Journals
Wednesday,Oct 25 2006, 03:11:50 AMtime..
I have a growing problem.. but i can not fix it.. because its not in my power.. the decisions are held by someone else.. so all i can do.. is try my ass off to move forward.. to move on.. to forget what i can not forget.. to ignore what i can not ignore.. i have to try.. i have to put out the effort.. because im getting to a point where i dont think anything is worth it anymore.. i cant help her.. not when she calls and asks for relationship advice.. how the hell can i give advice?.. wasnt i the one that "ruined" us?.. why would ugh.. why would i want to say anything except "DUMP HER GO OUT WITH ME AGAIN." but it will not happen, 1, i will not say that. 2, if i did say that, it would make a fight. 3, she is happier with her than she was with me. so thats that.. i'd say "the end" but i bet you money the next 40 fucking journals i write will still be about her lol! woo, im pathetic ;)
