Journals
Friday,Aug 29 2008, 07:03:02 AMwhen its gone
Some people don't know what they have until it goes away
they take you for granted when they ask you to stay
they don't care for your feelings just use you inside
at least I can say that I really have tried
They play with your feelings and tell you they care
but then when you need them they'll never be there
And when you go to do what is right
they tell you y ou're wrong for starting a fight
Is it better to stay and let them hurt you
use your emotions until you are through?
I think this is not a really good friend
this is the time to give it an end
no one needs someone so false in their life
their selfish actions just cut like a knife
they only think of themself in the end
and then you can see they were never your friend
They try to blame you and tell you you're wrong
but the truth is they know what they lost when its gone.....
Wednesday,Aug 20 2008, 10:27:17 PMBroken pen Broken heart
Broken pen, Broken heart
A. Maslanka © 2008
So deeply broken in so many parts
knowing that I am unseen
that I have no place inside your heart
knowing that I'll never mean
anything special that you would cherish
just a lost shadow inside
just to be something is my great wish
but this pain now I just want to hide
A pen that writes the greatest stories
slowly its ink will fade
and writing and writing what you meant to me
is just a dream that I had made
and now there is no ink inside of this pen
and no more sweet dreams left to write
just a broken will - this deed of men
and only the darkness of night
can hide the lonliness and all the pain
that leaks like the ink from this pen
the betrayal will leave me never the same
just broken and thinking of when
the heart was full as the pen that spoke
writing of such love undenied
but the heart now is empty and broke
like the pen, that day, they both died....
Tuesday,Aug 19 2008, 03:21:57 AMWorthless
Worthless
A. Maslanka © 2008
You live so long in fear
crying hurting hoping
that you will find the one
you live so long with pain
bleeding sighing dying
your heart is finally done
You finally think you find him
laughing trusing loving
that person you adore
You learn in time he's playing
lying using abusing
you cant trust anymore
You give yourself to him
wanting needing giving
you find its just useless
He only wants to use you
teasing laughing lying
and you are just worthless
He never wanted you
you were only dreaming
and you are just worthless
Tuesday,Aug 19 2008, 03:16:13 AMWhat they do
what they do
A. Maslanka © 2008
so many ugly liars
so many who play games
so many burning fires
so many faceless names
if anyone is honest
if anybody cares
then I would find some respite
my life with one to share
but everyone is cheating
and everybody plays
there is no honest man here
to make right the frays
the only thing they give you
is broken trust and tears
they are like evil vampires
just preying on your fears
they play this game so well now
they find out all your worth
they use you till there's nothing left
and only make you hurt
a vicious circle moving
around and round again
these evil lying creatures
known to us as men.
Friday,Aug 15 2008, 07:29:17 PMMy Secret
My secret
A. Maslanka © 2008
I have a secret I cant tell
and only my heart knows it so well
it makes me feel as I can fly
it makes me laugh instead of cry
and nobody knows it but me
I have a secret deep inside
the one that makes me smile so wide
I keep it deep inside my heart
and with this secret I can't part
and only I can see
This secret is so dear to me
a precious gift that all envy
it burns away inside my soul
and no one else will ever know
I hold it close inside
I keep this treasure selfishly
in places only i can see
and keep it safe inside my soul
to shout this secret is my goal
but now I let it hide
I am afraid to lose this gift
the one that makes my spirits lift
I guard it fiercely as a lion
tempt it sweetly as a siren
Ill never set it free
This secret keeps my will to live
and makes my heart so full to give
Ill hold it tightly in my arms
and never let it come to harm
and nobody knows it but me
