Journals
Thursday,Mar 13 2008, 03:30:07 PM寂寞花园
今天好难过，真的好难过……
但是有点麻木了……很想堕落……很想放纵自己……沉沦吧……
如果这是恶梦……很希望快点醒过来……
如果你真的要我放弃,我可以答应你……
只要能让你开心，你快乐就好……我什么都愿意……
不曾像如此无能为力，我多么不想要这样的结局……
再多说也来不及……此刻刺痛的心……我怎么忘也无法忘记……
如果我曾伤了你，就让我说声对不起……
虽然想要再见你……可是也只能在梦里了……
想起你离去时的情景，实在不明白，为什么非要我们分隔两地？
在我的心里只有一句我爱你，在寂寞的夜反覆说给自己听……
我不愿相信这样的结局，留下我独自痛苦回忆……
我早已习惯无情的风雨，但不能没有你……可是你不知道……
你把我推向绝望的悬崖……却自认为是要我坚强独立……
你觉得你这样是爱我的表现……但是……
我只觉得你残忍……
我爱你……但也恨你……
well i wonder could it be,when i was dreaming about you dear
you were dreaming of me, call me crazy ,call me blind to still be suffering is stupid after all of this time. did i lose my love to someone better and does she love you like i do? i do, you know i really really do......
so much i need to say, been lonely since the day...the day you went away.....so sad but true! for me there's only you, been crying since the day.....
i remember date and time, march twenty second thurday twenty five after nine.....u went away during the white valentine.....
in the doorway with your case, no longer shouting at each other...there were tears on our faces and we were letting go of something special...something we'll never have again.....
i know, i guess i really really know....why do we never know what we've got till it's gone,how could i carry on that day when u went away? cause i've been missing you so much i have to say......