Is this my life? Feeling blue and upset...

     Last week when I went back to my house, I had the felt that regret, I rather that I didn't went back last week. My daddy and mummy quarrel in front of me when I reached home. I wasn't know that they were quarrel for almost one week already. I was thinking to had a nice sweet time with my family for my weekend. But... I rather I didn't go back.

    They quarrel with a lot of problems, the main problem is, their personality are not same. They had their argue since I was a kid until I grow up, still the same thing. But this two years, their argue become much more worst until they talk about to divorce.

    I am sad to know that, because both of them I also love. My daddy asked my mummy shift back to Muar, but my mummy disagreed. Well, I don't have any comment about shifted or not, coz since I was young, I had already shifted to here and there about 3 or 4 times. That means I had already used to it. But I know why my mummy don't want to shifted back to my hometown and I understand why my daddy wanted to shift back.

     My daddy and mummy kept on talking each others bad things to me, but what I can do is only listened to what they say and kept quite. What to do?

     Sometimes I feel that my life has no meaning at all, coz I'm always the one who stand in the middle and listen to what they quarrel and trying to stop their quarrel, but at last, I will become the victim, coz they will blame me this and that. I really don't know what to do... My pet brother kept on asked me why I'm always look unhappy and why my life kept on have this kind of unhappy things happen? I don't know how to answer him, I just can say that, "This is my life, I had born to be in this kind of situation for 21 years, and I had used to it.". I'm trying to be happy like what other girls have, but, my life keep on makes me live in a unhappy life. Anyway, I never blame my parents before, at least they still love me.

    I hope that this time, they won't be divorce, and I do hope that they don't argue anymore, coz I'm really tired with this kind of situation. But if they really want to divorce, I won't blame them, and I won't disagreed. I grow up already, and I know what is the meaning of "set someone free from their life", I know that forcing to be together won't bring happiness, that's why, if they really want to divorce, I will set them free from their unhappy arguement and life... But, I still will sad. Anyway, I know it's time for me to be more mature. I still love you daddy and mummy... Always and forever.