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This is the woman inside, brought to the outside!!!As the regular visitors of my page know, i am a PRE-op transsexual, still going through transition. I am a woman at heart, born in the body of a man. Without makeup i look somehow feminine, but i need to wear makeup to look more like a woman. Some people ask me why i wear makeup to cover my face, but if you are not transsexual you will never understand this. It's not a matter of feeling ashamed of your face, its bringing your TRUE FACE OUTSIDE!!! Inside this body, that was meant to be MAN, i feel a woman soul. I need to bring this soul to the surface in the looks of a woman! At the moment i live as a woman almost everyday and i applied for sexe change surgery at my logal gender clinic, however, i dont look like this when i wake up in the morning. Don't expect a diva when i wake up next to you in your bed, i need to make a big effort to look like this, to look like the woman i feel i am inside.This means i have to shave my face, cuz i was originally born male ofcourse and i didnt have any money to get rid of my facial hair through lasertreatment. In a while i will start taking hormones wich will reduca my bodyhair a bit and also i need to shave less then i have to do now, but... it doesnt remove the facial hair totally, it only reduces it and softens is. Its hard to be transsexual. Men see us as sexual fetishes only, not as women who want to be loved and feel safe in the arms of a man. The worst of all is that they want just the 'end product', not the person i am now who is fighting herself to the end of the process of becoming a woman! They dont want to see a man in the morning who applies makeup to become a woman, this saddens me sometimes.I am a very sensitive soul and my great wish is to find me a man who loves me for who i am and not for what i am, not one of those terrible men who are searching the internet to find one tranny after another or who hop from ass to ass! i need a genuine love and for years i am searching the internet to find myself a sweet and nice man with his heart at the good spot, to love me so deeply and to forfill my girlsdreams! This sounds like a desperate attempt to find me a man, well, i am almost 36 now and never i found a man who wanted more from me then just some hot moment, most of them are still afraid to be stigmatised as homosexual if they will start a relationship with a transsexual or transgendered woman... who the fuck cares??? What is the problem... transsexuals suffer a great deal and are very proud to be the women they are, why arent there any guys who have the same guts as we do? Why are they all sissies? Why isnt there any guy who dares to stand up for 'us' openly and who feels no shame to be 'friends' or 'lover' of a transsexual woman???Anyway, i am going too far now, i just wanted to inform the visitors of my page that the way you see me now, is not the way i wake up in the morning... i AM feminine yes, in all ways, and i have a female voice, but beware, i still need to shave myself and i need to apply a lot of makeup to look like a woman. Well i look feminine already by nature, but somehow 'androgenous'. I wear makeup to accent my female parts and to protect myself on the streets also, because if i dont wear any makeup people will see me as something strange that looks like between male and female.. and i wanna look like female only!!!Hope you will all understand my story better now!Love,ZohraP.S.: For my dutch visitors who wanna know more about me, go to www.zohratranssexueel.com to read more about me and the person i am!!!
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Transsexual...Curiosity or rarity?
Some people think that we, the transsexuals, are coming from another planet. They think that we are so different from them, that our blood is purple and that we eat rats to stay alive. Sometimes there are such ignorant people adding to my messenger, asking me: 'And when you cum, do you cum the same as a woman does?' Well, to let you all know: 'I was born male, and i still have this terrible cock-thing ...
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PLEASE DONT ADD ME WITHOUT MAILING ME FIRST!!!
I have a lot of visitors at my page here and there are also so many adding me to their MSN messenger list, without sending me an email before adding me! I really wonder WHY you want to add me in your list, because, there is most of the time NO quality in the chats i have with people who added me. All they can talk about is: 'do you have cam, wanna cam2cam sex?'To these men i ...
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Please, married men, KEEP OUT!!!
Since i registered myself here i get contacted by lots and lots and lots of married men. Somehow they feel kinda attracted to me and i have the feeling they are into some 'experimenting' while these so called 'good guys' are married! Well guys, let me tell you this: 'Keep your dicks in your pants and leave me the hell alone' . As you can see (WHEN YOU TAKE TIME TO ACTUALLY READ MY PROFILE)', i am LOOKING for ...
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Why i am NOT into CAM2CAM chats...
People ask me for C2C chat all the time and wonder what the hell a transsexual looks like when she is naked and always i have to tell them 'NO'. I Don't have a cam and even if i HAD one i wouldn't do C2C with you... the main reason for this is that i am, as you all know, a PRE-OP transsexual woman. PRE-OP means 'BEFORE THE OPERATION'. I am changing my sexe from male to female. I am in the ...
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