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Thursday,Jun 22 2006, 05:38:00 AMLate Last Nite

I was with some friends late last night
they asked me if i wanted some drugs
I said yes late last night
we where doing drugs late last night
then i went home
my parents said I was 15 minutes late
I said i don't care
they ask why I smell like smoke
I did not answer that question
they asked if I was doing drugs
I said I was late last night
they looked scared
they asked if it was with a niddle
i said yes
they looked very frightend
they asked if i did it with a niddle and did not wash it
I said yes i was
they took me to doctor late last night
I died on the hospitel bed late last night
my last word i said was sorry late last night

Wednesday,Oct 19 2005, 03:54:53 AMDarkness

Darkness

 

If only it were so simple,
to cruise through life smelling roses;
but the obstacles blacken the countryside,
and we unwittingly crush them beneath our boots.

Dreams sustain us through the madness;
goals give a finish line to our race.
Yet they change with every turn, around every wall,
and remain elusive throughout the quest.

Mistakes are made, and regrets are our luggage;
we will drag them with us to slow us down.
The victories are flashes of light, sudden and unlasting, which allow us
to glimpse the road ahead before darkness descends.

Love is bitter, yet it is the bread that keeps us.
Over and over it fills us up, only to starve us.
The people whom we love shape our destinies and our strengths,
yet leave us cold and alone in the darkness.

There are others trying to race to the end;
occasionally, we bump into one or two.
The bonds we form help us down the path less lonely
but eventually, we lose each other in the darkness.

Alone is not a bad way to be;
it clears your head and focuses you on the journey.
Cherish the short intervals during the quest you have with others,
but be prepared to walk alone in the darkness.

Wednesday,Oct 19 2005, 03:28:48 AMFooling

I think im foolin myself!! Maybe he doesnt love me, or care about me anymore!!Maybe i should move on with my life and stop thinkin about wat will happen between us!! I dont know if he has the same feelings but everyday i see him online it hurts me b/c he might not love me back. I could be just saying this but i know wat i feel. I want him in my life. But he might be sayin everything he says to me to other girls. How can i trust him?? Well i have to believe in myself that he isnt but i cant. Im goin through something i dont want to go through.But i have to, to keep myself strong.

Tuesday,Oct 11 2005, 03:47:46 AMMy Love

My Love

My love is like an ocean
It goes down so deep
My love is like a rose
Whose beauty you want to keep.

My love is like a river
That will never end
My love is like a dove
With a beautiful message to send.

My love is like a song
That goes on and on forever
My love is like a prisoner
It's to you that I surrender.

Thursday,Sep 8 2005, 03:32:24 AMWish

If I could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine...
Knowing that I could never find that feeling
with anyone other than you.
China

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