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What Transsexuality Is: Definition, Cause, and History
INTRODUCTION:
Transsexuality, also termed 'Gender Dysphoria' is now reaching the point of being reasonably well understood, though many myths and general foolishness about the subject still abound. This document concerns the classic definition of transsexuality, as defined by Benjamin, Money, Green, and so forth. Intersexuality and transgenderism will not be addressed other than obliquely.
IN A NUTSHELL: This is about standard, classical transsexuality.
SUMMARY DEFINITION:
Gender Dysphoria, literally a misery with regard to gender, is the condition of being in a state of conflict between gender and physical sex.A transsexual is a person in which the sex-related structures of the brain that define gender identity are exactly opposite the physical sex organs of the body.Put even more simply, a transsexual is a mind that is literally, physically, trapped in a body of the opposite sex.
IN A NUTSHELL: Transsexuality means having the wrong body for the gender one really is.
GRAND OVERVIEW:
Gender and Sex are very separate things, though the terms are often considered interchangeable by the less aware. Sex is physical form and function while Gender is a component of identity. There can be considered to be some legitimate overlap in that the brain is structured in many sex-differentiated ways, and the brain is the seat of identity. However, with regard to the dilemma of the transsexual, the difference between sex and gender are at the very core of the issue.
A transsexual person, born to all appearance within a given physical sex, is aware of being of a gender opposite to that physical sex. This conflict, between gender identity and physical sex, is almost always manifest from earliest awareness, and is the cause of enormous suffering. It is common for transsexuals to be aware of their condition at preschool ages.
This agony can and does lead to self destruction unless treated. The incredible difficulties that surround achieving treatment are themselves often agonizing, the sum total of which can play havoc with the lives of the gender dysphoric. Indeed, it is apparent that some fifty percent of transsexuals die by age 30, usually by their own hand. This morbidity is known as the
50 percent-Rule
Being a transsexual is not something that can be ignored or suppressed forever. Unlike the facinations of the crossdresser or the partially altered transgenderist, the absolute compulsion of classical transsexualism is a matter of life and death. Social oppression, culturally indoctrinated shame, self loathing, and bigotry slaughter transsexuals. With treatment and support, comes survival and a successful life. The success rate for the treatment of transsexuals is among the highest in medicine.
Transsexuality occurs roughly equally in both physical males and physical females, and is caused by factors (such as a critically timed hormonal release caused by stress in the mother, or by the presence of hormone mimicking chemicals present during critical development) which interfere with fetal development. Transsexuality occurs independently of sexual orientation, and occurs in humans and in other animals, such as apes, monkeys, dogs, cats, rats, and mice, among those studied.
The standard treatment for a diagnosis of transsexuality is to reassign the transsexual to a physical sex congruent with their gender identity, a process involving the administration of appropriate hormones and surgery. The success of this treatment is exceedingly high, and many transsexuals go on to live successful lives.
Although transsexuality is not the same thing as homosexuality, the two can sometimes occur in conjunction with each other, and there is evidence that both are created by the similar mechanisms, in utero.
Transsexuality differs greatly from the commonly - and erroneously - associated terms "Crossdressing" or "Transvestitism", as well as "Transgenderism".
Whereas transsexuality is concerned primarily with gender identity and the correction of physical form to fit that identity, transvestitism is primarily a sexual fetish that occurs after puberty, and the transvestite has no desperation to redress a physical incongruity. The transvestite gains satisfaction from appearing as the opposite sex only, and the behavior is apparently not rooted in a biological, pre-natal basis, but is learned. Transvestitism, unlike transsexuality, primarily is the activity of males.
A recent term in usage is "Transgenderism", essentially an empty word conjured up as a neutral label for any individual not conforming to common social rules of gender expression. The term was created to help unite very disparate individuals under a vague commonality of interest in gender, in order to provide a basis for mutual benefit and support within an often violently antagonistic society.
Transgenderism can refer to those who crossdress, those who are intersexed, those who live in the opposite societal role of their physical sex, those who play with gender expression for any purpose whatsoever, and transsexuals as well. While there is potentially great survival benefit in this mutual association labeled as 'transgenderism', the primary function is social and political, and not clinical, despite the efforts of some to legitimize this essentially meaningless term.
The exact number of transsexuals in any given population will probably never be accurately known (the best current estimate is one per 30,000). Because transsexuality is most commonly caused by stress-related hormonal changes in the womb, the number of transsexuals in any society would logically flux, based on the current state of affairs within a generation. There is evidence that more transsexuals are born during times during or following war, for instance. Even so, the condition is fairly rare.
Several interesting physical and mental indications have been statistically shown to occur in relation to transsexuality. One factor is intelligence, the transsexual is on average two standard deviations in intellect greater than the base population, and one standard deviation higher than those defined as homosexual. This probability of high intelligence is currently not explained, though there are suggestions that it may be the result of the unique and somewhat mixed brain 'wiring' of the transsexual, who may benefit from a combination of male and female structures or functions.
