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Taiteilijan's Homepage http://www.zorpia.com/Taiteilijan Sat, 02 Jan 2010 09:26 EST Sat, 02 Jan 2010 09:26 EST Zorpia.com Cronic Thoughts http://www.zorpia.com/Taiteilijan/journal/1589884 <div align="center">Thinking about the curseI made two years ago.Listening to the thoughtsof the two I put it on.Blaming myself for it.But how could I help itThat I had unspeakable feelingsFor him, but it is a sin thatI had done, done to one of whome I dear... Suffered she did,angry he wasweeping she was,cold he became,confused she was,hostile he became to her...I think of this all day,I think of this everyday,I think of this when he andshe talk to me.But the truth they shallnever learn,or if they do,Cursed be me the double... </div><div align="center"> </div> Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Taiteilijan/journal/1589884 Thu, 14 Sep 2006 23:29 EST Looking Back http://www.zorpia.com/Taiteilijan/journal/1589879 <div align="center">Looking back,not much is different from nowpeople are the samework is the samelove is the samebeing alone is the samethe pain is the samethe memories are the sameand a new love will never be the same...for one person, forever my heart will be the same...  </div><div align="center"> </div> Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Taiteilijan/journal/1589879 Thu, 14 Sep 2006 23:21 EST Hmmm Dark Is The Hour... http://www.zorpia.com/Taiteilijan/journal/1521488 Dark is the hour,But what do they care when they have power?Dark is the mind,And don't forget to look to the behindBecause you never knowWhat will showUp and slit your throughtAnd leave a noteTo hell that you reserved a place,Ah, a wonderful spaceTo liveAnd to giveYour soulOh that stranger your life he stole.But don't worryAnd don't be sorryAll will be fineWhen you haved dinnedAnd winned and to theEarth you with death bined... Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Taiteilijan/journal/1521488 Thu, 04 May 2006 07:31 EST hehehe http://www.zorpia.com/Taiteilijan/journal/1520888 <div align="center"><table width=350 align=center border=0 cellspacing=0 cellpadding=2><tr><td bgcolor="#DDDDDD" align=center>Your Mood Ring is Dark Green</td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#EEEEEE"><center><img src="http://images.blogthings.com/moodringgenerator/dark-green.gif" height="100" width="100"></center> <center>Friendly Outgoing Cheerful</center></td></tr></table><div align="center"><a href="http://www.blogthings.com/moodringgenerator/">Mood Ring Generator</a></div> </div> Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Taiteilijan/journal/1520888 Wed, 03 May 2006 08:14 EST Here I Am Once Again http://www.zorpia.com/Taiteilijan/journal/1474134 <div align="center">Here I am once again. My chin on the window. My eyes staring out into the sky. My mind blank one moment And full of thought the next. I hold secrets from both sides. Afraid to reveal any to either side For the fear of them loosing trust in me. My freind confessed to me. Her ex boyfriend told me what he Thought of her. He told me the same things he Said he told her. But those things will hurt Her more if she found Out that I knew them before hand. None of this is the fault of Either of them. It is, well it is my fault. I should not have made that wish. But at that time it was the only Thing I could think about Because I was so hurt inside. I saw them two that one night. Together like a couple would be. So in love with eachother that It made me sick and want to Throw up in thier lap or somewhere. In my mind I was cursind and like All jelous people would wonder, "I would love to see how lond The relationship will last." And yes I made a wish. A wish that said, "I wish they Would break up." And guess what happened? They broke up at that summer Of that same year they went out. I did not know what to feel. Should I be happy or sad? I felt nothing really. I just felt this emptyness. But I will never confess that Wish to anyone, well atlest not To those two. </div> Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Taiteilijan/journal/1474134 Sun, 29 Jan 2006 03:48 EST The Way http://www.zorpia.com/Taiteilijan/journal/1437835 Show me the way To your heart as I sway  In the wind Not because I've sinned  Because I want to Commit a sin with you.  This one must be done By you and me both, hun.  You know what it is, it is lust. It is what I want to do, and I must  To complete the seven sins With many grins  On my visage they faced To my evil taste.  I have gone against A religion and now they will repent  The sinners like me But soon I will be  Free from the angles' Grasps that I was entangled  In because I went against them For that I am condemned.  But free because I am dead for my cause. Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Taiteilijan/journal/1437835 Mon, 28 Nov 2005 09:50 EST Hotâ€¦ Notâ€¦ http://www.zorpia.com/Taiteilijan/journal/1437833 Hold it there You over there  I have got Something hot  To say So attention you must pay.  If you do not I will kill you on the spot.  No, not with my hands. From where I stand.  I will kill with my Looks as you stand by  Not because my looks are beutiful, But because they are mystical. Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Taiteilijan/journal/1437833 Mon, 28 Nov 2005 09:45 EST A Dream Or Death http://www.zorpia.com/Taiteilijan/journal/1437829 At an edge of a cliff I stand Looking forward for a while. Then looking to my right for a while. Then looking to my left for a while. Then looking up for a while. Then looking down below for a while. To behind I will never look. I jumped, I fell, I enjoyed the air Pushing past my face, lifting my hair. I fell straight down, my legs first, My arms streched above me. I am going to hit the ocean soon. I closed my eyes, already planning My vengence I would do to people with my soul. It seemed forever for me to reach the ocean, But the air motion stopped as if Time was forzen. I opened my eyes and looked If I had hit the ocen, died and Already a soul with my body floating             Beside me. But no, I found not body, I found not water. I felt no pain of impact. Then I looked down