Journals
Sunday,Nov 12 2006, 02:30:20 PMi feel good
Once again, God has touched me. Its when u get this feeling of empowerment and understanding and realisations of the people around u, the way the world works, and a million thoughts run through ur mind that u get so stressed yet happy.....until my insomia condition becomes so bad i take 2 hrs to fall asleep every night.
its great to be able to say out whatever u think n feel at times, so i finally understand the relation between "honesty is the best policy" and "the truth sets u free". :)
i can only think of the good and positive things in life and my brain filters all negative thoughts...it is so good to feel loved and we may want to remain in this position of comfort our entire lives. its hard to take a step out of this comfort zone but we know we just gotta do it when u feel God calling u.
God is really mighty and wonderful in his ways, he is just there when he needs u, never failing to disappoint or and u never know what to expect next.
It feels so special to know that he has a plan n purpose for u in ur life and no matter what happens u feel assured n calm when u know u're following his way.
i am now proud to say that my spiritual maturity has increased and i hope i will bear a better testimony in Christ Jesus our Lord a and Saviour! :D
Sunday,Oct 22 2006, 01:20:48 PMvacation 2006
haiz school finally starting tml n i'm having the post holiday syndrome! which is feeling lazy to move abt n get back to study life...been doing so much other stuff that school seems like a faraway planet already...haha. i think its becuz my sch has de longest holiday among all de polys. has both pros n cons i guess... so wat have i been up to this hols?
1) take driving theory-thank God i passed exactly at that mark. hehe.
2) work as server aka kitchen helper aka cashier at The Pizza Place. tiring but learn alot n got to meet some great ppl...
3) watched Full House korean drama-enjoyed it cuz many gd looking actors,actresses in it. :)
4) went k box twice-start to enjoy singing duets!
5) went thru exams with my students n sister. results are out now.
6) mourned over my last sem results, heart shattering experience which was not made any better by my nagging dad. haiz.
7) became an "Auntie" to 2 newborn babies-Cadence n Hannah, my cousins' baby girls!
8) organized de games for de Childrens' Gathering during mid autumn festival-not very successful but enjoyed it nevertheless...i love kids! :D
Sunday,Oct 22 2006, 01:01:17 PMnice poem
Our lives are the brush, His blood -- the paint, this world -- the canvas, our ministry -- His masterpiece.
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The work is in progress, He's not in a rush.
Each stroke has a purpose, nothing's by chance.
To see all His wisdom takes more than a glance.
Even the clouds can't keep them from view.
Look at the pathway that turns at the hill --
Its course will reveal what's next in His will.
Is bringing down blessings meant just for you.
The trees that are planted close to the stream
Will bring forth more fruit than you've ever seen.
Is just a reminder that God will provide.
Now look at the sheep in the meadow that's near
And notice the Shepherd that keeps them from fear.
That cool and refresh, and keep them in rest.
The eagle above, that soars o'er the gale
Is God's way of saying, "My strength will not fail."
Will take on new meaning with each passing year.
So trust God to work in His own perfect way
And rejoice in the beauty He's painting today.
Thursday,Sep 14 2006, 04:12:38 AM3 in 1 (13 Sept 06)
I have so much to talk about today I shall divide them into 3 entries instead. =)
Movie: Forbidden Siren
Roushen had 5 free movie tickets so we went to Lido for de morning movie. but we were late (I think my fault?) so we ended up choosing de 12.10 one instead. Rou’s magazine shop was a nice little corner tucked at level 4 of wisma atria juz beside food republic. fun to work at cuz can read all de mags u want, but temptation of the delicious aromatic food all around may be too great to bear! He treated us kaya toast - a thick blob of sweet butter n kaya in between 2 thick pieces of toasted white bread. Guilty but yummy! Hehe. Went sakae at 11.30 cuz dats de earliest they open. Had only half an hour to order n gobble down all de sushi n noodles n meat n raw seafood n ginger n green tea. Rou treated us again using his $20 voucher but he didn’t like de food…haha. Couldn’t stop him from smoking after dat, though we tried hard to confiscate his cigarettes. After going toilet n marveling at all de cakes n brownies at de wheelock place cafes, we realized we were late n rushed all de way back to Lido like mad dogs. Somehow we are forever running late for the movies we always watch together…haha…
So now to de main point, de movie wasn’t really good la. Eh, though de 2 girls “screamed” a few times n Rou was crouching way into his seat at de end. De movie is abt this girl who went to an island with her father n younger brother to live. They r told that whenever they hear de siren, located at de top of de hill, they should stay at home n not go out. De girl later finds out dat there’s a legend n some history abt a war which killed most of de inhabitants n de ppl she now sees everywhere on de island r actually de “living dead”. Her father soon becomes one of them n she tries to protect her younger brother from everyone by locking themselves in de house whenever de siren rings. Once, she heard a man told her to switch off/destroy de siren to prevent de “living dead” from killing them. When de dead ppl were chasing after them one night, she climbed de tall tower to destroy de siren at de top. When she broke de siren but still could not get rid of de sound, she eventually jumped to her death as a guy was trying to grab her….but wait! De movie den revealed dat she didn’t die n was in hospital where de doctor began describing her condition, being mentally unsound. In actual fact, only she n her father had moved to de island n her bro had died previously so her father wanted her to forget abt her grief. So all de while she had been imagining abt her brother being with her n de “living dead” etc….. grrrr……..irritating rite?
