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Friday,Aug 24 2007, 01:39:44 PMits kinda long but its a hard lessoni learned
there is no diffrence between me and the one addicted to drugs
Sometimes when there is something too painful or frustrating, we tend to hide; the meaning of hiding isn’t just by staying alone in your room in the dim light or ignoring the fact that hurts you! The fact is hiding has many other meanings. I know you still don’t get how is what I am saying related to the topic .hang on, just let me define for you one of the most important reasons for getting addicted to drugs, that is hiding away from a certain pain that you are scared to face as you know that it’ll tear you into pieces, that it’ll cause a wound that wont ever disappear or heal.
So, normally the person starts to search for something to distract his brain from realizing this certain fact! That’s by drugs or any other mean! People get addicted to different stuff say computers, play station, chatting or even reading comics! I guess you get what is the topic about. You know! Some people get addicted to a certain relationship because of pain or let’s say fear of pain.
Let me tell you how, some people starts relationships in the middle of a really painful situation. And they soak themselves into this relationship and concern themselves with every single silly detail in it; telling themselves that this is more important than the pain they are feeling inside and end up either hurting themselves or someone. By not noticing the need of space of your partner or by not noticing that if you don’t share your sorrow with your partner, it makes your relation fake, useless and selfish.
But wait a second actually we don’t get addicted to the relationship itself ,we get addicted to the feeling it gives us but eventually you’ll find out that your feelings are weird –you know-out of place. Sometimes sad for no reason and some other too sensitive about silly little stuff, but by time you’ll notice that what you feel is not what you think it is! But actually it’s the reflection of your pain; it’s the echo of your wound. Anyway, that’s all before you crack down into tears for no – known for others- reason, just right after you realize that you succeeded in fooling everyone by your little play of feeling no pain and you realize that they cant feel you or understand you . But sometimes when you lose the reason by forgetting it or ignoring it, till it makes no sense anymore to be sad about it, you find your addiction unstoppable. As if it took the place of the experience as experiences live in us, like its part of you, part of who you are. So eventually when you hide, the addiction takes its place, and it becomes part of who you are!
But the question is how do you start to realize that you are addicted to a certain thing?! Search for the things that you find yourself doing even though you know is wrong, you still do it rapidly and can’t control yourself without, find the things that you can’t imagine to live without. By the way I am talking about both actions and people, when you know somebody is bad but still don’t cautiously deal with them, then you got to know that there is something wrong.
I never said it’s going to be easy! If you are not ready to face your pain and you can’t trust people to help you through if you can’t fight this cancer that is going to take over your life then it’s no use. You have to stop whatever that’s controlling your life, wasting it and making you and your existence totally useless. And bare in mind that you might think its better to hide or ignore your own fears and sorrows for the sake of others, but if you destroy yourself inside out, what good will you do for anybody? Addiction comes in many faces and for many more reasons. So, don’t let a disease that only you can cure, kills your passion for life. You got to feel the control and have confidence in your own abilities. Believe me I’ve been there and did that. when you are sad cry , when you are mad find away or a thing to let it out on, when you hate forgive, and when you love find away to show it. God gifted us with feelings cause we are special don’t underestimate them or ignore them. Deal with me instead! Feelings are god’s gift for the world and each and every one of us!
Sunday,Jul 15 2007, 11:01:15 AMMY Thumbing Heart
Every time I touch a paper I just want to draw, I want to love, my words are messy, my heart is thumbing don’t know why! It’s waiting for something … but when I look at the reality I just know that it’s impossible, my heart is wishing and seeking what is true and pure… and all what I see out of the window is just a bunch of lies people kidding themselves… saying they are in love… people cuddling and kissing thinking it’s out of love… while, love is caring and protecting, love is having the desire to spend the rest of your long life ...
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Wednesday,Jul 11 2007, 03:46:30 AMmake us of few mins and read this
السلام عليكم ورد في الأثر عن الإمام محمد بن واسع انه كان يدعوا الله كل يوم بدعاء خاص --فجاءه شيطان وقال له يا إمام أعاهدك أنى لن أوسوس لك أبدا ولم آتيك ولن أمرك بمعصية ولكن بشرط أن لا تدعوا الله بهذا الدعاء ولا تعلمه لأحد فقال له الإمام كلا -- سأعلمه لكل من قابلت وافعل ما شئت هل تريد معرفه هذا الدعاء ؟؟؟؟ كان ...
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2/23/2008 11:17 PMHii
i want to talk witz you if you dont mind my msn loveandlive4@hotmail.com add me if you wanna talk with me too .. !
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2/20/2008 3:49 PMhi
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2/14/2008 9:59 AMكاتبه مصريه تتطاول على رسول الله
بسم الله والحمد لله والصلاة والسلام على رسول الله صلى الله عليه وسلم
الإخوة الأفاضل والأخوات الفضليات
من هنا بإذن الله تنطلق حملتنا للدفاع عن أشرف الخلق صلى الله عليه وسلم
امس الموافق 13/2/2008 ظهر فى قناه الحكمه برنامج منتدى الحكمه بعنوان الن كفيناك شر المستهزئين
الذى يتحدث عن قضيه كتاب (الحب والجنس فى حياة الرسول صلى الله عليه وسلم ) الذى قامت بنشره الكافره بسنت رشاد منت اسكندريه متزوجه فى دار الحوار او حواء للنشر والتوزيع فى امبابه 79 شارع ابو ريه للنشر التوزيع وهذا الكتاب يهين حياه الرسول الكريم خير خلق الله ..والكتاب يحتوى على العديد من الفصول الذى تبين كيفية الجماع وايضايحتوى على امو راباحيه فوق الوصف لا اعلم ما اقول ولكنى اقسم بالله العزيز الجبار ان جسدى يرتعد من هذا القول والطمه الكبرى ان هذا الكتاب اخذ تصريحات ورقم ايداع مصرى ودولي فى دار النشر المصريه ورقم هذا الايداع
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انشرها وحط اسمك مع اسمى عشان الدنيا كها تعرف ا ان احننا مسلمين
1/14/2008 7:32 AMhiiiiiiiiiiiii
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هاى لو ممكن نتعرف ياريت تضيفى ايميلى
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انا بستغرب عليه من اول ثانيه شافنى بعنيه الاتنين خطفنى
اول حب يصادفنى معرفش حصله ايه
انا بستغرب عليه ليكون فى حد قاله او شوقى يكون واصله
لو فاتنى العمر كله يرجع حبى يلاقيه
لواحدى طب وماله خلاص مش محتجاله
كل العالم بحاله ولا يغنى عن سؤاله
بقى بالنسبالى ايه حب العالم بحاله فوق كل اللى فى خياله
ولا عمر هنسهاله قلبى اللى مشغول عليه
بقى بالنسبالى ايه دا حبيبى وكل حاجه دا مسبش فى قلبى حاجه
مش لاقيه انا اى حاجه توصف احساسى بيه
أميرة على عرش الإحساس
إليسا
1/14/2008 7:30 AMصباح الرقة
أتمنى تزورى صفحتى و تقوليلى رأيك فيها
أنا أدم من القاهرة-المعادى
مهندس كمبيوتر
ممكن نكون أصدقاء؟
ممكن تضيفينى عندك؟
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شكرا على زوقك
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