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Ryiana's Homepage http://www.zorpia.com/Ryiana Thu, 07 Jan 2010 07:47 EST Thu, 07 Jan 2010 07:47 EST Zorpia.com a busy year .. it is .. http://www.zorpia.com/Ryiana/journal/1633265 Hello. and assalamualaikum everyone.. yeahh...ive been pretty busy lately. and havent had the time to write. Its gna be a very busy year for me. Surely it is because,  all nightclasses are during weekdays. and friday mornings <del>(as usual )</del> are for remedial classes, afternoon and night for classes as well, Saturday mornings and nights are reserved for my beh or my besties. yup. thats the only time that i get to spend time with him and my gurl frens. And Sunday will be for my family as well as doing my work and preparation. ( you noe what i mean) .. hehhe so there u go.. im totally booked for the entire year. And yeahh.. i really dont know if i can cope with it or not. But One thing for sure is that i'll try my best to accomplish what i have been planning all along : What one has to do usually can be done. .. ahoy!   anyway girls (BFFs)  : Im really sorry if I cant make it  to any of your outings. but hopefully once in a while should be ok.. ps : public holiday wud be ok for me..hugs n muaaah  To BFF Nana : I'll try to find a day for us to have our girl's day out. Sorry for lama dah inda hang out wif you..hugss <img hspace="0" src="http://org21.zorpia.com/0/2580/16517004.fe71f5.jpg" align="baseline" border="0" /> To My beh : Morning or night outing on Saturday will be good enough.. hhehe... muaaahh.. So.. wish me luck... i hope i can managed to be <del>alive and awake</del> this entire year.. maju maju maju.. hehhe.. erm bahhhh .. kkeke .. adios..   -End - -lots of love , Nana @ sur- Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Ryiana/journal/1633265 Tue, 09 Jan 2007 20:44 EST temper http://www.zorpia.com/Ryiana/journal/1633074 ************<img hspace="0" src="http://org21.zorpia.com/0/2580/16516133.922539.jpg" align="baseline" border="0" />************* ARIES MARCH 21 â€“ APRIL 20 > >>>>> > >>>>> > >>>>>Nothing seems to ruffle you more than a lack of discipline, > >>>>>disloyalty and decorum. But Arians are also known to go into a > >>>>>rage very easily when challenged. Those of you who have been on > >>>>>the receiving end of the Aries temper know that if not calmed > >>>>>down they can even get violent. But one thing is certain if >the > >>>>>opponent remains calm and does not react to their outburst, > >>>>>Arians cool down very fast. They are also the first to > >>>>>apologize, which makes them easier to forgive. > >>>>> > >>>>> > >>>>> > >>>>> TAURUS APRIL 21 â€“ MAY 20 > >>>>> > >>>>> > >>>>>You are generally quiet and have control over your emotions. It > >>>>>is difficult to predict what will upset you, so when you do lose > >>>>>your cool, people don't know how to react. Your temper is like > >>>>>that of a raging bull, and anyone trying to pacify you will be > >>>>>the first one to get a verbal bashing. You generally get upset > >>>>>when you are concerned or when >people accuse you of doing > >>>>>something wrong. You also hate being reminded about mistakes > >>>>>you've made in the past. You also have the potential to be > >>>>>terribly vindictive if rubbed the wrong way Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Ryiana/journal/1633074 Tue, 09 Jan 2007 05:43 EST Our nyts at the empire http://www.zorpia.com/Ryiana/journal/1627075 hey there.. hehe been busy lately wif my unfinished and endless workloads.. Im still in the middle of trying to finish it plang,but at the meantime, i feel like updating my journals.. hehe especially abt our nyts at the empire (15-17th Dec) Well dun get me wrong. I spent the 2 nights wif my galfrens ie. my BFFs : We had a great time .. laughing, giggling, having fun and doing things together. Well, to safe time I give u Shedzster's website and you can read it there : <a href="http://shedzster.multiply.com/journal/item/282?mark_read=shedzster:journal:282">http://shedzster.multiply.com/journal/item/282?mark_read=shedzster:journal:282</a> Well , Im still gonna blog.. hehhe i'll fill you in the details not mentioned there.. hm.. now im blank.. blurry mind.. I dont know where to continue.macam semua jua dah Shedzster cetakan.. oh well.. I'll just patch some that slide my mind. On saturday afternoon after Mas balik from work, we decided to go Jetskiing. I was very much interested listening to how Kilz and Yulz enjoyed it ( they were jetskiing when im at home - singgah kajap- and picking Shedzter from work.. Honestly at first, I wouldnt dare plang. P drg punya story med me wana go jua.. So as i was saying, kmi ke arah that Jet skiing 'hut'  and the person in charge sed that the jetski kana pakai.. and that if kan main, kami mesti tunggu drg siap lahh.. I insisted even if i had to wait for them to finish. The instructor ( the person in charge) ahirnya gtau that its dangerous lah to main jetski at that hour. cz ia ckp the ombak is big ( ayernya pasang lahh) so.. ahirnya... inda jadi.. boohooo ( hehhe p i guess this sunday kami  pegi kali.. n mb then i'll have the chance to experience it myself..-very much looking forward to it.. la-la-la.. :) anyway since the jetski inda jadi, so kmi decided for the swimming pool where not far from there are where most of my cousins swimming..hmm..should i continue? hhhmmmm...What Im writing next is a very frightful incident that happened to me. It scares the hell out of me remembering it. The vision of me trying hard to get out of water is still clear. I remember each minute of how the incident happened. All of us were in the pool except Yuyul. We were swimming the opposite side where the depth of water are just below my ears. At that time it was already 5.40! inda lagi lama for the call for magrib prayer. I was ok at first. I managed to tinting dalam ayer. After 15 minutes or so, I was like 30cm from the swimming pool wall where yuyul were sitting. I was trying to jump to get some air. But however I accidentally swallowed a mouthful of water. I couldnt breathe. i was struggling inside the water hoping that I wont swallowed more. I wanted to scream for help but somehow I couldnt, I dont know why. My mind started to think differently.. will i survive or will i not.. I started to think of my family.. How scared I ws then.. Although the wall was near I just couldnt grab it..P a few seconds later, I managed to hold on to the top wall.. My body was weak.. I shouted (pull me up 2x) arah yuyul.. but it dint sounded that way.. cz my voice was too small... She tot I ws joking.. but soon realised i was for real.. I put lots of effort to climb up but I was too heavy. alhamdulillah ada drg shidz, mas and kils . I was grateful that i hadnt drowned . My hands, legs and body were hurt .. and shaky.. I was scared and terrified.. p alhamdulillah I was OK. and I am Ok.. syukur.. I couldnt stop thinking of what will happen if Im too far from the swimming pool wall... NAUZUBILLAH.... Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Ryiana/journal/1627075 Thu, 21 Dec 2006 07:14 EST my beh 045 http://www.zorpia.com/Ryiana/journal/1624287 <img hspace="0" src="http://org21.zorpia.com/0/2580/16517018.178f10.jpg" align="baseline" border="0" /> Sayang, only you can fill the missing pieces in my heart <img style="WIDTH: 158px; HEIGHT: 128px" height="128" hspace="0" src="http://org21.zorpia.com/0/2580/16516165.373792.jpg" width="158" align="baseline" border="0" /><a href="http://org21.zorpia.com/0/2580/16516165.373792.jpg"></a>   Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Ryiana/journal/1624287 Wed, 13 Dec 2006 07:03 EST O dear http://www.zorpia.com/Ryiana/journal/1624279 Didnt know that I would be so occupied today. Here it is : As usual early morning, I wake up and did the usual chores and in the middle of doing it, kils called. She asked me if I wud like to join her on a field work for her project. Which she claimed that it will give me an experience for my 'later' studies in UBD (insya -Allah) Well. I rushed and managed to meet her in UBD at exactly half past