21:52 EST

date: 22 sept 2004 time: 11:05am location:uni lab1

Juz start class yesterday and im sick!!! (-.-)" went to see doc aledi yesterday....she gave me quite lots of medi..some makes me sleepy too..thus, for such a long time..last nite was the earliest nite tat i went to bed..at 10smtg pm......(^.^)|"

I'm blur now...can't function my brain correctly...duno wat i'm thinkin n writing of now...must b bcoz of the medi.....wekekeke :P

Eventhoug im sick.stil..im happy...wekekeke...bcoz im not the only one who's sick!!! ^^ wahahahaha.......another 2frens of my oso sick aledi...so all of us are banned from spicy food n cold drink til we're recovered....wahahaha.....

3days!!! I didnt touch spicy food for 3 days!!! such miserable life....cant eat chillies...no curry....mmm...wat kind of life is tis?! cant bbq...(my fren had a bbq party for her b'day) i end up eating meehun n fruits only...mmmm.........so pai mia.....

Now stil in lab..checkin mails..playing games n chatting..wekeke...later at2pm got class...came early to uni bcoz wanna register for aerobics class...it always get full in no time..tatz y hv 2 wake up earlier to sign up...hehe ^^

date:15 sept 2004(WED) time : 4:26pm Duno...

Wed, 15 Sep 2004 03:22 EST

date:15 sept 2004(WED) time : 4:26pm Duno watz wrong wit my stupid comp...cant post a journal a few days ago...."sigh" having somethings very fun goin on tis holiday...hehe Before anything start, my 1st sem results juz got out yesterday!! although not distinction..but im quite proud of them aledi...hehe..coz after whole 4 tiring months of rushing and pressure...my results DID NOT drop...juz maintain...balancing...wahahahaha...applause plz (^_^) In tis holiday...i had 2 farewell for my 2beloved friends..one is primary friend..another is secondary friend..the 1st gone to russia n da second one is goin to U.K on 16sept...wish them all the best n good luck for all the things tat they encounter (^_^) My best pal...B.C...had a bf aledi!!! FINALLY!!! wahahaha......J.W and I had open a champaigne as celebration after v got the news!! we're so happy for her!! way to go gal!!! yahoo... Went out with my best pals a few times tis holiday.. having some great time...taking "da tou tiek" ( machine photograh...all small small pic de..."da tou tiek" is in chinese) Honey come to kl find me on last wed..hehe..stay for two days...so happy...v went to take our 1st da tou tiek...hehe..look quite nice le..hehe...then we went to had sushi...he had always wanted to try low yatt sushi king sushi de...but trust me la..better than the one where im studying...Didn't fight wit him during these two days.. the truth...didnt fight wit him for a month liao lo..hehe Miss him alot now...on the two days tat we went out.. I'm very touched wit how he treat me...how much he sayang me...deep down in my heart..im fairly..very touched by his act n words....dear..how r u doin now? Well....goin bac mlk on tis sunday...term2 starting on nex monday....hardwork coming thru soon...hehe

Hehehe...having headache now...2day a sick...

Tue, 07 Sep 2004 03:40 EST

Hehehe...having headache now...2day a sick day 4me...juz had a stomache 2day morning and....waaarrrrrrhhhhhh..........kinda sad la...

Yesterday went out wit my pals...s'pose to help Y celebrate b'day..althought tatz wat they tel me...but duno wat happen?like juz normal hang out it seen 2me...'sigh' hope things aren't getting more worst.....

Honey will come kl find me 2molo....yeah!! yeah!! he oso promise tat he will stay for 2 days.....i'm so happy ~!!! hehehe...miss him alot alot aledi....finally gonna see him soon.... (^_^)|''

gonna burn songs later....promise help honey burn songs...gonna burn myself a few cds too....so tat when bac mlk will have lotz of songs to hear...hehehe

Dunno howz my results....pretty worry too...hope tat everythings will pass excellently and nicely...if not....'sigh' 'sigh' 'sigh'

Wish tat someone is here to help me massage now....wahahaha....neck pain...'sigh' young heart trap in old body...nahhhh....stil young!!!! haha....

Howdy?!! I'm finally in holiday now...yahoooo

Fri, 03 Sep 2004 05:10 EST

Howdy?!! I'm finally in holiday now...yahoooo.....hehehe.....juz dye my hair for the 1st time today.....ash blonde....but it doesn't look anything near blonde 2me...but i still love it very much...bcoz tis is how i want it to be.....juz like the P.D. model hair color...hahahaha......anyway..my primary school fren juz left to russia on 31st august...study...he's taking general medi..hehe...gonna be doctor when he comes bac...wish him all the best and good luck (^_^)Y

yelow....hehe...miss home so dearly...juz...

Tue, 03 Aug 2004 21:26 EST

yelow....hehe...miss home so dearly...juz hope tat i can get bac home soon...didnt go bac for a month more...miss mom cooking alot alot alot...started to miss my bf too..'sigh' juz see him last week only..duno y stil miss him so muc....aaii...