Another curious correlation is creativity, transsexuals tend to possess a high degree of artistic and general creative ability.
Transsexuals commonly show some physical indications of their condition that may cause trouble for them from parents or peers. The male-to-female transsexual may be slow to develop male sex characteristics such as body hair, voice change, and overall physical development compared to the general population. The Female-to-Male Transsexual may display evidence of masculinization of bone structure, hair, or voice. These traits are generally very subtle, but often present.
There is tremendous social bigotry -and often outright violence- expressed towards the transsexual, and this often makes the life of the transsexual very difficult. Some transsexuals who have completely successful in transition to the appropriate sex therefore choose varying degrees of secrecy about their state and history. Other transsexuals never succeed in transforming physically to the point of being undetectable as transsexuals, and tend to suffer accordingly.
Transsexuals suffer many hurdles to achieve their required correction of the error of their birth. They must face society, the medical establishment, the common loss of all family and friends, the cost of treatment, the extreme difficulty of the required 'half-way' phase of transition which may last up to two years, and the inner turmoil of self-doubt and conditioned self loathing of their condition. It has been estimated (in 1981) that about 50o not survive the malady, ending up dead by the age of 30, usually by their own hand. Almost all of this morbidity is attributed to the additional burden caused by the violent unacceptance of society, the rejection of family and friends, and the inability to find decent care.
The drive that motivates the transsexual is essentially a matter of life and death.
IN A NUTSHELL:
Transsexuals suffer because they are trapped in a body of the wrong sexe. This hurts so much that they are driven to fix that problem, or die trying. Transsexuality begins in the womb and occurs in many animals besides man. Transsexuality and homosexuality seem to share a common prenatal causality, but are not the same thing. Transsexuality is sometimes associated with things it is not really related to, such as crossdressing, for social or political reasons.
The Natural History Of Transsexuality:
Since transsexuality is caused by hormonal alteration of the nervous system of developing fetuses, and occurs in perhaps all mammalian species, it would be reasonable to infer that it has been around for a very long time. Indeed, since birth defects in general are just part of nature, it would be unthinkable to imagine an era of Man devoid of transsexuals. We have always been, and from time to time, history has recorded that fact.
The only clues we have of paleolithic transsexuals would be by considering the societies of aboriginal peoples still living with stone age technologies. The few left remaining on the earth, in the rain forests of South America, or the remaining unspoiled lands of Africa, all have reverential positions for the transsexuals that are born to them. In such societies, Transsexuals are considered magical, kin to the gods or spirits, and possessed of shamanic powers.
Every society in history has had some name, role or way of relating to the transsexual, from ancient Canaan and Turkey to India, even to the present day.
Examples abound. For instance, in ancient Rome existed the 'Gallae', Phrygian worshipers of the Goddess Cybele. Once decided on their choice of gender and religion, physically male Gallae ran through the streets and threw their own severed genitalia into open doorways, as a ritualistic act. The household receiving these remains considered them a great blessing. In return, the household would nurse the Gallae back to health. The Gallae then ceremoniously received female clothes, and assumed a female identity. Commonly, they would be dressed as brides, or in other splendid clothing.
In India, ritual practices for transsexual individuals continue to the present day. Called Hijiras, this sect also worship a Goddess, and undergo a primitive sort of sex reassignment surgery. The Hijiras are treated in a rather hypocritical fashion within Indian society however, in that they are both despised and revered at the same time. Hijiras often are paid to attend a bless weddings, and to act as spiritual and social advisors, but are also shunned as less than worthy eunuchs. Yet in other circumstances, such as social situations, they are accorded the status of true females.
The Dine, or Navajos of the southwest United States, recognize three sexes instead of only two. For the Dine, there are Males, Females, and Nadles, which are considered somewhat both and neither. While those born intersexed or hermaphroditic are automatically considered Nadle, physically 'normal' individuals may define as Nadle based on their own self-definition of gender identity. The Nadle once possessed far greater respect before the Navaho were conquered and their culture all but obliterated by the forced assumption of Catholicism.
Among the Sioux, the Winkte served much the same function, and individuals could assume the complete role of their preferred gender. Physical females lived as male warriors, and had wives, while physical males lived their lives completely as women. In Sioux society no special magic was associated with this, it was just considered a way of correcting a mistake of nature. Winkte would also perform primitive reassignment operations of a sort, and history records the process used by physical males: riding for days on a special hard saddle to crush the testicles and thus effectively castrate the individual.
Being transsexual in ancient cultures took a special form of courage too, even if society may have been embracing of the Transsexed!
