Journals
Tuesday,Sep 27 2005, 01:17:19 PMYeah Right
Standing in the dark am I?
You ever wonder why?
I will tell you why.
I am in the dark and so
Is the rest of the world.
Stand in the darkness, their
Own imagination, their own
World with a sense of ignorence
That majority refuse to admit.
Your mind is your darkness.
It makes you see what you
Do not want to see.
It makes you think things
That you wish to surely forget.
It makes you think devient thoughts,
Thoughts that could be good,
Or thoughts that could be bad.
I am not the only one standing
In the darkness because so
Are you because of your mind.
And ligt is also another
Form of darkness.
Monday,Sep 26 2005, 12:40:06 PMHide
Have a nose as big as
You Can so you can butt
In on other people's issues.
Have a butt as big as you
Can to push everyone aside.
Have an elbow as big as you
Can to elbow everyone everywhere.
Have ear holes as big as you
Can get them to be to listen to other
People's issues because
Those are the only holes
And places you can hide
In and under once you
Fall.
Sunday,Sep 25 2005, 06:19:25 AMFollowing

I still see it following me.
It followed me day and night.
It followed me yesterday and all week.
If followed me to my door steps.
Why would it not let me alone?
Why is it tourmenting me.
When I turn around to see
What was following me,
It dissapears like it was never there.
The sun goes down, the sun comes
Up, the thing is still following me.
I see it through my window, I see
It anywhere I go, creating many
Sleepless nights for me
becouse of its endless stalking.
Little did I know that it was
My own shadow that I was
Parinoid about.
Tuesday,Sep 20 2005, 12:46:56 PMI Wish
I wish I was immortal,
My life to be forever eternal.
If I could be a mermaid,
And lonlynes to be maid
My friend forever,
I would take the offer.
If I could be immortal and the price
Is for me to become a Vampire and burned thrice
In the sun, I would take the offer.
My heart is harder to conquer
Because of its desires
For immortality.
Thursday,Sep 15 2005, 03:37:17 PMIt Means The Same Thing
"If you loose weight you will
Look real sexy." Yeah right
I think to myself. Doesn't
That sound like, "You are
Still fat"? It does to me. I
Am happy with how I look,
But often dare not to wear
Some clothes because they
Would look akward on me.
Everyone in my family says
That I will look good if I loose
Weight because I have nice
Proportions it is just that they
Have more fat than they should
In those areas. This still sounds
Like, "You are fat," in a nice way.
Besides this is comming from
Relatives so they probubly are
Making their words sound right
So I would not be mad with them.
Yeah right I exclaimed. Those
Kind of comments do not please
Me, because I only believe in I
Am fat currently and that is it.
I do not believe my relatives
When they say that. Besides
I never heard from anyone else
Besides my relatives that I
Would look real nice if I lost
Weight, I think because they
Do not think so. I prefer their
Thought more than my relatives
Most of the time.

