Journals
Friday,Sep 30 2005, 06:58:40 AMWOO NEW HOUSE! lol
yay the new house is finally taking shape, wow those guys are hard
workers hehe... but its starting to look really nice, i cant wait till
its done.. then ill be in a nice fresh clean new house.. to start my
new lovely life :D im super happy about it all.. been a good day as
well, talked to my friends, had some really nice chats, chris and kent
called lol, they both crack me up.. we have an awesome time.. me and my
friends kinda have that "you dont have to say it" comedy... we are all
on that same wavelength.. but man.. we just cant stop laughing when
were together lol.. i love it.. anywho, have a nice night zorpies! and
look! NEW HOUSE! hehe
hmm.. that looks so small in the pic... lol, but on the inside its
bloody huge!!! yay for new things that smell like wood! (ok.. im odd..
so what!)
Thursday,Sep 29 2005, 02:09:21 AMI want to be somebody else....
Well today was interesting lol, they have made super progress on our
new house.. it now has walls started :D very nice looking too... so im
a tad bit excited for that.. looks like it will be nice... so you
know... oh and i hopped up on the roof today, in about 20mph winds to
clean the gutters lol (inspection pending) so that was a freakin blast,
if i would have fallen.. whew.. hello hospital.. was 2 1/2 stories
above concrete lol.. but i only slipped twice, and im back on the solid
ground typing to you all, so no harm, no foul. also went to
storage today.. when i opened the door to it... (like a garage door)
wow... honestly about 300 spiders... i have never seen anything like
it... the walls were literally moving... so we put things in storage
(after about 20 min of me killing spiders) sending them back to hell
where they came from... so that wasnt so bad.. tomarrow i get to do it
all over again, as we have like 4 tons of things to load into there...
so yea.... thats about it from my amazingly happy and exciting life,
have a nice one zorpies *cheers*
Wednesday,Sep 28 2005, 04:30:26 AMQuoth the Raven...... "Nevermore"
Well........ whats to say?... no more dez.. but life must push on..
whether i want it to or not. The framing on the house has started
to day, and we have a buyer lined up for the house.. paying full price,
but we are still waiting for the inspector.. hoping they dont have bad
news.. but we rented a bigger storage place today, so now we have 2,
and we will start moving thrings from the attic to the storage place
tomarrow.. will be my hell im sure.. but who cares lol, cant get much
worse ya know? so i will go ahead with all that.... been talking to
quite a few of you zorpies.. i hope things are still going okay in your
worlds.. i appreciate all of you that are there to try to cheer me up,
its helping a lot.. hell even people i never talked too are coming and
helping make me normal again.. it means a lot to me.. cant believe some
of the ones that are talking to me now lol.. so thank you for those who
are.. also wanted to mention, i have a motorcycle for sale.. dunno if
anyone is interested.. i kinda doubt it.. but if so.. its a 1982 honda
cb900 custom.. repainted it myself.. and put in pod air cleaners...
lol.. i have no idea why im putting this here.. but hell.. i was hoping
maybe someone local might want the thing.. damn nice bike.. anyway...
still clueless as to what my last test score was.. im praying it was
nice, but seeing as how i took it under stress again, i bet its not
awesome.. but who cares... anycrap.. have a nice night zorpies..
*cheers*
Monday,Sep 26 2005, 04:56:37 AMaaaaaand im spent...
well tonight was wonderful..... *sigh* actually no... no it wasnt..
things came down to the "choose me, or her" with dez again.. and its
not that i picked sarah.. really i picked nothing.. i have been told
before.. that if you love someone.. you dont make them do anything..
you just dont make them lose friends.. not without a reason.. something
concrete.. and well.. me and sarah have nothing.. no flirting..