Whether it is the Sererr of the Pokots of Kenya, the Xaniths of Islamic Oman, the Mahu of Tahiti, or even the Sekrata of Madagascar, the story is essentially the same: transsexuality was a fact of life, and a place in society was made for the gender dysphoric to be themselves.
The modern classification of transsexuality and the medical intervention of sex reassignment was first attempted in Germany in 1930. Einar Wegener sought treatment and was operated upon. Afterwards, she lived as Lily Elbe, but alas not for long...the surgery had tragic complications. The first well known, surviving post operative transsexual was American ex-G.I. George Jorgensen, who became Christine Jorgensen in 1953. Christine became the center of a whirlwind of publicity despite an effort to avoid it, and had little choice but to capitalize on the misfortune. Christine became the first 'Media Transsexual' - or as some transsexuals put it 'Transie Martyr' , and suffered both the benefit and curse of fame. Christine starred in several hollywood movies as a result, and became celebrity enough to bring transsexualism out of the closet and into view of post-industrial society.
For decades only the rare individual physician dared treat the transsexual, while the mainstream medical community considered transsexuality to be a mere mental disorder without a biological basis. The first professional to truly try to help transsexuals with compassion and scientific study was Dr. Harry Benjamin. Dr. Benjamin carefully treated and studied the cases of transsexuals, essentially devoting most of his career to the project. The results of his carefully documented studies were published in 1966 in his book "The Transsexual Phenomenon". This work led directly to the benefits that we modern transsexuals enjoy, for it opened the door to serious study of the condition. Currently, the worldwide Harry Benjamin International Gender Dysphoria Association continues his work, and helps to set standards of care for the treatment of transsexuals by the medical establishment.
Recent study of brain functioning has shed important light on the causes of transsexuality, and surgical techniques as well as overall treatment continue to improve. Society is slowly becoming accepting once again of the inevitable transsexual in it's midst, and it may well be that the future will hold even greater help for the transsexuals born into future ages. IN A NUTSHELL:
Transsexuals have always existed. In the ancient world, transsexuality was both accepted and respected. Throughout the ages, transsexuals have attempted to correct the error of their bodies, with varying results. The modern, technological world at last provides a real chance for the transsexual to finally, truly correct the errors of Nature.
What Transsexuality Is: Definition, Cause, and History
INTRODUCTION:
Transsexuality, also termed 'Gender Dysphoria' is now reaching the point of being reasonably well understood, though many myths and general foolishness about the subject still abound. This document concerns the classic definition of transsexuality, as defined by Benjamin, Money, Green, and so forth. Intersexuality and transgenderism will not be addressed other than obliquely.
IN A NUTSHELL: This is about standard, classical transsexuality.
SUMMARY DEFINITION:
Gender Dysphoria, literally a misery with regard to gender, is the condition of being in a state of conflict between gender and physical sex.A transsexual is a person in which the sex-related structures of the brain that define gender identity are exactly opposite the physical sex organs of the body.Put even more simply, a transsexual is a mind that is literally, physically, trapped in a body of the opposite sex.
IN A NUTSHELL: Transsexuality means having the wrong body for the gender one really is.
GRAND OVERVIEW:
Gender and Sex are very separate things, though the terms are often considered interchangeable by the less aware. Sex is physical form and function while Gender is a component of identity. There can be considered to be some legitimate overlap in that the brain is structured in many sex-differentiated ways, and the brain is the seat of identity. However, with regard to the dilemma of the transsexual, the difference between sex and gender are at the very core of the issue.
A transsexual person, born to all appearance within a given physical sex, is aware of being of a gender opposite to that physical sex. This conflict, between gender identity and physical sex, is almost always manifest from earliest awareness, and is the cause of enormous suffering. It is common for transsexuals to be aware of their condition at preschool ages.
This agony can and does lead to self destruction unless treated. The incredible difficulties that surround achieving treatment are themselves often agonizing, the sum total of which can play havoc with the lives of the gender dysphoric. Indeed, it is apparent that some fifty percent of transsexuals die by age 30, usually by their own hand. This morbidity is known as the
50 percent-Rule
Being a transsexual is not something that can be ignored or suppressed forever. Unlike the facinations of the crossdresser or the partially altered transgenderist, the absolute compulsion of classical transsexualism is a matter of life and death. Social oppression, culturally indoctrinated shame, self loathing, and bigotry slaughter transsexuals. With treatment and support, comes survival and a successful life. The success rate for the treatment of transsexuals is among the highest in medicine.
Transsexuality occurs roughly equally in both physical males and physical females, and is caused by factors (such as a critically timed hormonal release caused by stress in the mother, or by the presence of hormone mimicking chemicals present during critical development) which interfere with fetal development. Transsexuality occurs independently of sexual orientation, and occurs in humans and in other animals, such as apes, monkeys, dogs, cats, rats, and mice, among those studied.
