Journals
Sunday,May 23 2004, 05:13:01 PMwow suddenly realise so many days neve write...
wow suddenly realise so many days neve write journal liao heehee hmm i can still remember on wed the day before abbey's birthday i work nite shift den alfin bring camera n take photo of us hahaha so happy cuz somehow it's oso my first n last photo wif them...den on thurs wow 1st time she volunteer to do floor sia i was so happy n glad at least last day wif her workin she neve disappoint mi sia hahhah...hmm today walk home together wif terry n took same bus as he hav a small talk wif him realise dat he is not dat cool at all n thing dat was sae from him do make senses la he is rite i shld tink carefully before i make my decision but maybe he dun reali noe my suitation hmmm anyway reali felt grateful of him tellin mi so many things dat we hav to face in life...fri is my last day so happy finally wow lau kinda sabo by them sia use whipped cream n make mi till my whole body so dirty n look so poor thing but i reali enjoy somehow i being to realise dat actuali they do hav mi in their hrts hahaha...but hor they make mi feel so smelly n i bathe for 3 times lor still cant get rid of the smell...sat hmm kinda enjoy myself tryin to open myself to them while eatin...hmmm actuali watchin movie alone is not bad lor i find it fun nxt time shld watch it alone oso well "laws of attractions" not bad la...today onli went to meet kenneth n nothin else liao den reach home veri early dun feel like goin out den at nite recieve xian call n realise he has been spendin so much money on my birthday n the thing he has done for mi lor well if he reali ask mi i oso dunno i will accept anot suddenly felt so guilty n bad dat i hav neve realise he had done so much for mi n felt touched oso anyway got to slp liao....
Tuesday,May 18 2004, 04:18:37 PMhaizz this few days so lazy neve write liao...
haizz this few days so lazy neve write liao anyway oso nothin special happen so oso nothin to write..haizzz..somehow i felt great dat i made the rite decision of leavin i reali can tell how xin ku they r mi oso especially her well maybe i leave will be better for her n mi la...saw someone drivin a black car somehow tot of mrs lee again hmmm still cant accept the fact..wonder how nick is doin liao hope he is fine kinda worry abt him...i noe he not onli msg mi n i noe i goin to giv him up but lata the day receive his msg my feelins back again wth wif mi...now listenin to christopher's song "bring us back" which is send by LK den realise wat he meant when listenin for the first time somehow reali hope dat thing can be back as normal but somehow its not possible as its not the same anymore well i wish everyone of the ppl i noe no matter i like them or they like mi i wish them hav a better n good day....n thanz for those dat r always there for mi i appreciate alot reali....siao suddenly sae i treat him so badly since when somehow i reali wan to noe why r u all treatin mi like dat is it when u all will feel happy to see mi torturin mi here i reali had enuff can someone juz tell mi wat u all wan from mi....actuali after i noe abt my uncle prob i somehow oso scare i kept on wonderin if one day i oso like him how everytime after i eat sure str away wifout fail i will go toilet...dunno how to sae juz feel down n lost haizzzz
Saturday,May 15 2004, 06:26:51 PMshit sia veri tirin overslept den hav to...
shit sia veri tirin overslept den hav to take cab again dunno shld sae is my cousin fault or my fault...haizz both oso at fault sia...both of us swear dat nxt time wont take so early lesson so sleepy sia...hahahah fail e test badly haizz nvm try nxt time cuz somehow expected hahahh...hahah went to uncle hse supposed to slp but couldnt den had a small chat wif him felt quite happy dat watever i sae today do cheer him n everyone up hahah...hmm i haven decided liao not to be soft hearted muz be firm wif my decision anyway i leave liao no one will feel sad or anything ma so makes no diff when leavin...suddenly miss nick sia dunno how him liao msg him still neve reply a bit worried for him haizzz dunno wat he doin shld at least reply mi ma... so happy chattin wif ken althu he is 20+ but the way he tok is like hahahh veri thick skin n funny so surprised he called mi sia tot he forget mi this frend liao anyway suddenly feel down n lost again...hahahha suddenly so many ppl ask mi go clubbin maybe becuz they got their pay liao so dats y la hahhah watever la today no mood wait till i hav mood la....
Friday,May 14 2004, 05:38:35 PMhaizz so tired today dun feel like goin to...
haizz so tired today dun feel like goin to work...shit man got cramp n headach till nearly faint...haizz she is still e same neve change den somemore giv attitude dunno wat she tinkin..haizz dun feel like workin hmm anyway told eric liao i not workin after next week yeah..haizz sad sia cant bear to sae goodbye to those regular customers reali like to serve them alot but no choice la somehow reali cant get into the family of ap sr so better to leave now if not i will reali feel veri bad n sad haizz somehow dun wish to feel dat our friendship has drifted so far liao maybe it's good to put a stop here....veri sad to recieve the news dat uncle gt some dieases haizz somehow my hrt reali sank dat life is reali unpredictable somehow dunno why so many things happenin ard mi suddenly felt scare n lost haizz but still no ppl to be there for mi when i need them most well reali hav to learn to be alone.....
Wednesday,May 12 2004, 05:03:27 PMhahah suppose to go for test but rainin too...
hahah suppose to go for test but rainin too lazy to go so cancel lor...luckily wasnt late for mrs lee's memorial service today..so sad n touchin of those words spoken regardlessly by students teachers n her familys..haizzz althu mrs lee has passed away today she has actualli bring most of all ex students n teachers back to sch...after attendin the service i begin to face the fact she is gone n finally noe wat i shld do in life..mrs lee althu u hav gone but i reali thanx u 4 lettin mi noe wat i wan n need to do in life u will always be in my memories....hmm luckily today lesson is not conduct by the lame instructor is the previous one if not sure dun understand wat he sae den after dat well to hospital visit uncle hmm he looks veri pale sia well wish he gets well soon...shit man havin cramps n mens today suay sia....