I dont even know why i am writing here, i dont even know why i am online. maybe i am somehow hoping that he will turn up! But i know he wont.

It is so hard, i have been with this guy for so long, we had fights and found a way to get over it, but then the other day, when we had a fight he said, i dont love you anymore. My heart broke, and i was so confused, but what could i do? Nothing...

Then today, he tells me he still wants to be with me, but he cant say that he loves me, he dosnt have that strong feelings anymore. Im so confused.. He dosnt love me, but he still wants to be with me. He tells me to be paitent and it will come back slowly. Somehow i dont understand why i am with him, somehow i dont understand why i let him break my heart like this. It is so hard.

Dahm I wish I had my brother Mohamed, he would tell me what to do, he knows the right thing to do, because right now i just dont know it.

I hate my life right now :(

somebody help me

Every morning as I wake up I think of you, as the hero that came into my life.
More and more you appeared to me when I was in strife.
Afraid I could not live without you in my life.
I only prayed every day and every night.
to have a brother like you by my side.
When I was hurt so many times.
you never let me down.
therefore I am proud.
to call you a true brother.
Even though I know you're not a child of my mother.
To me you'll always be.
Remembered you see.
As Mecca the person who saved my life.
forever the memory will seem right. <3


Many people say they wouldn’t want a little sibling
But without you life wouldn’t be worth living.
When I'm mad at the world I look into your beautiful eyes and every thing seems alright.
When I touch your fair soft skin I suddenly come alive.
That’s when I know that out of all the little boys in the world God sent you especially to be my little brother.
I Love You Brother <3

Ones in a while people say and do very stuppid things in life... And i must say that i do that too..... The other day, something happend in my life, well you can say it fucked up my life. I needed my best friend and i tryied to write to him, i didnt even think about what i wrote, i wrote how i felt. after that i went out and got really really drunk, if i remember correctly i think i wrote my best friend a msg more, but im not sure because i cant remember.

When i got home after 2 days, i could see that he had wrote me a msg, and that he was angry at me. And now i dont know what to do. I really really wish that i could tell him how sorry i am, but i guess deep down inside i know he wont forgive me :(

I THINK I LOST A FRIEND :0(