Saturday,Apr 25 2009, 01:54:57 AMSebulan telah berlalu

Sebulan telah berlalu.. aku seakan terasa tiada apa-apa yang telah berlaku.. pergi teambuilding and play bowl..fun and games.. laughter..

I saw the same things happens to my siblings.. why is it.. though our mother just passed away.. Her grave soil is still freash and red.. We act like nothing happen..

Its like this.. when ever we speak about her, we dun really accept that she has gone forever from our life.. we feel that she is still breathing somewhere.. she went on a very long trip and one day she will return. When we talk about her, we refuse to used the word 'arwah'. It's still unacceptable word and its like a taboo. When we sat alone in a corner, you will see us shed with tears, that is for sure. But deep in our heart, we refuse to believe it.. but we must..

Oh God, please.. help us.. to go through this..

Friends sends regards.. even department aku hantar sejambak bunga takziah.. bunga itu, walaupun sudah kering, masih lagi disimpan di bilik ibu. Aku di benarkan mengambil cuti kemurungan selama mana yang aku mahu. So I took almost 2 weeks off. Thanks Boss for understanding. Thanks to all my office collegue for the contribution you guys put in together. It does help a lot. May God bless u all..

Mom.. its too late now if I wanna to say I wanna help you..

I wish my prayer reach you and may you live happily ever after in the world that you've go to... we miss u..

Saturday,Jan 3 2009, 12:21:41 PMKishi.. u'r the best

First thing first.. Tahniah kepada Ana kerana selamat melahirkan seorang bayi perempuan bernama putri aisya adriana.. waa.. glamer2 sungguh nama bayi sekarang ni.. al maklumla.. ibu-ibunye pun dah modern dan banyak mendapat ilham.. :p Tahniah.. moga-moga beliau menjadi anak yg solehah dan dapat menbantu kedua ibu bapanya di akhirat kelak dengan amal yang soleh.. :)

Tabik spring kepada kishi.. penulis/pereka Naruto la... apa lagi.. jalan cerita yang mantap dan penuh suspen.. Dulu aku sikit punya bengang bile konohamaru belajar rasengan.. sekarang kemunculan Naruto sangat gah di depan tsunade.. membuatkan aku teruja untuk melihat kesudahan cerita ni.. tah sempat.. tah kan tidak.. Naruto sudah semakin hebat setelah dia menjalani latihan mantap di dunia katak.. setelah kematian jiraya

Jiraya.. you have done a gud job raising Naruto.. he will continue your legacy.. you deserve to rest.. Aku suka betul macam mana kishi rapatkan hubungan antara jiraya dan naruto.. dan idea akatsuki serta misteri-misterinya.. wah.. banyak betul rahsia belum terbongkar.. I really wonder how kishi can come up with all this wonderful ideas..

Of course.. you can only see how wonderful Naruto story is by ready  the manga. Anime is full of fillers that from my point of view.. to much of a story and  spoiled it sometimes.. Naruto is not that stupid ok..

Kishi.. u'r the best.. wonder what will happen next.. can't wait..

Thursday,Jan 1 2009, 03:16:48 PMPeople Around.. and yes... Life

You are maybe going to see me more often updating.. yup.. tough life this is..

Yet.. I still have some place where I can write all what I want.. as long as I dun violate my own personal rules that is.. Did I ever mention to you people.. When I was in college, people use to call me 'budak prinsip' or the girl with a principe.. I do have my own rules of  living.. I will not violate them because I want to keep my life on track.. but I also do have some silly rules that I wish that I demolish them but I dun know why that I keep on following them like dun date people that I ever treat for lunch or dinner.. Sound silly huh.. ? Things about me, I like to treat people.. when ever I feel like it that is.. So it is hard for me to know a person that I haven't treat.. and its going nowhere.. well.. anyway.. that was not what I want to talk about here.. So .. lets cut the crap out of it..

