Journals
Monday,Jan 23 2006, 03:43:06 AMThe First
today was the first day at my new job! and it was actually really fun! i work at china town with dinah...lol we are waitresses and lol it was really kool to actually make ur own money! lol i guess im too excited for this job since it is my first REAL job that involve actual work lol...i made $15.00 in tips which isnt bad for only 2 hours!
Thursday,Jan 19 2006, 08:11:11 PMI Just Love Him to Much to Let Go
I can't seem to get over him! And it drives me crazy! He doesn't talk to me anymore and yet i feel like there is still hope...Why do I think this?! I feel like a dumb nuts because should just move on and forget him, but i can't...He is the first guy that i ever loved and i feel like he will have my heart forever and ever....Sometimes when I think about all the little things, I begin to get tears in my eyes...Thinking about the past really hurts, because i remember all the times that he was the only one who was there when I needed someone to talk to...Or if i was mad he was there so i could vent on him...I miss him soo much that it is unbearable most of the time...But I guess that I am just going to have to carry on and *sigh* try to move on with my life since it seems like he has *cries*
Thursday,Jan 19 2006, 07:49:13 PM*sigh* Just Read
know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
Or tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that?
I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
I know I left too much mess and
destruction to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
then I'm sure that that makes sense
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was there
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on....
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
Tuesday,Jan 17 2006, 03:34:43 PMThis is for the Guy I Love
I looked away
Then I look back at you
You try to say
The things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through
Make it through the fall
Make it through it all
And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you
You're the only one,
I'd be with till the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms
Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means
Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything, everything
I'm in love with you
Cuz i'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
Monday,Jan 16 2006, 08:27:41 PMSo Stupid
God! i swear that i am soo stupid!! i like messed things up with my bf soo much that we broke up now...god how can someone be soo stupid to make the person of ur dreams dump u? apparently i am cuz that exactally what happened....i pissed off my bf so much that he broke up with me and now he wont even talk to me anymore...i can understand too because if i was him i wouldnt want to talk to me either...i guess thats just about all...*sigh*