The standard treatment for a diagnosis of transsexuality is to reassign the transsexual to a physical sex congruent with their gender identity, a process involving the administration of appropriate hormones and surgery. The success of this treatment is exceedingly high, and many transsexuals go on to live successful lives.
Although transsexuality is not the same thing as homosexuality, the two can sometimes occur in conjunction with each other, and there is evidence that both are created by the similar mechanisms, in utero.
Transsexuality differs greatly from the commonly - and erroneously - associated terms "Crossdressing" or "Transvestitism", as well as "Transgenderism".
Whereas transsexuality is concerned primarily with gender identity and the correction of physical form to fit that identity, transvestitism is primarily a sexual fetish that occurs after puberty, and the transvestite has no desperation to redress a physical incongruity. The transvestite gains satisfaction from appearing as the opposite sex only, and the behavior is apparently not rooted in a biological, pre-natal basis, but is learned. Transvestitism, unlike transsexuality, primarily is the activity of males.
A recent term in usage is "Transgenderism", essentially an empty word conjured up as a neutral label for any individual not conforming to common social rules of gender expression. The term was created to help unite very disparate individuals under a vague commonality of interest in gender, in order to provide a basis for mutual benefit and support within an often violently antagonistic society.
Transgenderism can refer to those who crossdress, those who are intersexed, those who live in the opposite societal role of their physical sex, those who play with gender expression for any purpose whatsoever, and transsexuals as well. While there is potentially great survival benefit in this mutual association labeled as 'transgenderism', the primary function is social and political, and not clinical, despite the efforts of some to legitimize this essentially meaningless term.
The exact number of transsexuals in any given population will probably never be accurately known (the best current estimate is one per 30,000). Because transsexuality is most commonly caused by stress-related hormonal changes in the womb, the number of transsexuals in any society would logically flux, based on the current state of affairs within a generation. There is evidence that more transsexuals are born during times during or following war, for instance. Even so, the condition is fairly rare.
Several interesting physical and mental indications have been statistically shown to occur in relation to transsexuality. One factor is intelligence, the transsexual is on average two standard deviations in intellect greater than the base population, and one standard deviation higher than those defined as homosexual. This probability of high intelligence is currently not explained, though there are suggestions that it may be the result of the unique and somewhat mixed brain 'wiring' of the transsexual, who may benefit from a combination of male and female structures or functions.
Another curious correlation is creativity, transsexuals tend to possess a high degree of artistic and general creative ability.
Transsexuals commonly show some physical indications of their condition that may cause trouble for them from parents or peers. The male-to-female transsexual may be slow to develop male sex characteristics such as body hair, voice change, and overall physical development compared to the general population. The Female-to-Male Transsexual may display evidence of masculinization of bone structure, hair, or voice. These traits are generally very subtle, but often present.
There is tremendous social bigotry -and often outright violence- expressed towards the transsexual, and this often makes the life of the transsexual very difficult. Some transsexuals who have completely successful in transition to the appropriate sex therefore choose varying degrees of secrecy about their state and history. Other transsexuals never succeed in transforming physically to the point of being undetectable as transsexuals, and tend to suffer accordingly.
Transsexuals suffer many hurdles to achieve their required correction of the error of their birth. They must face society, the medical establishment, the common loss of all family and friends, the cost of treatment, the extreme difficulty of the required 'half-way' phase of transition which may last up to two years, and the inner turmoil of self-doubt and conditioned self loathing of their condition. It has been estimated (in 1981) that about 50o not survive the malady, ending up dead by the age of 30, usually by their own hand. Almost all of this morbidity is attributed to the additional burden caused by the violent unacceptance of society, the rejection of family and friends, and the inability to find decent care.
The drive that motivates the transsexual is essentially a matter of life and death.
IN A NUTSHELL:
Transsexuals suffer because they are trapped in a body of the wrong sexe. This hurts so much that they are driven to fix that problem, or die trying. Transsexuality begins in the womb and occurs in many animals besides man. Transsexuality and homosexuality seem to share a common prenatal causality, but are not the same thing. Transsexuality is sometimes associated with things it is not really related to, such as crossdressing, for social or political reasons.
The Natural History Of Transsexuality:
Since transsexuality is caused by hormonal alteration of the nervous system of developing fetuses, and occurs in perhaps all mammalian species, it would be reasonable to infer that it has been around for a very long time. Indeed, since birth defects in general are just part of nature, it would be unthinkable to imagine an era of Man devoid of transsexuals. We have always been, and from time to time, history has recorded that fact.
The only clues we have of paleolithic transsexuals would be by considering the societies of aboriginal peoples still living with stone age technologies. The few left remaining on the earth, in the rain forests of South America, or the remaining unspoiled lands of Africa, all have reverential positions for the transsexuals that are born to them. In such societies, Transsexuals are considered magical, kin to the gods or spirits, and possessed of shamanic powers.