(although, i do realize that "flirting" is actually an oppinion and not
the same for all) but man... that really sucks.. because i didnt want
to answer.. i felt if i did now.. who would come next you know? who
would be the next that i heard "choose me or them" and they are only a
friend.. i just kinda wish the trust was there.. that i was not doing
anything with her.. nor anyone else.. not a net person, not a person
next to me in real life.. i just wouldnt do it.. not because i was
taken.. but becuase i didnt want to do it.. deep down.. i am just not
that person.. i dont want to screw around on the one i love.. i dont
want to flirt.. because i had felt my heart was already owned by
another.. felt it was just.. wrong really. but its late in the
game for such thinking.. she has sam to help her through this, and for
that im happy, she also has matt.. so its nice she has friends to fall
back on.. thats good.. and i mean that honestly.. im not being
sarcastic or anything.. i think dez is kinda the type that needs
someone to help her through things (but wow.. she is strong alone as
well) but you know.. nice that she has it if she needs it.. since i
guess i will no longer be there for it.. nice to know she is held
still.. and not dropped to the ground.. so.. im sure there are some out
there with a few words for me.. matt, bobbi.. maybe sam on the other
site.. so.. let em come.. ill probably just block anyway.. i think
there has been enough trash being spewed about tonight.. i dont really
want to add to it.. not that it would matter.. just dont want to make
things worse than they are.. dez.. im sorry.. and i hope you dont
forever view me as the one that chose sarah.. i chose to not
choose. thats all it was.. well.. i hope tomarrow brings good
tidings.. but its going to rain all day tomarrow... i see that as a
sign of more crap to come.. i sure hope not though..
night zorpies.. have a better one than i had..
6.25.03 to 9.25.05
Sunday,Sep 25 2005, 01:28:30 AMMy test.
Well i took the test today... it sucked.. out of all the anatomy
students currently taking A&P 102 (764 people) the average on this
test is currently 62.3% which is yes.. failing. So i got a 67%
which is better than average.. but is yes.... FAILING. So im in a
bit of a mood i suppose.. that was lecture only though.. also i got a
9/10 on the quiz.. so i did well on that.. but the lab test.. i dunno
how i did on that yet.. there a combined score.. so who knows how that
will go.. im hoping well, but im not holding my breath for anything.. i
probably did bad on that as well.. im feeling pretty down about
things.. but at least i got some good chat time in with pumpo.. my uk
buddy.. hes a cool guy, he really is.. he is getting a conservatory
added to his house soon.. we were going over the specs.. should be damn
nice.. also talked to crazy 8 another one of my gaming buddies (im a
dork.. what can i say?) he said one of his cameras (he works for abc
news) and the camera costs 85,000 dollars!!!! i couldnt believe that!
so.. hope he dosent drop to many of those lol.. expensive mistakes i
think.. we played our online gaming and all.. was all in good fun..
talked to dez tonight <3 (i hate those hearts...) but i do love dez,
we are going though a lot i suppose.. i came on.. i was trying to play
it off.. like i wasnt bummed out.. but she saw threw it pretty quick..
so i told her it was the test.. i dunno if seh heard me or not :( but
things went sour, so im sure we will patch it up.. i love you dez..
since i know your reading. also, we were supposed to get an
offer, or counter offer on the house... but there realator wasnt really
ready to give the once over today, so we will know tomarrow whats up...
i have a feeling they will counter offer for less money.. but we refuse
to take less.. otherwise we would just practically be giving the house
away.. :( so.. thats all so stressful.. we are hoping they buy.. but
not steal it from us for almost nothing.. and i have to make sure im
there for every step of it.. because mom and dad at times dont quite
get what there doing with all this.. so its pretty much me selling a
house.. but whew... i dunno.. whatever right?.. ill just throw my arms
up and say screw it.. im about to do that anyway.. about everything
thats stressing the hell out of me.. school, house, dez, everything..
but.. dez isnt really a part of the problem.. she is more on the
solution side.. just at times.. seems like its not quite like that..
but i know it is.. i am not losing anything there.. i mean.. i know
things will work out.. she is sweet as can be most of the time.. also
made a new friend today.. a woman from germany.. she lived in germany,
norway and somewhere else.. cant remember.. but has a heavy accent lol,
its funny when she talks.. she was telling me about stutguart germany
(spell check that one guys....) but its where they made my car! the
mercedes benz plant in stutguart.. awesome stuff.. she said as a child
she went there on a class field trip.. thought that was interesting..
she is about the age she might have seen my 1982 benz roll off the
assembly line! hehe.. i dunno.. thought that was neat.. but once again,
a reminder.. im a dork.
enjoy your night zorpies, cheers!
(iloveyoudesiree)
