Friday,Oct 8 2004, 07:13:00 AMA long... lost friend.... � [IMAGE] 2 days...

A long... lost friend....

2 days ago, i played and explore around with Friendster, and saw this secondary school mate's profile. So i naturally explored her pictures, and in it... a girl that i've loved for 7 years, is in one of those pics....

Memories of her suddenly flashed across my mind. I suddenly... felt so emotional... I couldnt find her for so long... but now can only see her picture there...
I lost trace of her... since she graduated from secondary school, as i'm going to sec 5. Only heard that she went to polytechnic but don't know which. Her friend once made a bet with my friend and commented that, if i'm able to make her my girlfriend, She would give my friend the whole stack of sweets she is holding, and it really hurt my confidence... does my confidence really worth that bar of sweets? It really hurt my already low morale and my feelings.

Then when i finally made it to Ngee Ann polytechnic after i retook my O-level, life was like so different for me, everyday is like so fun, and no worries at all... it almost made me forgot about my yearning to see her. Then... until one day... my friend called me by handphone, then asked me to skip my lectures to come down to the library immediately. He didnt state much, but said that i'll not regret doing so.

As a result, i rushed to the school library at that instant. When i reached there, my friend told me to turn around... There i saw a very familiar face, a face that i've not seen for a very long time, a face that always flashed across my mind every night every since it left.

A sense of sour & mixed feelings came through me... i don't know what i should do... i just can't think at that instant... my mind is totally blocked... as i just keep looking at her. She was there doing her final project i guess, with her group mates... she seems happy and all that.
But i guess she doesnt recognize me at all, as my looks have kinda changed. I just sat there.. secretly peeping at her.... when she is not looking. Until she left.. Sigh.. I just couldn't do it... guess its just me ba..

Anyways, after exam, for that semester, i guessed she graduated. But i didn't think much then. Until now, when i once again saw her pictures... but this time through Friendster, do i have this feeling of.... regrets....

Regrets for having not have the guts to even walk up to her... to want to know her, seeing her mixing around with those bad companies in secondary school, smoking and all that, made me really angry, and at the same time it felt really painful in my heart that she is doing this to her health, though i know i don't have any rights to get angry... regrets for not studying hard in the past years and now she is graduated and i've lost trace of her for the second time....

Now, it seems that i have this gush of energy that i've never had before... to actually want to wake myself up into reality, and drive myself to work really hard, so that i can get do well in my studies which is a upmost important basic that i need inorder to find a good stable job in the future. In order to have the ability to give my mother... and family a good life. I just wish that i can do that before she is married... Peiyi... please give me a sign... where are you.... i'm going to try my best to search for you... no matter where are you...
It doesn't matter if you're willing to accept me or not, but the most important thing is that, i want you to know i'm willing to take care of u even as a friend, and willing to change your life for the better, even as a friend. Be there for you even when i've got no time for my own...

But 1 thing i've learnt, it is that, i will never gonna hide my feelings anymore for the person i truely love. No matter what other says about you and whatever the result is, i have to show you that i still care about you so much.... I'm not willing to see you leave me again, therefore when i find you, i'm willingly going to walk... run...and jump with you through the rest of your life. May it be good or bad... I'm always your friend.

- Desmond with regrets 3:57pm

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Thursday,Aug 12 2004, 04:08:40 PMTwins made my day!! Today after school, i...

Twins made my day!!

Today after school, i went to IMM with Kim Yong and Leng Choon to see Twins!!! WOOT!!!! Damn luckily i last minute then know from Kim Yong that they came to singapore due to their new movie "TwinsEffect II"

On the way there, we took the bus and sit till my butt really numb loh.... when i stand up... i felt awkward... i like cannot feel my butt like that... but alls worth it as long as i can get a glance of Gillian Chung!!! =D

Anyways, when we get there, we were abit late, but luckily the 933 DJ dunno who lai de, she talk alot craps, so the stars haven come out yet. I bet she is trying to buy time for the stars to get here.

Anyways, all those audience are in order that time when we arrive, only those first 50 that get there first were in the que, and they get to have the signatures of the stars which include Jacky Chan's Son, Twins, and another guy... i dunno the name. All of them are the casts of the movie. But when the stars come out, the people from behind juz rush forward.... LOL!! all very hiong!! haha!! even the security also cannot tahan... den bo bian liao... juz very god damn chaotic!! All those people move in front and all take out their handphones, of digital cameras and take videos or pics of the celebrities. LOL!! those Singapore stars if host anything, Singaporeans will juz stand/sit and juz look. But when HK stars come... LOL!! all take out cameras machiam like reporter/paparazzi like that!! hahaha!! damn funny!!

Kim Yong took out his Digital Video Cam, and took video recordings of Twins, den i see his hands so shaky, so i also help to take the video. Leng Choon juz stood there dumbfolded at the beauty of Gillian LOL!!! But really laa... Gillian damn cute and chio loh!! That 1 bu shi Gai de.. (no need to cover the truth), Charlene also very cute!! haha!! KY like!! haha!! nb he keep taking video shots of Charlene, den i dulan, when i help out take video, i take more on Gillian haha!!
They cut cake after the 50 lucky buggers get their autographs. Than the thing ends.