People that surround us.. that is what I what to talk about.. Kita berjumpa ramai ornag dalam dunia ni.. semuanya mempunyai sifat yg unik menjadikan setiap orang itu individu dalam dunianya.. Aku.. lebih suka memandang manusia itu dari sifat dan keperibadian mereka berbanding paras rupa..

Teringat aku tatkala mendengar cerita dari sahabat-shabat.. "wow.. dia nampak lain betul bile pakai certain baju, make up or even wearing pretty smart..".. Orang akan kata nampak lebih lawa la.. nampak lain sungguh la.. lebih hensem la.. The thing is.. I dun see all that.. They look the same to me.. wearing make up or not.. dress up well or not.. They simply looks like them.. I really didn't get it.. I saw pictures, go to wedding.. all the people looks really the same.. just with extra colours on their face and some fancy dress doesn't change them at all for me.. What I see is the same person I meet up everyday.. I never went to a wedding that I saw people different from what I saw every other day in my life.. seriously.. sorry guys.. I am telling you the truth.. Masa itu menyedarkan aku bahawa aku ni jenis manusia yang lebih melihat seseorang it sebagai individu yang mempunyai ciri keperibadian tertentu.

Kalau korang tertanya-tanya.. naper la di Ain ni tak bagi komen byk.. or like to silent herself when time you dress up or put extra make up.. well .. that is the reason to it.. I can only see you.. not a different person.. Maybe thats why I dun really like buying new cloths or put in extra something.. not because I am stingy..  because new stuff doesn't really change the person you are.. you are the one who can really change yourself. Doesn't matter if you have extra things.. extra shoes.. extra expensive clothes.. You are You..

Satu-satunye menda yang membolehkan aku melihat kalian dengan mengatakan.. wow.. dia nampak lain.. adalah.. bile korang bagi satu idea, pandangan or mencurahkan ilmu yang memang aku tak sangka korang ada.. dan boleh terpikir menda macam tu.. then.. you do look different..

There is one guy.. who really look lame to me.. skinney guy.. with a long face.. and a pierce in his ear.. then.. one day.. turn out.. he's giving a tutor to a bunch of engineer.. Now.. he looks really cool when I look at him these days.... and I keep wondering why did I not see that he had such a cool attittude and a smart looking person..

New years.. new beginning.. tahun hijrah dan masihi.. baru bermula.. harapan kita agar segalanye berjalan dengan lancar dan segala-galanya bermula dengan kebaikan dan berakhir dengan kejayaan.. Selamat Tahun Baru 1430H/2009M to all. Hope semua bahagia dunia dan akhirat.. hey.. you are too special to be some one else.. work with it ;-)

Friday,Dec 12 2008, 02:11:08 PMlife it is

Hi All, long time no see...

Aku ni pun asik sibuk jer kebelakangan ni dan berada dalam keadaan yang agak serabut. You know what.. I got into an accident. Yup.. road accident. Went back to KL to look at a sick mother. Then got back to penang.. wham.. accident. It was raining.. jalan licin.. could not really see where I am going.. kereta mula mengelongsor dan berpusing.. langgar divider.. terasa macam drift la pulak.. hehehe

Aku pusing stereng terlebih kut.. jadi camtu.. bile jalan licin dia drag la.. Alhamdulillah.. aku tak de cedera sebab aku dapat memberhentikan kereta setelah ia berpusing hampir 360 darjah.. rasa sengal bahu dan sakit belakang. Really.. seat belt does help a lot.. dalam keadaan kereta berpusing tu, my body was push down to my seat so I was save.

The accident was not really the worst part.. my hp battery is dead. No choice but to hail another car. As being a lady I am.. a bit depressed as I hail a car by the road side, alone.. no one want to stop.. hey.. its just me.. no bad guys wanted to rob you.. all the malay folks was just drive through while taking a glance at my wrecked car. Its PLUS highway on the way to Penang. A lot.. i mean a lot of cars passing by. Bukan la aku nak diskriminasi.. aku dah la tahan korang dalam keadaan kereta teruk, hujan dan basah.. sangat sayu.. teruk la korang.. pentingkan diri sendiri.. bukannye nak makan korang.. nk pinjam telepon kejap jer pun...