Every society in history has had some name, role or way of relating to the transsexual, from ancient Canaan and Turkey to India, even to the present day.
Examples abound. For instance, in ancient Rome existed the 'Gallae', Phrygian worshipers of the Goddess Cybele. Once decided on their choice of gender and religion, physically male Gallae ran through the streets and threw their own severed genitalia into open doorways, as a ritualistic act. The household receiving these remains considered them a great blessing. In return, the household would nurse the Gallae back to health. The Gallae then ceremoniously received female clothes, and assumed a female identity. Commonly, they would be dressed as brides, or in other splendid clothing.
In India, ritual practices for transsexual individuals continue to the present day. Called Hijiras, this sect also worship a Goddess, and undergo a primitive sort of sex reassignment surgery. The Hijiras are treated in a rather hypocritical fashion within Indian society however, in that they are both despised and revered at the same time. Hijiras often are paid to attend a bless weddings, and to act as spiritual and social advisors, but are also shunned as less than worthy eunuchs. Yet in other circumstances, such as social situations, they are accorded the status of true females.
The Dine, or Navajos of the southwest United States, recognize three sexes instead of only two. For the Dine, there are Males, Females, and Nadles, which are considered somewhat both and neither. While those born intersexed or hermaphroditic are automatically considered Nadle, physically 'normal' individuals may define as Nadle based on their own self-definition of gender identity. The Nadle once possessed far greater respect before the Navaho were conquered and their culture all but obliterated by the forced assumption of Catholicism.
Among the Sioux, the Winkte served much the same function, and individuals could assume the complete role of their preferred gender. Physical females lived as male warriors, and had wives, while physical males lived their lives completely as women. In Sioux society no special magic was associated with this, it was just considered a way of correcting a mistake of nature. Winkte would also perform primitive reassignment operations of a sort, and history records the process used by physical males: riding for days on a special hard saddle to crush the testicles and thus effectively castrate the individual.
Being transsexual in ancient cultures took a special form of courage too, even if society may have been embracing of the Transsexed!
Whether it is the Sererr of the Pokots of Kenya, the Xaniths of Islamic Oman, the Mahu of Tahiti, or even the Sekrata of Madagascar, the story is essentially the same: transsexuality was a fact of life, and a place in society was made for the gender dysphoric to be themselves.
The modern classification of transsexuality and the medical intervention of sex reassignment was first attempted in Germany in 1930. Einar Wegener sought treatment and was operated upon. Afterwards, she lived as Lily Elbe, but alas not for long...the surgery had tragic complications. The first well known, surviving post operative transsexual was American ex-G.I. George Jorgensen, who became Christine Jorgensen in 1953. Christine became the center of a whirlwind of publicity despite an effort to avoid it, and had little choice but to capitalize on the misfortune. Christine became the first 'Media Transsexual' - or as some transsexuals put it 'Transie Martyr' , and suffered both the benefit and curse of fame. Christine starred in several hollywood movies as a result, and became celebrity enough to bring transsexualism out of the closet and into view of post-industrial society.
For decades only the rare individual physician dared treat the transsexual, while the mainstream medical community considered transsexuality to be a mere mental disorder without a biological basis. The first professional to truly try to help transsexuals with compassion and scientific study was Dr. Harry Benjamin. Dr. Benjamin carefully treated and studied the cases of transsexuals, essentially devoting most of his career to the project. The results of his carefully documented studies were published in 1966 in his book "The Transsexual Phenomenon". This work led directly to the benefits that we modern transsexuals enjoy, for it opened the door to serious study of the condition. Currently, the worldwide Harry Benjamin International Gender Dysphoria Association continues his work, and helps to set standards of care for the treatment of transsexuals by the medical establishment.
Recent study of brain functioning has shed important light on the causes of transsexuality, and surgical techniques as well as overall treatment continue to improve. Society is slowly becoming accepting once again of the inevitable transsexual in it's midst, and it may well be that the future will hold even greater help for the transsexuals born into future ages. IN A NUTSHELL:
Transsexuals have always existed. In the ancient world, transsexuality was both accepted and respected. Throughout the ages, transsexuals have attempted to correct the error of their bodies, with varying results. The modern, technological world at last provides a real chance for the transsexual to finally, truly correct the errors of Nature.
For those of you who might be interested in knowing my lifestory, here is a little story about myself and how i discovered being a transsexual woman:
When i was young i always had the feeling of being a girl. I knew i was a boy, because i was born with male genitals but always somehow i felt more attracted to girly thinks, like playing with dolls, hairstyling, makeup, romantic and sentimental subjects and movies. As i grew older i found out that i felt attracted to men, so i assumed i was homosexual. At age 17 i started to enter the gayscene and experimented with having sex with men and tried to start romantic relationships with men. For some years i liked this lifestyle but always i felt like something was missing. Because when it came down to sex, i was always the 'feminine' one of the couple. And in my eyes i always loved men through the eyes and with the heart of a woman. I started imagining myself how it would be to be like a woman and have a normal relationship with a man AS a woman myself.
