Journals
Tuesday,Dec 7 2004, 03:16:01 PMhi! i know i've got no obligation to do a...
hi! i know i've got no obligation to do a post everyday like some diary, but i've got this urge la. like while i'm interested...and i hope i keep this gg for quite sometime indeed, now that i have the time.
but u know, sometimes when its better i really don't feel like blabbing it all out, ya know? cos i don't wanna drag myself into that quagmire all the time. i guess it depends on the mood. but then again, i'll just be forgetting all that happened and i don't think i really want that to happen. self-pity. one of the major irritants in my life.
newae, cos there really isn't much to say, methinks i'll stay online onlie for a short while and then go on to friends5. i need to make myself happy.
oh wait! i do have something to say about my reading habits! i mean, i really should'nt have gone all the way with that little pple book, i mean, i do that mostly all the time, but ALL THE WAY! god. if this is what preparing for 'A's has done to me, i shall be very irritated. honestly hope this doesn't persist. which is why i have decided to re-read potter4. it *should* be better.
plus what's it with the MOE woman who's supposed to help out with my relief application teaching form?! typical govt efficieny for you. but this has really got my nerves up. plus how come all those volunteer organisations haven't replied? i mean like one time they were bombarding me and now its total silence on both (or more than that) fronts. shit. i'm rather worried, u know. what with junk mail and me deleting everything...ooh darn.
right shall go exploring potter webbies for a little while and talking to shanyi. bye! current mood: rather light. which is good. 
ooh i lurve these smilies! honestly honestly have to use them all sometime 
there!
Monday,Dec 6 2004, 04:13:54 PMwell! hello again! alot happened today (or...
well! hello again! alot happened today (or yesterday if u choose to be picky) but i have to try to be brief cos i wanna sleep soon and there's always *the risk*
1) went for sph scholarship talk at the swissotel stamford. more about the sph talk and related issue in further posts, but what i wanna say for now is SWISSOTEL. YOUR CHEFS RAWK 
honestly, what a supreme buffet sppreaad...and GOOD too! mmm...gettin hungry just thinking about it. bleah. it even beats some of those chi-chi cocktail corprate events at the esplanade that i've been to. newae, course my "nutrition plan" was shot to hell la..but i tried! i did! and i realy did'nt have much to eat for the rest of the day til i got home. so there. 
2)shoe-shopping @ tiong bahru. ok i guess. bleah. bought a pair of heels which i should'nt have got cos i've already got one and i wanted flats instead. bah. oh and there's more!! how could i have forgotten suddenlie (more on why below) 
but i really can't talk now, it'll take too much outa me. this is already much more longer than i planned it to be. just hope when i do it i wont' have lost any of what i felt. the level and extent and..u geddit. 1/2's been settled, 1/2 hasn't. i'm such a dumb pig and a pathetic loser.
3) movie-marathon cum sleep-over? yeah right. note to myself: REIGN IT IN, GIRL! else...but so it turns out there're only 3 of us. i'm fine, i guess. i *was* sorely disappointed, but then it kinda alleviated? wateva. still...
4)psc scholarship application. oh shoot this is really getting too long. well turns out today was the last day. *how the freaking hell are yr2s supposed to know? u think we go back to school everyday after our 'A's to check? $@*%^!!! why the hell post it in school when all that are there are just janitors and the koi in the pond? *&%^@!!!* i tell u, i just submitted that thing but it was done past midnight so there is a chance it might not make it into the 1st round applications. i shall be frigging upset. but the essay was a diff matter. i know the 1st time i saw it i was like shit. that's it no more psc. but i had to go back and do it for moe and this time aruound, ...interesting. so this is what i've been preparing for. it took alot to write it down, i think i very well may have gotten out of point, but it was heartfelt. and that's it. i did'nt know anyway else to put it down and i hope the folks at psc recognise that.
goodnight, you pple! cya tomorrow (or later today, *again* *smirks*)
Sunday,Dec 5 2004, 03:11:20 PMwell, i'm not in sucha bad mood afterall...i'
well, i'm not in sucha bad mood afterall...i'll redo the original one now then. you see the power of music! let the music heal your soul! nah...that's a horribly cheesy song. just hope i type fast enough to finish it by one, else...
ooh i lurve smileys! they express so much betta. ahahah. hafta find some way to use all that're availble. oh i can't get carried away now! so here goes!
right. the first post since i signed up as a member in april. lo00ser. ahaha. newae, i've got comments on the profile choices thingies. u see, you could only tick the choices, no room for freedom of expression, ya know? and that's not good, oh no not at all. why, even the PAP is letting up! (be politically correct here girl! u wanna be invited to tea! ehrm..k that for l8er)
so here goes: a few sensitive ishs, but pls refer to my 1st post if u need directions:
looking for: release! (i might elaborate on that since i can do private posts here)
dating status: FOREVER single (i'm taking bets! i might elaborate on that too...)
sexual preference: ok. sticky one here. i'm not BI, but then, i'm not like strictly hetero either, ya know? (yadda yadda refer to the above in brackets)
drinking: i get drunk SO damn easily! its quite fun actually.hurhurhur. i'm not an absolute teetotaller since i wish i could drink..i mean, i lurve spore sling! and i'm so waiting for the day when i can go "give me a lychee martini pls" in some posh club
religion: another potential bleurgh. i don't wanna go into all that happened in pri sch (not now...but *the usual!* don't get your hopes up though. this one's too far behind, but if i DO publish an autobio...hah! just wait 
i'll def talk on this one) but i'm kinda free-thinker now, drifting drifting. but i do wanna say i wann work this out myself, thankyew very much. we''ll see where this goes.
there! its not an exact replica, but somewhat along the lines of it. whew. i did it! 3mins to 1am! feeling decidedly better now. wel, i'm off! this is good. lots more to add! coming up...