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No Greater Feeling

Fri, 30 Jan 2009 20:00 EST

No Greater Feeling

There is no greater feeling
than the one he gives to me
the way that he embraces me
it sets my spirit free
i feel I've always held him
so deep within my heart
I know that God had brought us here
and we will never part

There is not greater feeling
than the way he heals my soul
the way his presence catches me
he makes my spirit whole
he heals me in a way that I
never thought before
was possible, and now I fly
and feel my spirit soar

There is no greater feeling
than belonging to this man
and I will never leave him
just please him as I can
he is the first one so sincere
so honest and so genuine
to capture all my being

and I belong to him

There is no greater feeling
than to spend my life with him
to be there always by his side
this is more than just a whim
two soulmates finally meet
together for always
this love is bliss, its beyond sweet
I love him all my days......

There is no greater feeling
that to give him all my heart
Because i know this man is honest
and we will never part
It makes sense of all pain past
and I learn "no regrets" so true
because this love will always last
all roads before led me to you

When He Loved Me

Thu, 11 Sep 2008 18:51 EST

When He Loved Me
A. Maslanka © 2008

When he loved me
my heart beat fast
when he held me
I wanted it to last
when he loved me
I never felt fears
now he left me
I only have tears
When he wanted me
I felt that I belonged
When he deserted me
I felt I had been wronged
when he kissed me
my heart flew fast and free
but when he kicked me
I fell to my knees
when he loved me
I felt I waited for
this someone very special
who made me feel reborn
when he lied to me
my heart was torn too much
so many broken pieces
no one can ever touch
When he loved me
my heart was whole again
When he left me
I lost my greatest friend
When he lost me
he lost his greatest love
he spit the special gift
God sent him from above
When he loved me
I never felt fears
When he left me
it gave me only tears
when he loved me
my heart beat fast
when he held me
I wanted it to last
Now he showed me
He never wanted me
And my only prayer left to God
is to let me to be free
To take me from this life
so I can cease to be.....

when its gone

Fri, 29 Aug 2008 02:03 EST

Some people don't know what they have until it goes away

they take you for granted when they ask you to stay

they don't care for your feelings just use you inside

at least I can say that I really have tried

They play with your feelings and tell you they care

but then when you need them they'll never be there

And when you go to do what is right

they tell you y ou're wrong for starting a fight

Is it better to stay and let them hurt you

use your emotions until you are through?

I think this is not a really good friend

this is the time to give it an end

no one needs someone so false in their life

their selfish actions just cut like a knife

they only think of themself in the end

and then you can see they were never your friend

They try to blame you and tell you you're wrong

but the truth is they know what they lost when its gone.....

Broken pen Broken heart

Wed, 20 Aug 2008 17:27 EST

Broken pen, Broken heart
A. Maslanka © 2008

So deeply broken in so many parts
knowing that I am unseen
that I have no place inside your heart
knowing that I'll never mean
anything special that you would cherish
just a lost shadow inside
just to be something is my great wish
but this pain now I just want to hide
A pen that writes the greatest stories
slowly its ink will fade
and writing and writing what you meant to me
is just a dream that I had made
and now there is no ink inside of this pen
and no more sweet dreams left to write
just a broken will - this deed of men
and only the darkness of night
can hide the lonliness and all the pain
that leaks like the ink from this pen
the betrayal will leave me never the same
just broken and thinking of when
the heart was full as the pen that spoke
writing of such love undenied
but the heart now is empty and broke
like the pen, that day, they both died....

Worthless

Mon, 18 Aug 2008 22:21 EST

Worthless
A. Maslanka © 2008

You live so long in fear
crying hurting hoping
that you will find the one

you live so long with pain
bleeding sighing dying
your heart is finally done

You finally think you find him
laughing trusing loving
that person you adore

You learn in time he's playing
lying using abusing
you cant trust anymore

You give yourself to him
wanting needing giving
you find its just useless

He only wants to use you
teasing laughing lying
and you are just worthless

He never wanted you
you were only dreaming
and you are just worthless

What they do

Mon, 18 Aug 2008 22:16 EST

what they do
A. Maslanka © 2008

so many ugly liars
so many who play games
so many burning fires
so many faceless names
if anyone is honest
if anybody cares
then I would find some respite
my life with one to share
but everyone is cheating
and everybody plays
there is no honest man here
to make right the frays
the only thing they give you
is broken trust and tears
they are like evil vampires
just preying on your fears
they play this game so well now
they find out all your worth
they use you till there's nothing left
and only make you hurt
a vicious circle moving
around and round again
these evil lying creatures
known to us as men.

My Secret

Fri, 15 Aug 2008 14:29 EST

My secret
A. Maslanka © 2008

I have a secret I cant tell
and only my heart knows it so well
it makes me feel as I can fly
it makes me laugh instead of cry
and nobody knows it but me

I have a secret deep inside
the one that makes me smile so wide
I keep it deep inside my heart
and with this secret I can't part
and only I can see

This secret is so dear to me
a precious gift that all envy
it burns away inside my soul
and no one else will ever know
I hold it close inside

I keep this treasure selfishly
in places only i can see
and keep it safe inside my soul
to shout this secret is my goal
but now I let it hide

I am afraid to lose this gift
the one that makes my spirits lift
I guard it fiercely as a lion
tempt it sweetly as a siren
Ill never set it free

This secret keeps my will to live
and makes my heart so full to give
Ill hold it tightly in my arms
and never let it come to harm
and nobody knows it but me

Whose Voice Speaks Now?

