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The First

Sun, 22 Jan 2006 23:43 EST

today was the first day at my new job! and it was actually really fun! i work at china town with dinah...lol we are waitresses and lol it was really kool to actually make ur own money! lol i guess im too excited for this job since it is my first REAL job that involve actual work lol...i made $15.00 in tips which isnt bad for only 2 hours!

I Just Love Him to Much to Let Go

Thu, 19 Jan 2006 16:11 EST

I can't seem to get over him! And it drives me crazy! He doesn't talk to me anymore and yet i feel like there is still hope...Why do I think this?! I feel like a dumb nuts because should just move on and forget him, but i can't...He is the first guy that i ever loved and i feel like he will have my heart forever and ever....Sometimes when I think about all the little things, I begin to get tears in my eyes...Thinking about the past really hurts, because i remember all the times that he was the only one who was there when I needed someone to talk to...Or if i was mad he was there so i could vent on him...I miss him soo much that it is unbearable most of the time...But I guess that I am just going to have to carry on and *sigh* try to move on with my life since it seems like he has *cries*

sigh Just Read

Thu, 19 Jan 2006 15:49 EST

know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
Or tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and
destruction to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
then I'm sure that that makes sense

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was there
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on....

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

This is for the Guy I Love

Tue, 17 Jan 2006 11:34 EST

I looked away
Then I look back at you
You try to say
The things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through

Make it through the fall
Make it through it all

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you

You're the only one,
I'd be with till the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms

Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means

Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything, everything

I'm in love with you
Cuz i'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you

So Stupid

Mon, 16 Jan 2006 16:27 EST

God! i swear that i am soo stupid!! i like messed things up with my bf soo much that we broke up now...god how can someone be soo stupid to make the person of ur dreams dump u? apparently i am cuz that exactally what happened....i pissed off my bf so much that he broke up with me and now he wont even talk to me anymore...i can understand too because if i was him i wouldnt want to talk to me either...i guess thats just about all...*sigh*

Over

Sun, 15 Jan 2006 21:35 EST

I watched the walls around me crumble
But its not like I won't build them up again
So here's your last chance for redemption
So take it while it lasts because it will end
And my tears are turning into time I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

I cant live without you
Can't breathe without you I dream about you honestly
Tell me that its over
Because if the world is spinning and I'm still living
It wont be right if were not in it together
Tell me that it's over

And I'll be the first to go
Don't want to be the last to know

I won't be the one to chase you
But at the same time you're the heart that I call home
I'm always stuck with these emotions
And the more I try to feel the less I'm whole
My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

Tell me that it's over
Over
Honestly tell me
Honestly tell me
Don't tell me that its over
Don't tell me that its over..

God I Hate Finals!!

Fri, 13 Jan 2006 15:47 EST

i cant believe it!! i failed my computer applications class!!! this really sucks!!! i just cant believe that all that work and now i failed!!! GOD do i hate finals!! its like the school is out to get me!!! GRRR!!!! but i guess its ok because i passed all my other ones...so that makes up for failing stupid computer applications class!! lol but i guess ill just have to deal with it wont i? lol i guess so....but my god my hand hurts from writing soo much and i will never get that back!!

Hey!

Thu, 12 Jan 2006 11:59 EST

well well well hello there!!! this is my first journal entry thingy....well i guess everything is okay here....school could be better i dont like the finals that we are taking they are SOOO boring!! staying in a class for an hour and a half SUCKS! and my hand hurts ....lol but i guess its all good.... well i guess you could say that me and my boyfriend are doing okay but we haven't really talked that much so i dunno whats going on....i dunno if he is mad at me or what....i guess ill find out or i wont.... lol and people are really starting to drive me up the wall!!! i feel like pulling my hair out and throwing it away!!! thats how frustrated i am at people...lol but i guess this should be the end...so bye bye people!!