and I thought, Wait a minute, this is not             Water I am standing on. It was earth, good lush earth. The ground was glittering with             Crystal dew, flowers             Spotted the emerald grass,             Butterflys, like faries,             Flew gracefully around. I blinked and blinked and shook My head, checked my pulse. I was still alive. I took a step and another and another. I am now walking on the emerald             Grass to my facination. I looked around and saw nature in a form that would mark a space in             The book of world wonders             In the world of humans             If this one I am in is not. I saw trees so big that it Made the Redwoods ressemble Bushes if they were set side by side. Birds sang the songs of joy, Spring, summer, and all that Is happy. Maybe they are singing the songs Of grief, but how were I to know? I saw a shaddow move in the Mystical looking woods. It was moving fast. Into the woods, I ran to the saddow. As I entered the deep woods, I smelt the scent of a damp forest, Hearing the absence of sound. Then suddenly something gray Cought my eye. It was under a tree that looked Like it had turned into stone centuries ago, yet still full of life. I forgot about the shaddow and I stopped and looked At the gray object Which turned out to be a Stone with ruinic enscriptions. I read it, but unfortunately it was in some ancient language, But for some deep reason, It all made sense to me and I could read it as well as I knew my name. I read the enscriptions I read it again, I took the text into thought Trying to figure out what it said. What it said suddenly struck me And then I fainted. Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Taiteilijan/journal/1437829 Mon, 28 Nov 2005 09:41 EST It Has To Happen http://www.zorpia.com/Taiteilijan/journal/1437819 I saw you walk past me. I want you to stop by me.             And go no further. I want you to turn to me             And say what I want             You to say. I want you to break away             From her and             Come to me. I know that is not possible,             But I want it to             Happen. If that is not possible I will             Make it happen, Even if I have to fight with you. If that is deadly not possible, I want you to be with the             Girl I chose for you. If you are still with the other girl, I will kill her and you next             And myself in the process. Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Taiteilijan/journal/1437819 Mon, 28 Nov 2005 09:30 EST Follow Me http://www.zorpia.com/Taiteilijan/journal/1437812 Follow me to the end.No wait, follow meForever pass the end.Follow my heart.Follow my desires.Follow my jelousy.Give into me.Give into my jelousyTo ease it from further damage.Understand my beliefs.Understand my ideas.Understand my words.Know what I know.Know what I want you to know.See what I see.See what I want you to see.Love me when I want you to.Love me forever.If you do not do as I say,I will cut your chest open,Break your rib cage,Pull your heart out and eat it.Oh, that pulsing heart,Now quenches my love for youâ€¦ Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Taiteilijan/journal/1437812 Mon, 28 Nov 2005 09:25 EST For An Answer http://www.zorpia.com/Taiteilijan/journal/1437802 From the shadow I watchWhat am I looking for?What is my purpose here?What am I thinking of?What do I see?What do I want to see?What does the world want to show?What can I do when I am blind inside?What should anyone do?I do not know the answer.I have been searching for it.Maybe it has more than one answer.Maybe there is no answer to it.I am looking for an answer for my empty heart.An empty heart has something inside between its beating walls.It has emptynessLike the sound of silence. Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Taiteilijan/journal/1437802 Mon, 28 Nov 2005 09:09 EST A Poisen Tree Imitation http://www.zorpia.com/Taiteilijan/journal/1436696 Into the night i stole, I jumped and grabed onto the pole. Into the window i went A message to me was sent I had to steel back something But to me it was worth nothing but to him it was 670 carets Oh how i wish to put that in caskets the heart of the girl something i wish to curl till it breaks I will put it at high steaks... Too bad for him Everything seems now so grim.... by Taiteilijan Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Taiteilijan/journal/1436696 Sat, 26 Nov 2005 04:16 EST Loving You http://www.zorpia.com/Taiteilijan/journal/1427322 I am falling in loveWith your cold stareYour stone cold eyes.Even if you do notLove me I will stillPersue you so.If I was a demon,I would take your soulAnd feed it to myHeart that desires yours.If I was an angel andYou were a demon,I would betray my ownHeaven and come downTo hell where I can liveAs a tortured soul with you. Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Taiteilijan/journal/1427322 Wed, 09 Nov 2005 11:22 EST A Riddle http://www.zorpia.com/Taiteilijan/journal/1413742 Rising into the airThe spirits commingOut of the caveAfter a fire burnedOn the sacred pyreBy a magic toolBetween metalAnd rock strikingOut rays of light.The vocies the caveMakes are as lowAs the breath ofA sleeping day,The air passingThrough the cave's mouth.The aroma fromThe cave carried with theSpirits can keepYou low or canKeep you highIn spirit yourself. Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Taiteilijan/journal/1413742 Tue, 25 Oct 2005 00:10 EST What Is In His Mind? http://www.zorpia.com/Taiteilijan/journal/1413740 What could that boyBe so serious about?Is he wondering if his Crush likes him or not?Is he wondering if the Girl to his left likes himOr wondering if he couldLike her or not?Is he wondering if heCould use a homework pass?Or is he just plain tired?Is he thinking about whatTo write for his freewrite?Or is he worried aboutWhat he said to someone?Or is he worried aboutIf the Korean bulliesWould beat him up afterschool?What could he be seriousAbout to have a tiredFace today?He is nervous, he is shakingIn the knees, what couldHe be serious about? Personal http://www.zorpia.com/Taiteilijan/journal/1413740 Tue, 25 Oct 2005 00:05 EST