Journals
Friday,May 19 2006, 02:55:00 PMDate: 19/5/2006 Time: 2144
Dear Journal,
It really has been a very very long time since i write in you. I really apolagize because maybe this year i am really a little busy. Busy with examination, busy with school band. No choice, but really have to work hard because this will be my last year in secondary school.
Dear Journal.
There has been ups and downs since the last time i write to you. I have been quite depress when something really bad happens. Sad cases has been happening. Let me tell you journal, i have been quarreling with samuel, 1 of m8 years friend and thei is the first year we quarrel. I don't know why and i just can't find the reason for what has happened. I have been quarreling with him for no reasons. Just cna't help it. Maybe it is human's nature. But, i feel really bad when i do so. I did apologize to him. But, what he did was blaming himself only. What i wanna say here is that i feel very bad for everything. Just wanna say sorry Sam. Really hope the days that are coming, these kinda things won't happen again. I really hope so.
Dear Journal,
Not only samuel is the 1 who i quarrel with. I just don't know what has really happened to me. O even quarrel with jia yi. I just don't know what has just happened between both of us. Just like today. Is just look at me with those very weird looks. It just seems like she hated me so much. I just don't know what is the reason and why did she do that. Journal, can you just teach me what to do. I am out of ideas. By the way, this is nmot the 1st time she did this to me. Sometimes, i am very curious. What is she thinking about.
Journal,
I just don't know if i have already find the right world for me. Maybe this is not the right world for me. It doesn't just seems that i have problem with jia yi and samuel only . Even those sakai group are ignoring me right now. It seems like i am really at the wrong place. Wrong place at the wrong time. Haiz. I just don't know. Last time, i remember, whenever they have anything going on, we will always be together. But, it seems that I am the 1 that is being left at the back these days. I have been feeling like that for months. Because of this, i am really really sad about that. Because, they are my best friends, but it seems like i have just been ignored by them . It seems like i have done something really wrong, but it just seems that i do not know. I tried so hard to make everything back to normal. But, nothing really works. dear journal, teach me what to do now.
Dear Journal,
It seems like i have alot of problems. But you are the only 1 that i can express to. other than that, i just don't miss band so much. It has been so long since i see my beloved tuba. It seems like i have fall in love with my tuba. Hehe. Maybe it is that i am afraid of the damage in my tuba cause iit has been used by leslie. Not just that, maybe i am care about the cleanliness of my tuba because i have just polished it . Just scared that it will get dirty. haha.
Dear Journal,
Maybe it is time for me to tell you something happy, nmo tthe sad part of my story. The happiest part is that i have been chosen to join the Taylor's CLIOD program. But i have to attend band practice on the same day. It is just so unfair. Everytime they do this to me. I just cannot decide which 1 to go. haiz. haha .
By the way, today's exam was killing. But, after my add maths paper, i feel so tired. Maybe because it has been a long time since i sleep. haha. Finally the weight has been put down from my shoulder. Haha. I think that is all i am going to say to you. I will see you next time , my dear journal,telling you more about my stories, sharing my feelings with you. Good night my dear journal.