When i was 24 yrs old i ended up in an extreme identitycrisis. I didn't know who the hell i was anymore. WHO WAS I??? I looked in the mirror and i saw someone who i was NOT. I saw a person who forced himself to be a masculine man with masculine looks while my manners and my voice were always so feminine and refined. I discovered that i was just to feminine to be a 'man'. So i started experimenting with transvestism and crossdressing. partially i felt like i was 'coming home', because i was delirious about applying my makeup and transforming from male to female, but in the beginning i was looking like a caricature. Ofcourse there were lots of men attracted by me, the so called 'tranny admirers'. But this was never what i was looking for really. So i took some time to grow my hair and to develope myself as a normal woman, in stead of a transvestite. For some time i loved being a transvestite, but if i stayed a transvestite, i would never accomplish my dream of finding myself a husband for life. I discovered that i was not a transvestite but a TRANSSEXUAL woman. My inside was too much woman for a man and to be a transvestite so at a certain point i decided to appear as a woman only and to kill the man i was before. Actually i never really was a man, people always saw me as a person who was 'in between two sexes' because my appearance was always somehow androgenous. When people met me, they always asked me: 'are you a boy or a girl'? I told them: 'I am both, is that ok with you?'
(this is me in the early days as a transvestite)
Anyway, at this moment i am visiting a psychologer from our local genderclinic to talk through my process, i need to go there every month to discuss my process and how i feel as a 'PRE-OP' transsexual woman. I feel that i am quite passable and when i go on the streets, no one notices that i was actually a man and people always think that i am a real woman. For me this is proof enough to know that i am feminine enough to live completely as a woman!
Together with my psychologer from the genderclinic (wich is a very nice woman) we are figuring out wether i am getting permission for hormonetreatment and the total transformation or not. If i am correct i will have my surgery within the next two or three years from now (now it's april 2006), because first of all my body needs to adjust via the hormones. I need to take 'Androcur' to decrease the male characteristics and feminine hormones to INCREASE the female characteristics. When my body has adjusted enough i will have green light for my surgery.. this will be the happiest day of my life!
Living as a transsexual woman is not easy. Especially not when it comes down to relationships. Ofcourse there are plenty of men who love to experiment with 'having sex' with a transsexual, they see us mainly for 'fun' but they are forgetting that we are women inside who need to be loved. Another sad thing is that there are very few who are daring enough and caring enough to start a real romantic relationship with a transsexual woman. In my point of view there arent many courageous men who have the same guts as we transsexual women have. They are too chickenshit to have a relationship with you: 'the transsexual'. Ofcourse they love to meet you in secret, and they all tell you 'how much they love you' and shower you with presents, but never one dares to admit that he trully loves you and confess that he has a relationship wtih you. Sometimes you feel like you are just some monster, while actually we are the opposite, we are pieces of ART and we deserve respect because we had to fight ourselves through a misunderstanding society, agression and 'bashing', discrimination, being unemployed cuz of non-acceptance and an incredible loneliness that took years and years to figure out who the hell we are! This is what i wanna fight for, to make people understand WHO and WHAT we are and that we are no monsters, but dignified women with a heart. Men need to come out of the closet too, there is nothing to be ashamed of for loving a transsexual, we are human beings, just like everyone else and we deserve to be loved to and NOT IN SECRET because we are NO monsters! They shouldn;t care 'what the family thinks when he comes home with a transsexual', or 'what his friends might think who will ridicule him when they find out he had some adventure with a transsexual woman'. They have to keep in mind hat people who ridicule them for loving a TS (Transsexual) are actually the most ridiculous ones and the dont deserve your attention at all because they are trying to make a fool out of a person you just dated and might like for more then just ONE hot adventure! Who the hell cares of they ban you from their 'circle of friends' , to hell with it: 'some friends, if they ban you for a choice you made'. Or who the hell cares 'if your family will shut you out from now on?' It will give you great freedom. They never really loved you if they banish you just because you would love a transsexual, they are not worthy of your energy anyway, so make your own choice to be free! Especially if you call yourself a grown man. We are proud women who deserve a whole lot of respect, if you consider the long road we have to travel to become the person we feel like we are in side, all the surgery, all the money it costs and all the effords we put in to be the woman we are. And not to speak of all agression we have to bare from the outside world, all misunderstanding and ignorance, and having to explain who we are and WHAT we are, when some man is intersted in us and we have to explain that we are not 'real woman'. Can you imagine how hard this is and how extremely exhausting and timeconsuming it is to explain who you are 100 times a day?
Anyway, still i am happy and proud of who i am, I am ZOHRA, The Queen of my own universe!!!
