Got hurt again...
The pain stings like knifes.
I wish I didn't let myself get hurt all the time.
Guess I have to stop trusting people.
Guess I'll just give up on everything.
Don't know how to,
But I guess I'll find a way...
I'll try to turn off my feelings,
And shut down my heart.
Maybe that will be my saviour.
Maybe that's how I will survive..
Perhaps it's all my fault.
I let it happen again
I gave it a chance,
even though I was afraid that it would all happen again.

Well maybe I'll just stop.
Just give up on everything.
Just let it all be...
Let the world move on without me there.
Just don't give a fuck..
Maybe you were right.
maybe it's better to just don't give a fuck about anyone at all..
Maybe I'll try it your way now
See how that goes...

Don't really know what to do now... I know I really care, but not how mutch... Wish I could just open up an give all of me, but I did that once, and it hurt as hell! So now I'm more layed back and just wondering if his words are true, or if it's some kind of try to make me love him in that way again. Not sure about anything. Didn't know what to say when I heard it..... All I know is that he's my baby... my one true friend who I know I can count on allways if I ever need to be held, talked to or even just given a hug. I know he's there for me, but when he's not here, what does he do? Will he go behind my back again? will he hurt me? Even if he doesn't mean to, it migh happen... He might be the one that in the end showes me that real love does not exist... I don't know. I care... I really do... Just don't know to mutch more that that...

You hurt me today...
I guess, more than you can understand.
You did the wrong thing,
let me know in the wrong way...
Don't really know what to say,
don't relly know how to act.
Don't understand what makes you do this to me.

I gave you all of my heart,
maybe to quick...
Maybe to much...
Maybe I should just have kept my feelings for myself,
and don't let them grow.
But I really thought it was ok this time.
Thought I could trust you words.
Maybe I'm just stupid.
Maybe I'v just been blind.

I'll give up now