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Saturday,Jun 3 2006, 02:43:31 PM- Irritated?Frustrated?Annoying?? -
Sigh..... I've been acting grumbly recently...I jz dun get it bout myself..Y can i get pissed off so easily compared to last time....?Is it tat i have been thru alots of frustrating thing?Or...is it tat i have been irritated....?
I'm tired....of everything around me...The first time when i've step my foot into this network world..I tot..'Yeah...I can meet alots of frens whom same interest as me...and they would like to share wif me bout their interest and experiences....' But now,it's not still the same as be4.Y?Everyday,i online at zorpia either frenster either msn.....Wat could i get??First thing my mind could think is,design my page nicely so ppl can attracted it....Yeah rite,could tis thing happen now?Last time the answer is Yes,now No anymore.....My first priority here is design page,and making graphic wallpapers and share wif everyone.I'm not here to making frens wif alots of ppl,i noe it's kinda awkward for me to said like tis...
But,do u noe tat sumtime frens can be divided into 2 groups~True friends and Fake friends.Yeah....i noe tat maybe sum of ppl cant noticed it,but i can.... It's simple....If u saw a person jz add u at msn messenger,but he/she din came 2 chat wif u,he/she's not a true fren.And sum of them like to forward stupid website asking u to surf it,we dunno whether tat website was 'haunted' wif virus or anything rite?Wat for?Wats the objective asking us to go there?Anything important?
And the next thing is bout,when a person jz add u jz for fun...Do u can realized it?Well,i get alots of 'frens' like tis...Maybe sum of u faced same thing as me too.... I jz dun get it...Izzit fun to disturb ppl?Sending nudge several times to make ppl's ears burst,then came n ask 'who r u'?Yeah yeah rite,they're the 1st person add us n we're the one who WILL ask them who the hell are they n where they get our email rite?Then,they'll reply 'ppl send tis email to them n ask them to add us' !!!?? Tis is wat i really dissapointed wif my frens....I jz dun get it...Y must they ask other 'unknown' person to add me???And they jz add for fun,they're not trying to make a 'True' fren wif me....If i knew tis earlier,i shud've block them.And sum of them,of course they noe oledi from early times,if they add me,sure we have nothing to chat bout..... Esp to those who din have the same interest as mine....,Usually they jz came n said hi n flee away...And everytime i online,i jz saw their name display n from tat on,they owes keep quiet....If like tis,i encourage them not to add me.....It's simple,tis is not a selfish act...but..i think..if u dun wanna make fren wif me wif sincerely,I NVR EVER WILL INTERESTED CHAT WIF U.....!
I got few frens tat can be really really true frens jz like reality frens~Duo,Yuffie chan,and Asakura san.They're the best of all!They will came and chat wif me everytime,if they're bz,i'll not disturb them cz i noe they're bz.If i bz,they oso din came n disturb me cz they noe it.Cz y?How they noe it?Easy....,they respect me.And i respect them as well too.I treat them as one of my sisters i have.Well,and others...they seems like din understand wat i'm taling bout...it's really making me tired n tired of repeating the same thing....No wonder i can get pissed off easily and tired of everything....If i'm bz,then u must noe tat i'm bz,and dun ever disturb me,sum of them jz came n said hi when i was bz,but then they flee away...Aww...~~ Damn it........!How i hate those kind of ppl......!!!!!! It's really making me....get irritated wif them days to days,and it seems endless...!Y they couldnt understand anything??????Izzit english hard to learn or they jz pretend they din understand it????Is it fun to be like tat?????????????!!!!
But,i've met a person who seems 'WEIRD' than me....A weirdo if i can said,i dun wanna mentioned his name here.Watever i do,he jz show those 'sweat' icon to me...it's seems like,he doesnt understand wat i do and everything i done are weird to him....Is it weird to design thing?Is it weird to play games?is it weird to likes animes?AND is it weird likes to draw????Tch.....~ darn it.......
Sigh....everything....are not goin' as i wish..I jz wish everybody or any person can share wif me wif sincerely,share the talent,share the same interest.....If u have the sincere heart to make frens wif me,u'll noe how sincere or how much effort i put to created alots of stuff,draw n design.....And u'll get interest wif tis hobbies too.....
Alrighty,i guess i've to go now..... Maybe i wont online alots these few days...I wanna take a break and enjoy wat i'm doin now..... I'll leave my groups to Duo and Yuffie chan,if anyone got probs,u can find them to ask if they can lend u a hand..... And pls,respect them too.... Dun ever think tat u're the coolest or greatest or anything n makes u feel like u wanna step on their head... I give u a warning... U have NO CHANCE on it....!! They're my groups moderators or frens to u,YOU MUST RESPECT THEM NO MATTER WAT....~ ~!!!! Share the opinion and ideas wif them too to let them noe wat u're thinking if u wnana post or do anything in the Final Fantasy Paradise group...... =)
Alrite,i'll pen off here.... So i hope i'll see u guys next time again.....
-If i said this kind of things makes u feel likes it related to u,then i said sorry for it.It's my reflection of wat my frens had done to me and i felt so dissapointed on them..... I din meant to hurt anybody feelings but i dun ever hpe anyone can hurt my feelings too....
-Thank You-
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6/7/2006 1:53 PMgambateh
dun b so upset!owes b happy!!!
p/s:kekeke,ur journal helps me a lot oo,gv me de ideas 2 write my essay~~u know,my homework la~~haiz...i hate essay......
6/4/2006 4:37 AM=)
6/3/2006 11:08 PMMerry Meet .::*Tricia*::.
Let's talk about making friends. I thinking that true friendship should be based on mutual trust, respect, and interests. It takes a long time to build up true relationships on these foundations. True friendship can withstand the test of time and soon enough the fake ones will be eroded to dust without you having to eliminate them. As for the weirdos on MSN, I agree with you completely. What I do is I just block them once and for all.
Your homepage designs have gone through many facelifts since its first inception. I assure you that none of your efforts have been wasted because even though people may not have given you your duly deserved praises and commendations, you certainly have learned to refine your skills through experience. For example, your recent posting of the coloured artwork of Cloud and Sierra, each of which you had spent three days to complete. I envy you and I salute you that you have such tenacity and will to accomplish such a demanding job. I wish you could teach me how to colour with Photoshop. You said you would like my background and I promised you I'd send it to you when I caught you online. But lately you've been quiet, and I've been busy too. So we're even. Don't be shy next time you see me online and just give me a yo. I promise I won't disappoint you. And oh, what happened to the second edition of the poem that I sent you? I was sort of disappointed that you kept to the original. But oh well, you have your full right and reason.
I hope you'll get over this temporary setback soon. Zorpia without you is no Zorpia at all. You can take it from me. You may not know it too: you're still one of the most popular web artists among the Japanese games and anime blogging community.
Blessed Be to you, my dear sister, for all eternity,
~~Ryoko~~
6/12/2006 4:15 AMThx!!^_^
-TriCia LeonHeart-