The whole thing only last about 30mins only zZz but saw Twins for bout 10mins or so only... sianz.
After the event, alot people run to some place, i bet to the underground carpark hoping to meet their idols whom walk by some path cleared by the security.

After all that, we head our long journey home... -_- another butt aching ride. I study my MPI till now, due to the damn MPI Quiz Test tomorrow. tmd!! so hard!!

Thats all guys, Nights!

12:31am - Jun Liang Stressed

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Wednesday,Aug 11 2004, 03:12:25 PMLame CCA Another stupid IS day... after all...

Lame CCA

Another stupid IS day... after all that boring damn IS modules end, i gotta go rush off for the maths remedial after my lunch. Kinda felt damn sleepy but i tahan till the very end.... and drop when left a few mins before the remedial ends. i'm so glad i learned at least something in the remedial... which i volunteered to go.

Anyways, i then went to the Dover MRT to top up my EZ-Link, and went back school bus stop to meet up with Kim yong and Wei Liang. We chatted around with a couple of their friends, damn jokers!! LOL!! the way they talk... bth haha!!

Anyways, the 2 buggers went to buy ma piao... nb den i nothing to do so just follow, becuz anyways at 5:30pm i, Kimyong and Leng Choon gonna go for a new CCA, the music composing club. At first listen to Amy say the club like v good... got what free KTV and wad free singing lessons and free teach u to compose melodies or lyrics... and all that. But when we went there, kns lo... they tell us that composing all those they can give advice all that, but all in all, it is us that have to learn ourselves. And they say nobody signed up for the singing thing. -_- zZz... lame.

So end up we didn't join the CCA. Anyways Amy and her friend, Gim (If i'm not wrong) still signed up for it. In which Gim was forced to because Amy pulled her in. LOL!! She reaction was very cute laa... haha!! She seems cute thou. heh!

So i rushed home to have my dinner, and then watch Singapore Idol Episode 2. which was pretty lame still, the damn banana-man. lame lo... he don't wanna show his face so he won't xia suay, but in the end still kena found out who he is, even his name also said out loud.... LOL!!! lame fuck. But this episode wasn't really funny like the last.

Ok laa, so i end here. i gotta to do my PDP1 Lab EAGLES Project liao, which requires me to design a IC board. zZz so stressed out... cya peeps! Nighty!

11:42pm - Jun Liang Stressing

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Tuesday,Jun 15 2004, 05:26:01 PM[IMAGE] You Are An Intro-Extrovert! ---------

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Saturday,Jun 5 2004, 07:06:51 AMSaturday, 5th June, 2004 Back From Shang Hai...

Saturday, 5th June, 2004

Back From Shang Hai and Slacking

Hmm didnt update my Zorpia for sometime because when i'm in Shang Hai trying to update it with the hotel's PC, zorpia somehow cant get it through, so i gave up after tons of trys...zZz.

Anyways, Shang Hai is quite nice to stay in for days. But not permenantly, cuz the people there seemed not so nice whatsoever. Especially their traffic.. Damn!! u gotta go there see it for at least once in your whole life. Speaking of Bad traffic, the traffic rules there sucks! and the drivers there is even comfortable when running u down. They just don't give a F**k if there is pedestrian or not. Even when theres a Zebra crossing or when its the green light for pedestrians to cross, they juz force their way through. Tmd! i feel like kicking their damn cars.

hmm and 1 thing i must say. Shang Hai babes are so totally chio!! LOL!! Sorry Kim Yong and Leng, cuz i didn't have camera with me, so couldn't help u guys take pics of them. haha!! i can only Enjoy it myself!! :D~

Heh! i found the Meters/Bonswe Shop already Jia Rong. I helped u to buy a couple of clothings which consist of a T-Shirt and a collar shirt. No caps for u, cuz all charbo 1. -_- guys 1 sold out. Btw for those who don't know what Meters/Bonswe is, well its a clothing brand... DUH!
But its a brand whose spokesperson is non other than Jia Rong's favourite Idol... Jay Chou lol...
Well their design isn't that good nor unique. But i guess he just wanna buy them for the brand's name sake.

Btw this trip to Shang Hai is kinda boring also, i just shut up and follow the ladies (My mother and Aunty) go shopping. zZz! And look around for antiques and museum.

But 1 thing good is that, we got an upgraded room in the Hotel.. Damn!! Its so freaking cool!! Machiam we VIP like that. But well, we are treated like VIPs cuz, my aunty got links with one of the boss of the hotels. The Hotel room consists of 2 TVs!!! 1 Kingsize bed!! sofa studytable, dinner table, 2 toilets, and a freaking Studyroom!! Living Room!! Wth!! LOL!! my 1st time staying in such a luxury hotel room!! haha!! song bo? and only VIPs get free breakfasts which have Sashimi and some other western/asian food.
We also have a VIP Club Lounge which have free internet access and wine bar and such... LOL!! not bad sia... Too bad i cant take pic of the room for u guys to see... oh well... :P

Anyways, i guess the guys went to Malaysia already by now... Yi Lu Shun Feng buddys!! Enjoy yer holidays!!

3:14pm - Jun Liang Slacking

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