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crazdbarbie's Homepage http://www.zorpia.com/crazdbarbie Thu, 26 Nov 2009 06:06 EST Thu, 26 Nov 2009 06:06 EST Zorpia.com Strengths and Weakness http://www.zorpia.com/crazdbarbie/journal/1877016                                              <img hspace="0" height="228" border="0" align="bottom" width="208" vspace="0" src="http://i234.photobucket.com/albums/ee10/crazdbarbie/wassup.gif" /> I am a very understanding soul,I am not confused nor do i have fuzzy thinking , not to muddy my mind. But I do expect things unforeseen ..I love having new conversations beginning a new each and every time.Working out my non-committal behavior or any other confusion, trying to lift the barriers and give way to progress. Having  a stable plan for my life,and also being able to expect intrusions of all sorts, Some invited and others not.I love to start new projects that may have been on hold,some I actually finish!~ Anticipating The gates being lifted,encouraging me to charge forward.To a fresh venture,creative project,or relationship.Cosmically speaking, there's nothing stopping me! cautious not to overreact to anything letting things develop at a sensible pace! I am empowerd by my strengths and my weaknesses. Personal http://www.zorpia.com/crazdbarbie/journal/1877016 Sun, 01 Feb 2009 09:43 EST Friends http://www.zorpia.com/crazdbarbie/journal/1864884 No reason to believe we aren't all friends here. The reality is apparent to us all,an no need to be a fraud. When they move in from the left,to be blind sided for sure. humans can work like Wolves in coordination. Having layer upon layer of feelings being sensitive,makes us all alert to the possibilities of the most shocking things in life. What it all boils down too is that we are more alike than not. This is scary indeed an but no to be feared. The first time is always hard but if you can come face to face with you fears. You might find that there is no reason to not expect a miracle. Life can be incredible at times.Just how incredible depends on the individual. Scars are beneath the surface,not having anything against the depth of feelings, not to diminished them. Carve out your own trail in life.Leaning from you mistakes,an untamed brutality,as well as humanity. Life is brilliant. Personal http://www.zorpia.com/crazdbarbie/journal/1864884 Wed, 17 Dec 2008 07:28 EST Ur Awesome http://www.zorpia.com/crazdbarbie/journal/1863121 Ur Awesome. I know you feel that you cant see. I know you feel a dream. In your dreams a nudge a flight of fancy. Resting with those thoughts you know that may have happened before. Indeed you know that is true and I begging for more. Anticipating in fantasy feeling real just the same. There alone together u are great and very real Ur Awesome Personal http://www.zorpia.com/crazdbarbie/journal/1863121 Thu, 11 Dec 2008 10:14 EST Life http://www.zorpia.com/crazdbarbie/journal/1847539  <img vspace="0" hspace="0" border="0" align="bottom" src="http://i234.photobucket.com/albums/ee10/crazdbarbie/Personal%20Photos/Barbara-1.gif" />  AHA Life is that the category.Just when I think I have it all figured outJust when I think that is all behind me nowJust when I think I wont ever rememberbut long to forget I always wondered whats it all about.Being the only one left to figure it out,and it becomes a  nothingness.slating to write it all down but in code, in secrecy, Forever changing but remaining the same.How does it happen,when will it stop. Only to burst with excitement ,being shot down like a balloon,not like a bird in flight.If allowed and could work, it would fly over the moon,looking for the light.Only to find thats directly related to the Sun Sunshine....always and forever until the end of time.What a concept.<img width="299" vspace="0" hspace="0" height="192" border="0" align="bottom" src="http://i234.photobucket.com/albums/ee10/crazdbarbie/autumnrain.gif" /> Personal http://www.zorpia.com/crazdbarbie/journal/1847539 Tue, 21 Oct 2008 08:11 EST Eternity http://www.zorpia.com/crazdbarbie/journal/1844959 Distortion If sorrow were my only venture,and sorrow will be my only friend,sorrow is neither passive nor aggressive it is sadness and devastation,and humility,if our worlds collide and they have,no sense shall be made of the causes and concerns,and the mis appropriate items can be appropriated to fit the shape and size of the misinformation misleading all that concerns you,.. all that is about you,all that determine the hate and the rage and the emptiness that follows,all the way through........Eternity,not as we see it,as we smell eternity,as we love,as we live,the silence grows........never reaching the highest high but accepting the lowest low,and absorbing the lowest low it guides me,it consumes me,somehow,never reaching the sky,....owing it to myself.......the pain the devastation the fighting that goes on in my mind,in my body,in my Soul,devastation beyond the control,beyond mortal man,I can not climb mountains,I can not swim the Ocean,I can not live,I can die,many deaths,many times,come and tell the soldiers its alright,the Battle Zone,the strength God gives us to again suffer just enough to smell the death,remembering the words,Thou shall not kill,........Never reaching the sky.........Piloting the death March........always afraid.....can u hear me?I can not hear myself,I ........dont even hear myself...........I can even ......One.........and One and One and One and one equals one...one...to die and rot back to dust blowing in the wind.........Logic and distortion..Ill be dead.......Remember.....Barbara Personal http://www.zorpia.com/crazdbarbie/journal/1844959 Mon, 13 Oct 2008 07:45 EST As the World Turns http://www.zorpia.com/crazdbarbie/journal/1818272 <img vspace="0" hspace="0" border="0" align="bottom" src="http://i234.photobucket.com/albums/ee10/crazdbarbie/Newer%20greetings/earth4seethrough.gif" /> Personal http://www.zorpia.com/crazdbarbie/journal/1818272 Sat, 05 Jul 2008 09:08 EST I feared http://www.zorpia.com/crazdbarbie/journal/1772190   I Feared UNTIL I feared being alone Until I learned to like Myself I feared failure Until I realized that I only Fail when I don't try I feared success Until I realized that I had to try in order to be happy with myself   I feared people's opinions Until I learned that people would have opinions about me anyway I feared rejection Until I learned to have faith in myself I feared pain Until I learned that it's necessary for growth   I feared the truth Until I saw the ugliness in lies I feared life Until I experienced its beauty . I feared death Until I realized that it's not an end, but a beginning. I feared my destiny , Until I realized that I had the power to change my life. I feared hate Until I saw that it was nothing more than ignorance . I feared love Until it touched my heart, making the darkness fade into endless sunny days.   I feared ridicule Until I learned how to laugh at myself. I feared growing old Until I realized that I gained wisdom every day. I feared the future Until I realized that Life just kept getting better. I feared the past Until I realized that It could no longer hurt me I feared the dark Until I  saw the beauty of the starlight I feared the light Until I learned that the Truth would give me Strength I feared change Until I saw that even the most beautiful butterfly had to undergo a Metamorphosis before it could fly News & Sports http://www.zorpia.com/crazdbarbie/journal/1772190 Wed, 06 Feb 2008 21:09 EST