When i was 24 yrs old i ended up in an extreme identitycrisis. I didn't know who the hell i was anymore. WHO WAS I??? I looked in the mirror and i saw someone who i was NOT. I saw a person who forced himself to be a masculine man with masculine looks while my manners and my voice were always so feminine and refined. I discovered that i was just to feminine to be a 'man'. So i started experimenting with transvestism and crossdressing. partially i felt like i was 'coming home', because i was delirious about applying my makeup and transforming from male to female, but in the beginning i was looking like a caricature. Ofcourse there were lots of men attracted by me, the so called 'tranny admirers'. But this was never what i was looking for really. So i took some time to grow my hair and to develope myself as a normal woman, in stead of a transvestite. For some time i loved being a transvestite, but if i stayed a transvestite, i would never accomplish my dream of finding myself a husband for life. I discovered that i was not a transvestite but a TRANSSEXUAL woman. My inside was too much woman for a man and to be a transvestite so at a certain point i decided to appear as a woman only and to kill the man i was before. Actually i never really was a man, people always saw me as a person who was 'in between two sexes' because my appearance was always somehow androgenous. When people met me, they always asked me: 'are you a boy or a girl'? I told them: 'I am both, is that ok with you?'
(this is me in the early days as a transvestite)
Anyway, at this moment i am visiting a psychologer from our local genderclinic to talk through my process, i need to go there every month to discuss my process and how i feel as a 'PRE-OP' transsexual woman. I feel that i am quite passable and when i go on the streets, no one notices that i was actually a man and people always think that i am a real woman. For me this is proof enough to know that i am feminine enough to live completely as a woman!
Together with my psychologer from the genderclinic (wich is a very nice woman) we are figuring out wether i am getting permission for hormonetreatment and the total transformation or not. If i am correct i will have my surgery within the next two or three years from now (now it's april 2006), because first of all my body needs to adjust via the hormones. I need to take 'Androcur' to decrease the male characteristics and feminine hormones to INCREASE the female characteristics. When my body has adjusted enough i will have green light for my surgery.. this will be the happiest day of my life!
Living as a transsexual woman is not easy. Especially not when it comes down to relationships. Ofcourse there are plenty of men who love to experiment with 'having sex' with a transsexual, they see us mainly for 'fun' but they are forgetting that we are women inside who need to be loved. Another sad thing is that there are very few who are daring enough and caring enough to start a real romantic relationship with a transsexual woman. In my point of view there arent many courageous men who have the same guts as we transsexual women have. They are too chickenshit to have a relationship with you: 'the transsexual'. Ofcourse they love to meet you in secret, and they all tell you 'how much they love you' and shower you with presents, but never one dares to admit that he trully loves you and confess that he has a relationship wtih you. Sometimes you feel like you are just some monster, while actually we are the opposite, we are pieces of ART and we deserve respect because we had to fight ourselves through a misunderstanding society, agression and 'bashing', discrimination, being unemployed cuz of non-acceptance and an incredible loneliness that took years and years to figure out who the hell we are! This is what i wanna fight for, to make people understand WHO and WHAT we are and that we are no monsters, but dignified women with a heart. Men need to come out of the closet too, there is nothing to be ashamed of for loving a transsexual, we are human beings, just like everyone else and we deserve to be loved to and NOT IN SECRET because we are NO monsters! They shouldn;t care 'what the family thinks when he comes home with a transsexual', or 'what his friends might think who will ridicule him when they find out he had some adventure with a transsexual woman'. They have to keep in mind hat people who ridicule them for loving a TS (Transsexual) are actually the most ridiculous ones and the dont deserve your attention at all because they are trying to make a fool out of a person you just dated and might like for more then just ONE hot adventure! Who the hell cares of they ban you from their 'circle of friends' , to hell with it: 'some friends, if they ban you for a choice you made'. Or who the hell cares 'if your family will shut you out from now on?' It will give you great freedom. They never really loved you if they banish you just because you would love a transsexual, they are not worthy of your energy anyway, so make your own choice to be free! Especially if you call yourself a grown man. We are proud women who deserve a whole lot of respect, if you consider the long road we have to travel to become the person we feel like we are in side, all the surgery, all the money it costs and all the effords we put in to be the woman we are. And not to speak of all agression we have to bare from the outside world, all misunderstanding and ignorance, and having to explain who we are and WHAT we are, when some man is intersted in us and we have to explain that we are not 'real woman'. Can you imagine how hard this is and how extremely exhausting and timeconsuming it is to explain who you are 100 times a day?
Anyway, still i am happy and proud of who i am, I am ZOHRA, The Queen of my own universe!!!