Sun, 27 Jul 2008 16:35 EST

Whose Voice Speaks Now?
A. Maslanka © 2008

Whose voice is telling these promises sweet

Such words that make my heart stop to beat

Whose voice is it telling me how much they love

making me think its a gift from above

Whose voice is it telling me such faithful vows

whispering dreams that are straight from my mouth

Whose voice is it promising nothing the same

taking my trust ... and all is in vain

Whose voice is it telling me the same weary lies

bringing the same painful tears to my eyes

Whose voice is it telling they'll always be there

but when I need someone ... they truly don't care

Whose voice is it swearing that they want me near

the same voice that hurts me and makes me to fear

Whose voice was it promising beautiful things

the same voice that whispered while breaking my wings

These voices these promises ... all the same lies

the voice is the same... just different guys

Whose voice is it telling the same words that fell

…all the same lies, Whose voice? I can't tell

All along now I have been alone

no one to care for... no one who knows

Whose voice is it that will stay near for all time?

The only faithful voice in this evil world...is mine

Same Weapons Same Wounds

Sun, 27 Jul 2008 16:25 EST

Same Weapons Same Wounds

Who is to say the blade that's most strong

the cut so soft

the pain so long

Who is to say what cuts most deep

slicing my soul

making me weep

A word is often more sharp than a blade

taking away

the life that you saved

Broken trust that is burning so fast

causing more tears

making it last

What do you do when your hero betrays?

you offered your heart

you were his slave

Someone is pulling the air from my lungs

slowly I die

my requiem sung

I loved you - I love you- even past death

but still as you "why?"

with my very last breath

You wounded me deeper than any before

you've broken my spirit

please, "Delah", no more.

for one that knows... that always knows

Fri, 13 Jun 2008 02:32 EST

Drowning in pools
filled with my tears
Drowing in wasted hope
lost all these years
Drowing in wishes
vanished in smoke
Drowning in oxygen
waiting to choke
Drowing in fantasy
sweet thoughts divine
Drowing in mystery
who will be mine
Drowing in darkness
hoping to stay
Drowining in silence
nothing to say
Drowning in misery
Drowning in lust
Drowining in anger
for lost broken trust
Drowning and Drowning
what can I do
but that hand that pulled me out
belonged to you.

For my favorite monster

Ouch

Tue, 20 May 2008 13:13 EST

Ouch
just... ouch. Always "ouch"
Always tears
Always sad
Always me.....

Maybe just born to be abused. Maybe just born to hurt
Maybe Im just born under a sad star. meant to cry
wishing for more.. just hoping maybe one night
I will close my eyes
the last tear falls
and these eyes never see again
never open
never cry
just.......... sleep.........

My Small Dream

Tue, 13 May 2008 03:00 EST

I wake up in the morning
and look up to the sky
I smile because I love you
and know that you are mine
I feel the breeze caress my face
and smile inside my heart
I know that these are your whispers
and we will never part
I love the very thought of you
I love all that you are
you are my sun my moon my day
my night and every star
I know that I am safe with you
I never feel so sure
I never have before a love
that was so sweet and pure
you are the song inside my soul
you are the smile I bring
you are the air inside my lungs
you make my heart to sing
I love you so with all I am
Ayoub I'll never stop
and go on every day of life
until my body drops
and even after I will love
space and time will cease
you are the blood inside my veins
you are my hope and peace
you make me sure that love exists
You teach me how to trust
you give me every hope and dream
my sorrows turn to dust
I love you always I love you true
I love beyond my means
I love you for the man you are
and all these little things :)

Unease

Tue, 13 May 2008 02:48 EST

kicking punching
screaming crying
gasping pleading
bleeding dying
scratch at the dirt
sand in my mouth
crying and clawing
north and south
east and west
and up and down
wanting to suffocate
waiting to drown
inconsolate silence
my eyes start to bleed
im only carrion
for vultures to feed
my blood like stones
falling from clay
white is black
and night is day
hope is loss
and life is death
it hurts to live
and draw my breath
wanting and waiting
watching to hear
hoping and praying
wanting you near
what do i live for
what do I see
why do I dream about
ceasing to be

why

Sun, 11 May 2008 03:23 EST

WHY

why do people hurt me
why do people lie
why do i go on living
why do i even try
when will all the sadness end
when will darkness leave
when will i learn not to wear
my heart upon my sleeve
why do i care so much
when no one cares for me
why do I wake up every day
when i don't want to be
where did my smile run to
when was it that it left
when did I start to dream about
a sweet and silent death
why does god allow this
a kind heart to be hurt
why do people make me feel
much lower than the dirt
Why god wants me suffering
its an angels job to do
anything that she is told
so she can protect you
why are men always so false
why do they like to play
what do I live for in all this
and why is it i pray
when will i to smile again
trying not to cry
why are men such evil liars
why why why why why

Cry

Tue, 29 Apr 2008 09:35 EST

Cry
cry outloud
cry to the heavens
to a high fluffy bouncing cloud
cry
cry to bridge the pain
cry to grant solace
to your throbbing brain
cry for insignifacnce
cry for great loss
cry and keep crying
emotions are tosed
cry!
cry for the distance
cry!
cry for the pain
cry
cry in twisted rage
cry with flying fists
tear your hair and cry
just cry
and scream and wail
and cry
cry for the time lost
cry for the great cost
cry as the ship, tossed
drowns in the tears you cry....
goodbye.