Thursday,Dec 1 2005, 08:32:40 PMmiss you so badly

I have to be strong and powerful
I have to be honest and good
I have to be patient and quite
To wait
Time to pass me by

I wanna see him right now
I wanna touch him right now
I wanna talk to him right now
But I can't

I have to wait and pray untill the time comes
But more than anything, I love him
And that's the hardest part

Wanna be close enough to make a wish for him
Wanna be close enough to sing a song for him
But I can't time is just going so slow

Nobody cares about this poor little girl's mind
Or understand

I wanna yell out his name,
but there is not enough space here
I wanna run and hug him tightly,
but there is too many spaces that I can't make.

Petals are all black and wrinkly
and butterfly doesn't have any courage to fly
"Let's just forget about him!"
I think and turn
But after few minutes, no, after few seconds
I turn back
I miss him dearly, but I can't do anything
I just have to wait

You think you stand alone,
all alone in the dark world.
Before you the empty plains,
behind you the barren scrub.
On your sides,
cold branches reach out for you from the woods.

The shadows stretch out long
on the ground in the twilight,
The suns warm rays fade slowly
into the darkness of the night.
A cold breeze sweeps close to the ground,
around your ankles.

You shiver, hold your arms around you
to keep the coldness away.
You don't want to be here,
this isn't the place you are looking for.
This is so wrong. Why am I here, you wonder.

You call out, hello - is there anyone out there?
But you get no answer.
Just the harsh sound of the crows
in the trees of the woods.
You look up in the sky,
and you see the moon looking down at you,
between the cloud rags that fly over the sky.

It looks cold and unfriendly down at you,
It doesn't care whether you live or not,
it doesn't care about anything.
It walks over the sky
without caring if there is a tomorrow or not.

You can feel the panic
start to claw it's way up in your chest.
Your eyes are wide with fear,
and your breathing is shallow.
You feel the shadows drawing closer to you,
feel how they reach out for you.

Suddenly you can hear a whisper
very close to your ear.
Close your eyes my love, it says.
You know this voice,
and you can feel a warmth spread
through your entire body,
you relax and smile.

You close your eyes
because now you know that your are in safe hands.
The voice says calmly - take my hand,
I'll lead you from this place.
You reach out your hand,
and feel how it disappears
into a warm, strong and safe hand.

You feel the hand gently pulling you forward,
and you follow.
As you walk with your eyes closed
you can feel how all your fear falls off you,
how the feeling of loneliness leaves.
On the inside of your eyelids
you can see the flickering light from a fire,
and you can feel the warmth stroking your face.

Your guide lets go of your hand,
and you get a little afraid again.
But then, the moment after - you feel the hands
sliding around your waist,
pulling you close to a warm and safe body.
Soft lips lightly touch your ear as you hear:
You know who I am,
and you know that I will always be here for you -
You know that we are meant to be together,
you know that it will happen -
And you know that where ever you are -
I am there too.

The things you said and the things you did to me.
You said you want me, you lied to me,
You said you would never cheat, and you abused me.
But then I found out you were lying all that time.
You turned my smile into a frown.
You promised that you would never let me down,
but you're not around.
You thought I would stay around so you could abuse me,
take my smile from me, and use me.
You hurt me so bad and you made me feel so sad,
it's a feeling that I can't explain.
I can't forget about you because
I'm left with scars that you gave to me.
I just want you to know that you hurt me
and because of you I want to die.

Like a volcano about to erupt
I feel the anger like lava in my veins
Coursing, pulsating, building pressure
And as I reach the pinnacle of my ire
My heart starts to beat madly
As if readying to explode inside my chest
My breath becomes ragged and strained
I feel my hands clenching and unclenching in fists of rage
A need to commit violence becomes a burning desire within
While deeply buried inside my unconscious
A seed of fear at the havoc I may wreak begins to form
I start to shake from the intensity of it all
Remaining calm becomes less and less of an option
A fire that refuses to be quenched
Is burning inside me, threatening to consume me
I am on the brink of losing total control

I am standing in a pit,
A black hole which threatens to swallow me completely.
In the distance I see a faint light, radiating warmth.
Yet all around me is cold and black.
Feelings of despair weigh down on me,
Like drops of leadened rain,
Pulling me down further,
Soaking me, drowning me,
Choking me like bile from a soured stomach.
Gasping for breath I struggle,
Against my invisible bonds.
Desparately trying to free myself,
And sinking further and further.
As if caught in a quagmire of quicksand.
My throat fills with screams,
Yet not a sound reaches my lips.
My eyes widen in terror
As I realize that hope is no longer my friend,
And loneliness has become my enemy.
With dawning realization,
I embrace my captor,
And surrender to the sweet calm of death.

A flight up high, eye of the eagle,
see all about, with the trained eye.
Soaring through warm air, clean
Up in the clouds, free, together alone, as one
up high , to a mountain top.
Fly deep, into a dream inhaling air of wings,
scents of the freshest breeze.
I feel this sensation all throughout me,
no where to plant, no where to stand.
The beauty of the night, the closer the stars,
free to dream above them when some fall.
Free as a bird, an angel without wings.
A universe of places,an eternity through spaces.
A star, a birth to me, to you.
Every place is the same, our journey to no where.

First there was a spark, then there was a flame
she fell in love, she would do anything
she thought she loved him, she thought he cared
she gave a precious gift
something that would surely change her life
now she's all alone and so unprepared
she cries everynight, because she's so scared
he left out of her life, just like a thief in the night
he never kissed her, he never said goodbye
he said he was leaving
surely you'd think she'd reply
she only could fall to her knees
and hysterically cry
something so special, she surely gave
now she'll have to go through
the nine months of hurt and pain

دبنــــــــــا

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بين شطفة قلبك النعسان

فى موالى

شبيت

وبعلو الصوت

وبملو ضلوعى ناديت

حبيتك ملو البيت

فى عيون الطفل افراح

ورميت الليل

على ضهر الكون سواح

انا مين يرمينى

لبحر سنينى الاولانيه ارتاح

البنت ? عينى عيدان اغصان

فنجان مزدان

سقينا حليب الدهشه بكسر الحلم

الداخل صحن العمر

شربنا الشوق واللهفه

قبابى قيشان عناب

لاعرفنا طريق العتمه منين تنجاب

ولاهيه لسيرة حس الوقت براح

ولكن غافلتنا الدنيا بصناديق الاسرار

قلبت فى الدفه

وهدت زفة شوق

نزلت فى غويط البحر

ودبنا فى الاعماق على فوق

http://www.guardian.co.uk/flash/sudan_history.swf

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