Journals
Saturday,Jul 8 2006, 05:36:51 PMturning point
dear friends,
i m in America now... have been here for 1 month,
feeling sad, stupid and lonely..
only thing tats happy is we finally can gather together as a family....eat dinner together, SUnday outing together...i finally have a complete home...
but am i happy now?
what i want is everybody to be happy...i dun wan to hurt my parents...so i would do as much as they say if its right....i dun really reject them, becos i wan them to be happy...
yet i have hurt my baby in Singapore....who is waiting for me..love me with his whole love...is he silly?
NO...he's jus did it out of love....is love the power drives him to love...i feel fortunate..happy...
yet i feel sad for him.....i dun deserve him to love me so much...im bad...
i am feeling so lonely now....
everyday is like such a boring day for me... i dun hv the drive to live on....
but i really dun wan others to look down at me! thus i have so many stress...which make me alost brust....i hate it!
WHAT CAN I DO?
LIFE IS SO UNFAIR!....IM REALLY DEPRESSED!