I aint gonna Deny that i have had my sets of demons and up & downs.

a lot actually... these past few weeks and months.

I actual am lacking of sleep: But unlike others wherein it is quite obvious, just by looking their eyes, That they are deprived of sleep... I tend to hide well.

Intentionally? or has That been so much part of my life that it's second nature for me?

as i enter this bruhaha, blasting in my earphones is Phil Collins and his "In the Air Tonight"... For those who were of the 80s and before, i'm sure you'd remember. I dont know abt you but i've always found that song... haunting. Some people listen to classical... religious music... love songs.... while they Think: Me? well, songs of That calibre... or whatever i am actually trying to say.

All i know and will want when i die -- at my Funeral -- I want Guns&Roses' NOVEMBER RAIN playing.

Many things happened to me -- bad things.... sad things... annoying/earth-shattering-news kinda things -- between October 31 til Nov 17: the day i was hatched into this world....

and somehow "november Rain" has been so far the best description of my life since they took place....

I make it a joke sometimes, but i have to say for some1 like me, I can hide my age quite well.... No i didnt do no Botox, facial whitening cream, etc etc *blech*

Age and Death will come, peeps.... like it or not. You could all stretch ur buns, faces, triceps, etc, all you want.... they are all gonna sag nevertheless.... and the Docs who are getting paid to TRY to freeze ageing for you? They're gonna get old as well.... So why delay the inevitable??

waitaminute: watdahell was i saying from that start?.... wait.... lemme scroll up:

Oh yeh: Sleep.... like i told my folks: i'll Sleep when i'm dead.... for now, i took this road of my life -- Kinda sucks and wish i was ultimately single and totally carefree -- Sleep will just be a break time for me. something like that 15 minute break one gets at work: wherein u could either sit and THINK nothing... or smoke your lungs out.... or like what Pam does: Be friends with the Toilet Bowl (whahaha sorry danugs! i couldnt help it)

oh shyet.... there goes the time: i have to run. my other Life Outside the call-Center beckons me....

Like car mentioned: There beats a soft heart in this wannabe Ruler of the world.... BUT dont let that fool you. That same heart, in an instant, turn into stone and have no care in the world for him, her, you or anyone else, "IF" hurt & injustice had been done to me....

Like my most favourite saying goes (Every1 in unison pls):

I am quite Friendly.... But i sure aint your Friend: Not That soon Yet... Nor That fast.... Like respect, Friendship has to be earned.

Too many fcknuts crossed my paths and betrayed me big time....

oh look at the time.... gotta dash.....