I am still in love with my ex-boyfriend Michael Lankford after he has cheated on me three times. The most recent time I took him back, he acted serious about everything and did things he never did before in our past relationships. He held my hand, complimented me, and even held me differently. I thought he had finally come to his senses and had made a change for the better.

Then he had a four-wheeling accident and was diagnosed with mild amnesia. Things went back to the way they were in our past relationships. He began to ignore my phone calls so I decided to pop over at his house for a visit. His mom tried to get a hold of him. When she couldn't, she contacted his brother and he said that Michael was out with some other girl.

I begged Michael to stay with me for a about a week. When he wouldn't call back, I finally left him a voice message saying it was over. I cry nearly every night about him now...and if I hear a love song that even has a hint of comparison about my relationship with him I cry even more...

I keep wondering to myself...if Michael didn't have that accident...would he have cheated on me or would he stay with me? He doesn't remember calling me his bonita chiquita (beautiful girl) the night before it happened... Does that mean he would have stayed with me if he didn't have the accident?

I still love him with all my heart and I always will...