My birthday is on july 30th. I was born in the sunny month of July as you can see under the sunny sign: 'LEO'. Leo's are warmhearted persons with a generous nature. They are dominating in their presence and have a certain 'threatrical radiance' Leos apear as arrogant persons but this is all just a façade. Leos just like to shine. No wonder why GOLD is their favorite color! Persons, born under the 'LEO sign' love glamour and glitter and all that radiates wealth and 'beauty', however they can be humble when necessary. LEO's are firesigns. This means they live with a huge amount of fire (passion) in their hearts. They are always crazy for sex and romance, but they need a partner who knows how to put them on a pedestal and treat them like kings/queens. All leos have a natural 'acting 'talent' and most of them have an artistic job in wich they can develope all their multi-talents. Leos are also born leaders. They just can't stand 'bosses' or people who are higher in the hierarchy them they are, they are proud persons with a certain amount of stubbornnes. Most Leos are very sensitive and romantic persons at heart. They love romantic evenings with lots of candles, soft music in a well decorated atmosphere, a good wine, expensive jewels and a nice 'scent' of perfume.
Also they love to be showered with nice presents. You can always make them happy with beautiful things. They just LOVE GOLD and diamonds are the SHE-LEOS best friends. They can be sweet kittycats, but beware when you hurt them. They will put their claws in you and bite with their sharp teeth. Whenever there is a person 'in need' they can always ask a LEO for HELP. Because of their strong natures, they always like to take care of the weak amongst us. A romantic relationship with a person, born under the LEO-sign, will never be boring. They have an adventurous nature and just love to experiment with all kinds of things. This can vary with trying out the hottest sex-toy from travelling to exotic countries. THEY NEED SUNLIGHT. When there is no sun in the life of a LEO he/she will suffer from melancholy. The sunlight gives them energy and makes them happy. They don't like darkminded people and dark furniture, dark clothes, dark areas. They always need LIGHT. Lazyness is a bad habbit of LEO. They love to relax and sunbathe and whenever possible they will hand over all necessary actions to other people who love to serve them ;-) Many leos grow fat when getting older because of their lazyness, but they will always keep their charm.
Compatible partners for LEOS are Saggitarrius, Aries, Gemini and other LEOS (but then again when both parties are not TOO arrogant and willing to let the other to 'boss' from time to time. There can never be two captains on one ship!!!
Famous LEOS are: Madonna, Bill Clinton, Napoleon Bonaparte
Also they love to be showered with nice presents. You can always make them happy with beautiful things. They just LOVE GOLD and diamonds are the SHE-LEOS best friends. They can be sweet kittycats, but beware when you hurt them. They will put their claws in you and bite with their sharp teeth. Whenever there is a person 'in need' they can always ask a LEO for HELP. Because of their strong natures, they always like to take care of the weak amongst us. A romantic relationship with a person, born under the LEO-sign, will never be boring. They have an adventurous nature and just love to experiment with all kinds of things. This can vary with trying out the hottest sex-toy from travelling to exotic countries. THEY NEED SUNLIGHT. When there is no sun in the life of a LEO he/she will suffer from melancholy. The sunlight gives them energy and makes them happy. They don't like darkminded people and dark furniture, dark clothes, dark areas. They always need LIGHT. Lazyness is a bad habbit of LEO. They love to relax and sunbathe and whenever possible they will hand over all necessary actions to other people who love to serve them ;-) Many leos grow fat when getting older because of their lazyness, but they will always keep their charm.
Compatible partners for LEOS are Saggitarrius, Aries, Gemini and other LEOS (but then again when both parties are not TOO arrogant and willing to let the other to 'boss' from time to time. There can never be two captains on one ship!!!
Famous LEOS are: Madonna, Bill Clinton, Napoleon Bonaparte
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Friday,Oct 12 2007, 10:33:22 AMNew Transgender Social network
I have created a new social network, similar to MYSPACE, HI5.com and FRIENDSTER, called 'TRANNYSPACE'
http://trannyspace.ning.com/
It is a great website, where you can CHAT in the CHATROOM, make friends, find love or romance, create your own page, blogs, CHATROOM, upload your personal videos and make a new FRIENDSNETWORK, you can also create your own transgender-related group there... Join this community, and invite all your friends and ask your friends to invite THEIR friends aswell so we will be a GREAT transgender community!
PLEASE COME AND VISIT 'TRANNYSPACE'
http://trannyspace.ning.com/
Monday,Aug 27 2007, 09:00:06 PMA little bit about myself right here!
Saturday,Jan 13 2007, 08:08:40 PMA personal video
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Monday,Dec 4 2006, 12:46:25 AMA wonderful night out!!!
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We just had a wonderful night out yesterday wowwwwwwwww
Thursday,Nov 30 2006, 03:58:17 AMFed up with men!!
I am really fed up with men... i dont know what to do anymore if someone contacts me or replies to my profile or blogs. They are all just a bunch of perverts who love to chat hot with you for a moment and after that you go on to the next one...
Now what to do and whom to trust or not???
Aren;t there any serious guys around in this world who want to love me really????
