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Saturday,Dec 10 2005, 06:29:02 PMWhy?
Why:
Why does everybody have to be so cruel? Why does life have to be so hard? These are the questions that people always ask themselves before they realized it's probably because they aren't confortable with themselves. Either that, or they're scared of being themselves for fear they're going to be disliked. As for life being hard, it just ends up makin you stronger! All the horrible things you think shouldn't have happened to you, happen for a reason. In the end you learn from them, growing stronger from them. I would know, the last year of my life has been h*ll for me.
Why can't people just accept things as they are? Why do they have to deny everything bad, and accept just the good? Don't deny it, you know what I'm talkin about. A girlfriend or boyfriend breaks up with you, yeah it may be upsetting for awhile, but move on with life. It's probably not meant to be. If it is meant to be, he/she will come back to you. Someone dying, everyone always asks, "why them? why not someone esle?." Well, it was their time to go. You should grieve, get it out of your system. but not forever because you need to think that their in a better place and that eventually, you'll have your chance to be with them again. Losing touch or friendship with a friend, again grieve some, but there's always someone else out there willing/wanting to be your friend. Just be willing to let them in you life.
Tuesday,Dec 6 2005, 05:27:11 PMEver Wonder?
Ever wonder:
Ever wonder why people are the way they are? Their dramatic years won't quite leave them. Always starting little teenage fights just to try and draw themselves some attention, when really all its doing is making them look stupid?!? Don't you ever wonder when they are going to realize all of this? Or they start all of this and all it does in the end, is hurt someone? I wonder this everyday of my life. Because the small town I live in, this is exactly what everyone does. And actually one of the little dumba**es caused me, and my now ex, boyfriend to break-up. She doesn't even feel one bit bad either. All she does is sit there and deny every little detail of it, when I know for a fact she was the one who caused it. Just because she knows his ex-girlfriend, and several people have came up and told me rumors she is starting. Which happen to be the rumors she started.
Ever wonder why everything goes bad at once? Why the can't just be in small portions? On top of everything above, my best friend just moved... She has been my true friend for 3 years. An example for how best of friends we are, in the last 3 years of friendship, we have fought once, and it was because she was trying to protect me but i didn't wanna think thats what it was. She moved last week and she now lives 5 hours away from me versus the 45 minutes she lived away from me before. And 45 minutes I, at the time, thought sucked... I was asked why I didn't go with her. I said, because I can't afford it, which is true. But now I'm wondering why I didn't. I could have got down where she is and found a job easy, since its a big city. Why didn't I?!? I really couldn't tell you the answer... All I know is, when I save up enough money from this job I have now, get all my bills most the way paid off, I'm goin down and joinin her!!! But it's pretty cool because before she left, we went and got a matching tattoo, so we could remember each other where ever we went. The weird thing was, is we didn't know she would be leaving this soon.. This was a spurr of the moment thing... We got a kanji for friend, on our right shoulder... Whatever you're doing, or where ever you are Nicole, I love you and I hope you know this!!