Lucky for me after lots of frustration, there is a kind middle age chinese couple willing to stop. I borrow their cell phone to contact my insurans company. Thanks you guys.. only God can ever repay your help. Who ever you are. My Insurans towing company happens to be around that area and towed my car down to the police station. Lampu depan dan belakang pecah sebelah kanan.. kereta kemek site kanan..

Borak2 dengan towing guy tu.. ramlan nama dia. middle 40 i guess.. turn out that dia ada charger hp. So, aku charge hp dlm tow truck sepanjang perjalanan ke balai polis. Kebetulan pulak.. aku kena check something untuk kerja.. so aku mesej senior untuk mintak coverage. Just let him now that my car broke down. Tetiba senior aku call, katanya dia dalam perjalanan nak ke penang.. so.. dia nak amik aku. waa.. mula nya aku tolak gak.. but he really insists. Then, I tell him the truth about the accident. Sampai jer balai polis.. buat report semua, senior aku sampai.. Julian Chan with his gilfriend.. Lan Sing.

Really relief and yet feels really bad drangging them into this. They were so kind and concerns. Lucky.. they said.. you were alright. My seniors specifically ask me to stay home the next morning and not to come to work. I am in gud hands here..

Thank You Allah.. for Your blessings on me .. I love you :)

Tuesday,Nov 4 2008, 01:53:29 PMTarik tali

Hi All,

Lama giler dah rasanya aku tak update lama web ni.. well, I have been busy lately. Kerja banyak gaks la.. cuma sekarang ni aku nyer kerja dah tak de sangat, bolehla dikatakan kerja aku dah settle.. tolong-tolong orang jer siapkan kerja. Al maklumla dateline untuk deliver whole project dah dekat.. Pulak tu nak launch tahun depan. Hopefully semua ok. Baru jer dapat recognition last week depan satu team pasal kerja masa weekend. Rasa terharu dan makin rajin plak.. hehehe.. ganbatte.

Banyak rasanya aku nak tulis kat sini. Mula satu-satu la.. mulakan ngan topic kita.. "tarik tali". Bukan le nak cerita pasal main tarik tali tapi pasal proses tarik menarik. Aku sekarang ni sibuk melobi orang masuk team aku, termasuk la team lama kat syarikat lama aku. Bukan nyer apa.. kesian member duk buat kerja tak de hasil (jgn marah a.. cik ros). Bukan salah cik ros pun.. salah org kat atas2 tu.. kekadang aku rasa direction dia sedikit blur. Kalau nak keep on latest technology, sampai bile pun tak siap. Pada aku, elok tambah resources. Current resources buat project settlekan. New resources focus on taking that project upgrade. can combine at later stage what.. during engineering change order phase. Tah la.. selagi kerja bawah p*l*t****n, camtu le.. nak puaskan hati semua orang, satu menda pun tak jalan

Tarik punya tarik. Dapat la aku kidnap sorang dari team lama join aku kat sini. Best oo.. kerja sini compara sana cuma sakit sket la bile time kat sini.. kalau dah dekat dateline, sampai kena kurung tapi time ofis hour jer la. makanan pun hantar masuk bilik kurungan. hehehe.. tapi menu lunch.. memang best la.. bleh pilih lagi nak makan pe.. free lak tu..

Other than that.. bagi sesapa yang tengok naruto.. ish .. sedih betul la.. Asuma mati.. tapi aku dah tau dah dia nak mati pasal aku duk baca manga.. tapi aku nak beritau sket pada member2 kita yang tak baca manga tu.. Asuma mati tu hanya la permulaan. Banyak lagi character2 penting akan mati.. Aku duk baca komik pun duk ngalir air mata.. sedih giler.. minggu depan sambung lagi komik tu.. tak tau diorang nak matikan ker tak satu lagi watak penting. Setakat ni.. masuk asuma kira dah 3 watak penting mati.. sedih la wei.. To Naruto: balik le ke Kanoha.. !! Kesian Kanoha..