I'm finally home from the hospital. I got back Monday evening. I'm so glad to be free of the bag at last. Now what? First I must recover from the trauma my body went through. 4-6 weeks is the typical amount of time. Though I must admit I am rather antsy to get back out into things again. I must be patient though. I appreciate all those who have kept me in their thoughts and prayers. They are appreciated and needed. The future is unknown after my recovery. I do not know what will happen next. I suppose I should be excited. Pls keep praying for me, I still truly could use them. So much ahead and unsure of what is to come next. I just wanna enjoy life and do the right thing. I appreciate my friends, old and new and hope to keep them. Hope life is treating everyone well. God bless you all.

xxxxx Renae

I'm getting so excited :). My surgery is coming up, next Monday at 9:40am. I am so excited to be bag free soon. Being bag free will be wonderful, to feel more normal. I don't care that I will have scars. I will be able to wear clothes that I have missed wearing for so long. Pls keep me in your prayers. I wish everyone a blessed 2008 ahead. I appreciate all the friends I have made. You all mean alot to me.

Feeling things I can't quite pen point.  Knowing down deep I have much to be grateful for.  The problems I had were found and what I am dealing with is only TEMPORARY.  My health is the important thing.  In January I will be sewn back up.  I'm looking forward to being around people again and working again.  I miss that alot.  Guess its being here at home that has given me too much time to think and dwell on the negative.  Pls pray for me. Pls.  I'm still a bit weak, but even that will pass.  I must remember this was no minor surgery.  That all the emotions I'm having are all normal and just deal with them and let them go.  I must allow myself to be human, be patient with myself and cut myself some slack, as its said, THIS TOO SHALL PASS :)....THIS TOO SHALL PASS....I have to remember how lucky I am.  How lucky I am to have you all as my friends.  I must focus on that.

GOD BLESS YOU ALL.XXXX