It's a long long Journey, till i know where I am supposed to be, It's a long long journey, and I don't know if I can believe, when shadows fall and block my eyes...I heared this songs for many times, as it's really seem to written for me. I think everyone have their lost or failure times, they are always want to looking for back themselves. as they can't remember the way to get home.Most times, we escaped when we in hard and frastration. I am not sure if it's mean too scare, to lost more...  Wondering what's my pursose, wondering how to make me strong. I know sometimes i will falter, i know will cry

By now, i still don't find any result, i am not sure what kind of person i am, may be the time would tell me the truth. But i know it's very foolish thing to using of the time. It's a too big stake. If i can not find the answer. What i could do for this past times. Or what i could do for it in the other ways????????????? I am looking for the answers+ing.

Today, is my birthday!I am so happy all the day, this is the first time which i have my most exciting and interesting birthday party. It;s really different from the past experience.

We gone out side to have a big free party with my friends. Here is full of joy and happiness. We had a boating race, games, ride horse. Every one we do crazy, crazy to scream with the exciting entertainment. crazy to laugh, to have fun. to eat.

I do feel happy today! I knew that is the biggest birthday gift which from god.

In fact, I never asked to my self if i enjoy my single life. For these long time, I just forgot the favor of love. Since I have been graduated from college. I never have that feeling about it. I just told my self it's not bad to live alone. There is a very quiet and peace field for soul. No jealous, no hurt, no quarrel, no scare. Perhaps, i will just keep going to be alone...I can't forget some part of memory by him. When I am thinking of that, I just can't keep going my new journey. 

I knew that if i can't forget, i can't start. Even many times of shooting by love arrow, what i only can do is to escape. Yeah, i am a craven. I can't face my past time. I can't forget the past memory. I am scared again.

It's diffuclt to re-start as well as forget.I know the biggest enemy is myself. I am not sure if i enjoy this single life, but i am trying on to live it with meaningful.