nine. (Before that, I had to go to school to pick up notes for yatie -haha yat! u owe me tu ahh..) Yati was also in the field trip and is kil's partner (yati n yatie are two diff person) So we went to Serasa beach, KB (hhe.. not kuala belait but kota batu.. ), Bandar,Kiulap and last was at Damuan. We were finding the salinity, pH , temperture of the water. Yati took a bottle of specimen from each stop that we made. HHehe it was very pleasing experience and the weather was nice. Thanks kil for bawa-ing me .. hehe. and its nice to see yati again.. I went home right after kils dropped me off arah UBD. I was very much hungry. So I cooked myself a fried rice. and At 1 I jalan lagi and ambil Mawarni arah rumahnya di jalan 77, cz we had to bawa stdnt shop for baju, socks, kasut, etc.. So again, we shopped lagi arah PERTAMA. Hehe while doing shopping for Halimah, ada tia ku nampak this plain navy sport shoe. I had to try it. and It felt so comfortable.. and hehe. I ended up buying it.. dapat jua ku pakai for jogging d Empire this weekends.. :) So once we did that kami ke arah Ashrul and then arah skulah and after that baru ngantar the Halimah balik. I was about to drop Mawarni off when ia ckp yang ia kenal A** and used to be ia punya x classmate.. Whoa!! Brunei sure is a small country. She said that A was her close fren back in secondary school. and she had bumped into him di mall when she is  with her guy fren. I was like.. whoa gurl.. I used to like that guy and because of him lah i met my boyfy now. ( cant share the juicy details..hehe.. sory..) So I told her A doesnt have a gf yet and that A is a close fren of my close fren di UBD dulu. And to shortened the story I gave her his number. ( I still remembers it til now... hahah end of discussion) and I dialled his number pakai her fon and asked.. 'Is this A? ' and he replied Yes. So I handed the fon to Mawarni. And boleh lagi c mawar gtau namaku? mampos ehhhh.. waduihh.. hhehe.. I dun think ia remember my name.. then again.. buhh..... OO dear me.. To my sayang, I was worried wen u told me about what happened., but syukur alhamdulillah that ur ok.. U mean the world to me. Love you loads. Do drive to work carefully kays. muaaahhh Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Ryiana/journal/1624279 Wed, 13 Dec 2006 06:51 EST YESTERDAY 9-12-06 http://www.zorpia.com/Ryiana/journal/1623177 ho ho ho.. hhehe booO! dun mind me.. im just making myself bubbly as always.. har har.. :) hehe yesterday i went out wif my gurls ( kilah n shidah) at 4. shidah wanted to buy an APPLE notebook so we went to kiulap where c jol was waiting for us.( um.. its the opposite plang.. haha we are the one yang tunggu ia) ohh well.. iatah bah.. lawa ehh notebook dsana ahh .. wahh rasanya macam kan membali lah.. p again.. kan ku apa jua kan?? hehe.. also dsana.. there is this IPOD Nano .. so lawa lahh.. it has 5 colours altogether (green, pink , blue, silver and black) and i was like saying to kilah that it wud b cool if semua kami ( mas, shids, yul , kil and me) ada IPOD Nano.. and I mine wud be silver.. wahhhhh hhehe..Setelah kami disana, we decided to go to the mall, cz kilz wanted to eat icecream d swensen.. p my god! banyak kereta di mall ahh.. so kami ahirnya parking arah siring SKH where d longkang (not far from shidah car) berbau busuk.. really! yuck! hhehe I had banana split and shared it wif shidah since aku tau aku inda jua teabis tu..wahahha.. manis kali ahh. ( like duhh!! ice-cream kali ahh) hehhe we also had pizza lahh and it was reallly nice. after we finished eating, kami ke rizqun tuk liat bilik yang c mazran booked. the room was nice. It reminds me of coronade masa d KL.. hhehe i mish those times.. oh well despite of the attractive bedroom, kami still mau di empire lahh. hhe,.. i cant wait.. tinggal a few days saja lagie.. n hehhe.. Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Ryiana/journal/1623177 Sun, 10 Dec 2006 06:32 EST Beh http://www.zorpia.com/Ryiana/journal/1622489 Hey beh, when we are together, doing things that we love. Every time you're near I feel like Iâ€™m in heaven, feeling high I donâ€™t want to let go... I just need you to know... I donâ€™t wanna run away, beh youâ€™re the one I need tonight, (I promise u that) Beh , now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms Here tonight  Hey beh, when we are together, doing things that we love. Every time you're near I feel like Iâ€™m in heaven, feeling high I donâ€™t want to let go... I just need you to know... I donâ€™t wanna run away, beh youâ€™re the one I need tonight, (I promise u that) Beh , now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms Here tonight I donâ€™t want to run away, I want to stay forever, thru Time and Time.. (I promise u that) I donâ€™t wanna run away, I donâ€™t wanna be alone (I promise u that) Beh , now I need to hold you tight, now and forever my love I donâ€™t wanna run away, beh youâ€™re the one I need tonight, Beh, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms I donâ€™t wanna run away, beh youâ€™re the one I need tonight, (I promise u that) Beh, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms Here tonight.| Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Ryiana/journal/1622489 Fri, 08 Dec 2006 05:05 EST Welcoming the least favourites.. http://www.zorpia.com/Ryiana/journal/1619130 <div align="center" style="background-color: rgb(255, 204, 255);"> hm... usul2nya perkara yang tak ingin terjadi, <del>TERJADI.</del> altho belum ada hitam putih nya. P if sudah tersirat, aku bertekad to do all that sebaik mungkin. InsyaAllah . Wish me luck . </div> Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Ryiana/journal/1619130 Wed, 29 Nov 2006 05:58 EST ---too much--- http://www.zorpia.com/Ryiana/journal/1618946 Im very much not in a mood for anything. Reason : Cz there are too much things going on and my mind is flooded with <del>uncertain and unsolved 'things</del>' (<del>if u noe what i mean )</del> Things : No.1: Next year will be a very looong year for me. Im not sure if  i'll be able to cope  wif both work and studies at the same time. No.2 : Workloads in school. So far Im not elected as a form tr. U probably say that its a good thing. But in my case, it's NOT. Because the possibility is that I'll be handling a more tough job. sigh~ i just hope that its not going to happen: ie. they elect me a a form teacher.: my APPRAISAL depends on it *shrugs* No.3 : Di rumah :  at times there's so much tension , enuff said. No.4 : Im dun intend to discuss and talk about it No. 5 : Time constraint : will I have the time to study well? will I be prepared for my exams????? No. 6 : All that should be '~too much~'Ps : Pray for me that next year will be running smooth : I'll be able to achieve my dreams and my works handled well. Sacrifices after sacrifices :   Mind You , Easy said than done. There is where time management is crucial my advise to myself : tawakkal for next year. Insya-Allah it will run smooth . AMIN! Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Ryiana/journal/1618946 Tue, 28 Nov 2006 19:13 EST meet the parents & Jalan Jalan (2PHM) http://www.zorpia.com/Ryiana/journal/1617222 Waseehh.. rajinnyer aku menulis journal yeahh. musim nya kali nie.. lol.. hhaaha.. guess what gals? Tadi was a case of meeting the parents session. Hhehe. not meeting family my sayang.. ( atu lama dah jumpa familynya.. and ehem ehem.. smiles :) ) hehhe. tadi kes jumpa parents my kids a.k.a my students : my angels. Tadi no problems watsoever plng. cz semua parents understand their kids' weaknesses. But then again. they shouldnt give up even if they are weak cz i believe that even a weak person can pass the exams if constant revisions are made. I pray for my angels' success. Cz they are the nicest bunch of students I have ever had. I love my students very much cz they respect me as their teacher and never raise their voices even when Im angry at them. Now I feel so sad, cz I know i'll miss them all especially my angels 2P. They are the best yet and mudahan their future will be as bright as any of those successful students. If ever any of my