Hmm I know I was very very talkative n noisy during de whole show cuz I wanted to convince de girls dat it wasn’t that scary n I had lots of predictions n explanations abt de movie mah… gd thing there wasn’t many ppl at de cinema. Only de few back rows were occupied, but I was surprised they didnt hurl vulgarities at me for being so inconsiderate. hehe. On de other hand, maybe they were glad dat there was someone to calm their nerves while watching those “arh so freaking scary!” scenes? Hehehe.
I remind myself of my cousin LipJin who enjoys watching horror movies with his frens to watch them being frightened, instead of watching de screen. But I’m not dat evil la. Really. Someone pls invite me to watch horror again la.
Results
To disrupt our movie experience, de sms we’ve been waiting for this entire holiday was sent to all of us all of a sudden. First Lingna got it, den me, who didn’t dare to open it at first. Haiz, its juz purely depressing. My grades r dropping lower n lower every semester n I’ve tried harder n harder already. Lcom, de irritating subject dat sapped all our mental energy throughout de semester n this was wat they gave us. CrimPro, spent 3 ENTIRE days going thru every single chapt of it from break till dawn…but maybe its cuz of proj which I didn’t really do well, n i think criminal subjects r juz not my cup of tea. Contract, put in least effort, but to Gomez, every grade of A B or C is good to her, so forget it man. Now I cant make up for my Glbct grade le. *Sobs*
Hope he won’t be too disppointed. Haiz. GRRRR. ARGHHHH. HOW HOW HOW? History is like repeating itself. Sometimes I feel I’m just not good enough. So sad. But not sad enough to cry, not angry enough to eat a whole tub of ice cream….shall juz tell myself at least I’ve tried my best n there’s still next semester to catch up. God still loves me n I still have de whole month of holiday ahead of me b4 sch reopens!
Sentosa
The “Malaysian youths have free entry” deal is not fake after all. Showed my passport n got myself a free admission ticket plus 4D magix ticket altogether worth $19! Yippee! De 4D show was abt some pirates thing n got a few cool effects like popping an insect right in front of ur face, brushing n smacking ur legs n spraying water in ur face. wat I think can be improved was de seat jerking movements n our role as audience, where our seats would jerk de same way at every hit n falling on de ground, which became quite predictable after a while. I rmb de first time I watched a show sth like dat was in US Universal Studios Theme Park, where they showed “Honey I Shrunk de Kids”. It was really cool n fun…De theatre was much bigger n de showtime longer….Sentosa’s claim to be de largest in SEA. (duh! I mean which other SEAn country can afford to haf such expensive technology? comparing political, financial, persuasive power.) Anyway if u’ve never tried these shows b4 n ur rich enough, its fun to go experience it lor.
also had a go at de luge n skytram ride...quite fun but not cheap. $8. met some Tp students at de counter. as i was taking de bus around sentosa, thought of one day hiking around de entire island, hehe... who wanna join me? maybe only my sis ba...haha...
Saw many foreigners/tourists today….wonder if they’re from de IMF group. Haha…so shuang la…go business trip with ur company n de other country treats u like King.
Monday,Sep 11 2006, 04:41:33 PMhappiness
Its not hard to be happy everyday after all! :)
10 Rules For A Happy Day
1. TODAY I WILL NOT STRIKE BACK:
If someone is rude, if someone is impatient, if someone is unkind... I will not respond in a like manner.
2. TODAY I WILL ASK GOD TO BLESS MY "ENEMY":
If I come across someone who treats me harshly or unfairly, I will quietly ask GOD to bless that individual. I understand the "enemy" could be a family member, neighbor, co-worker or stranger.
3. TODAY I WILL BE CAREFUL ABOUT WHAT I SAY:
I will carefully choose and guard my words being certain that I do not spread gossip.
4. TODAY I WILL GO THE EXTRA MILE:
I will find ways to help share the burden of another person.
5. TODAY I WILL FORGIVE:
I will forgive any hurts or injuries that come my way.
6. TODAY I WILL DO SOMETHING NICE FOR SOMEONE, BUT I WILL NOT DO IT SECRETLY:
I will reach out anonymously and bless the life of another.
7. TODAY I WILL TREAT OTHERS THE WAY I WISH TO BE TREATED:
I will practice the golden rule - "Do unto others as I would have them do unto me" - with everyone I encounter.
8. TODAY I WILL RAISE THE SPIRITS OF SOMEONE WHO IS DISCOURAGED:
My smile, my words, my expression of support, can make the difference to someone who is wrestling with life.
9. TODAY I WILL NURTURE MY BODY:
I will eat less; I will eat only healthy foods. I will thank GOD for my body.
10. TODAY I WILL GROW SPIRITUALLY:
I will spend a little more time in prayer today: I will begin reading something spiritual or inspirational today; I will find a quiet place (at some point during this day) and listen to GOD's voice!!!