Here I am writing this again n it better not freggin crash....as I was saying I am severely pissed off now....
2 days ago my mom came home and shes been doing nothing but smoking and
leaving the stench of cigarettes around the house allong with wet
towels on the couch and she hardly ever gets dressed in anything else
other than a bath robe. She came home because the Police droped the
charges on her due to her condition...she has type 3 cancer...doesnt
mean much to me right now because shes just been annoying me the whole
time...when she was in the Shelter she was calling me on my cellphone 8
times a day and waking me up...and not just on the cellphone...she was
calling like 20 times a day on the home phone. Things were so much
better when she wasn't here...less stressy...all I had to do was switch
off my cellphone but now that shes back all there has been is arguing
between my 2 parents again...
yesterday I woke up late and my social worker was at my door...went
down to see what was up...bad news, didnt get the Certificates I was
hoping for after losing them at home somewhere...funny how a big brown
envelope just disappears I was pretty pissed off when I came home and
threw everything all over the floor trying to look for it which made my
dad get pissed off...he shouted at me I shouted at him right back
"I cant believe it I JUST CLEANED UP THIS PLACE! I HATE COMING HOME TO THIS!"
"THEN GO BACK TO WORK!"
"ha-ha FUCK YOU!"
"FUCK YOU, YOU SAID YOU WOULD HELP ME FIND IT AND IT'S ALLREADY BEEN MORE THAN A FEW MONTHS!!!"
...I just stayed in my room and blared up the music and he went out and came back an hour later and wasn't too happy hehehe
"TURN DOWN THE FUCKING VOLUME!"
"No, first go try looking for it and then I'll turn down the volume!"
...he just got more pissed and I had to errrm...."move" the things out
of the way of my door that I put there to keep my parents from coming
in...after shouting at eachother for quite some time he said he'd try
looking for it...
My dad wont do anything outside of work and shopping or cooking supper
or watching tv or working in his workshop...so if I need help I have to
push him for it otherwise he will never do it.
Anyways we tried looking n just found some paper that went with the
Certificates in one of his folders...(kind of suspicious bout that
being there and not everything else that went with it but anyways)...I
just went to my room to chill out and he went to write an email to the
IB saying we lost them and need a copy or something...all calmed down
but yeah...talk about an anger climax...ever have a soar throat from
shouting too much?
so yeah slowly n gradually I'm breaking down and I really really need
to get out of here...I feel my parents are the only thing holding me
back...Failing in school was a lot to do with my at home situation...it
had like everything to do with it...couldn't do homework because either
parents would be fighting all the time or I needed help with it and my
dad was always taking too long...my mom cant help me with anything I
allready know more than she does with what I want to do....all the
comments on my report card from the teachers...they all said "Mark isnt
handing in homework on time" or "hardly ever does his homework" ...you
can imagine what the exams were like
I need it to prove that Ive allready done grade 12 English and so I don't have to do it all over again because over here they screwed me and put me back in grade 11 english so I'm in continuing education and if I send the Cert's to them then I will only need 1 or 2 more optional credits and I really do not like the schools here...The english classes and the books you read are just like a huge smack in the face to me compared to what I was doing back in europe!
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