students reading this (my 2p, 2h and 2m)  , this message below goes for all of you :Tcha minta maaf kalau sekiranya tcha ada buat silap arah kamu semua. Tcha doakan kamu berjaya. dan techa harap kamu semua jangan berputus asa. Insya-Allah dengan doa dan usaha kamu, kamu akan jadi pelajar yang berjaya. ps: tcha sayang kamu semua.. sayang sangat ~ :):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):) Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Ryiana/journal/1617222 Fri, 24 Nov 2006 08:16 EST T I R E D http://www.zorpia.com/Ryiana/journal/1616792 Today was a very long tiring day. I was very much occupied the entire day and now i am writing to tell u all about it. Its pretty much the 'usual' thing plang.. So here goes, today as usual early morning i had to do the 'house work' and yeahh a bit of chatting too.well that was like till about half past ten. My mum afterwards asked me to cook, just the normal dish plang but i wasnt really keen in doing it since I'm having a meeting at 12. so i had to drag myself so pretty much im complaining already. But luckily i finished my cooking at around 11 or so. Even So I had to rush and get dressed. Dressing up and getting ready wun be so bad if the weather is not that hot. God! I was suffering throughout the entire process. I was a few minutes late for the meeting and my handbag was a mess ! I had to put everything in : all my powder and stuffs. The meeting ends minutes after the bell rang calling out first period. Me and Mai ... (continuation on the next para. lastnyt i dint finish entering my journal due to thunder.. wahaha) So Mai and me had to rushed down to the foyer where all our kids await for our arrival ( haha..im too much.. lol) Anyways we was suppose to be expecting about 40 ish kids from 2 classes.. but luckily not much turned up. like for 2M, only 1 kid ( can u believe that??) oh well but then the other class, there were about belasan lah yang datang. Since inda ramai EEvei had to grab some kids from other classes to joined us. Altogether barutah menyecah angka 40 stds. The bus came around a quater past one .and by that time the weather was blazingly hot. The a/c of the bus was very much dissapointing. And through that ride I was already having a headache (plus I was very much starving and thirsty) The other trs that joined us were Jason and Eddy. Upon our arrival to the  stadium, an early forty year old man introduced himself as the person who will be showing us around ; giving us a tour and briefing of the facilities and other activities that can be found there. The air surrounding us was very very hot because most of the area in the stadium do not have a/c. The girls  at most times cant keep their mouth shut and keep on complaining about the heat. After an hour barutah kami melawat ditempat yang ber a/c. The 'place' (room) that im referring to was the one set for Fencing Federation. At this point it is very much interesting. We watched a few kids demonstating on how the fencing match is done. I like the so called sword ( i dun noe the name)  because it reminds me of the 'word' used by the three musketeers . :) I do wana join he fencing club but my schedule for next year is very tight. I dont think I have time to join furthermore I have to focus on my studies. cz I only have time till next year to  really focus on my studies cz ehem-ehem 2008.. *tut* ( biarsaja shidah yang sambung this sentence) wahaha :)Heheh after there we went to the snooker and pool room. There I saw some peops main snooker and pool . I also saw 2 guy teachers ( one of them i've seen b4 in UBD) and I also saw Naza's boyfy. They are the peop who joined the programme offered by the Kementerian belia dan sukan. Alhamdulillah after that kmi balik.. But kan.. I still have to 'babysit' our kids.. So we negotiate with Eddy and Jason to take the last half an hour. Me and Mai only managed to 'rehat' at around 5. So here i am pretty much exhausted. ~END~ Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Ryiana/journal/1616792 Thu, 23 Nov 2006 07:17 EST Dear dear http://www.zorpia.com/Ryiana/journal/1616212 hi .. here i am again. just feel like writing.. although at this very moment my mind is blank. So what am I suppose to write? I dont know. Now i feel like im talking crap. Yeah totally! hm... mmmm..My dearest beh, I love you with all my heart and nothing will ever change that. Even if I dint say it, nor text it..You mean a lot to me. You mean more than anything in this world.   Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Ryiana/journal/1616212 Tue, 21 Nov 2006 20:38 EST Bumped out http://www.zorpia.com/Ryiana/journal/1615495 im paranoid. macam macam ku pikir. what's worst is that my pessimist side strikes again.Some part of me wants to stop all that . But somehow my mind is not helping;it keeps on coming up with ridiculous things. I really need to change. There's a lot of things that need to be adjusted before i moved on to a new chapter. It's not a matter of me forcing myself to change, its for the best. Because I'll lose a lot of friends and family if I dont. i am not a good person. I get too emotional wif things and futhermost , I cannot control my temper. Lately, I let anger, rage rise within me and at the end, i hurt a  lot of people. I simply have to try harder to change even if it takes time. Because I know I cant expect myself to change automatically in just a day or two. My bad temper has been with me since im a kid and certainly It hard to make it dissapear in a short range of time. sigh~ Sometimes I wonder what my friends and my boyfy see in me. :( :( :( :( I feel so helpless =..( Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Ryiana/journal/1615495 Mon, 20 Nov 2006 06:52 EST a note for you http://www.zorpia.com/Ryiana/journal/1589653 Here i am still widely awake even when its already pass my bedtime. I cant sleep thinking of an unplanned guilt. I am blaming myself  for being misinterpreted.. I just cant understand why things at first went well then  went so bad... I said things without planning it first. and at the end it cost me tears. My head is so sakit from all those crying. But I dont wana go to sleep even when i know it can reduce the pain. How can I sleep knowing that I have hurt someone? Its all my fault. Im sorry...I have class tomorrow morning from 8 to 10.30. And I dont know if I have the strength. I'll be very exhausted. But its alryt. I try my best to teach tomorrow. Afternoon, I have family function and night time from 7.30 till 10, i have Maths  class.. God know how im gona be tomorrow.   Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Ryiana/journal/1589653 Thu, 14 Sep 2006 10:56 EST PAANTAI SERI KENANGAN 6/09/06 http://www.zorpia.com/Ryiana/journal/1586149 Today , in the morning kami ke PANTAI SERI KENANGAN as a yearly 'REUNION' for our CILSSE batch. It really is a nice day despite of the hot weather lah.. hehhe ;) We planned this about two weeks ago... Yeah.. Yatie CHOSE the DATE and I chose the place. Hehe.. So yesterday,Me. Yatie & Mun went out for shopping for this BBQ and alhamdulillah budget was enuf. each one of us bawa barang lah.. Hm.. what else? ohh yeahh.. so tadi was fun. It was just like the ol times..mcm  masa kami masih d UBD  only that now kami semua dah keja.. and each and every1 of us ada commitment dahh.. so fast the time flies.. Sigh... Let me list down the names of frens yang datang. THOSE who CAME : - MasHiMaro, -Fatmah, - Khairul, - Alberto Santos - Rina Cinderella + baby Zaim  + hubby - Aku -(<a href="mailto:2@n">@n</a>) - Yatie Snow white - Ejam came late = ahir bangun ;) - Ah Meng @ Ben  ( wasnt there all the time, cz kawannya pun BBQ) - Ayu + baby + hubby ( for a short while ..cz kan ke Miri) - Hjh kamaliah @ My Hehe those yang inda dtg  : Suzi , Wynna, Jij - all blayar.. honeymoon kali ;)  Surinah - hubbynya nt feeling well.. lihan, ruby - class   hhehe..so overall the picnic was a success!! semua cooperate lah.. thanks guys.. ps : nanti2 lagi kayss... :)MWAAAAAAAHHH Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Ryiana/journal/1586149 Wed, 06 Sep 2006 07:35 EST