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you'll never know

Wed, 11 Jul 2007 16:17 EDT

She sits a the foot of her bed, a tiny blond-haired girl no older then six. Sounds of hatred and anger linger in the background, she has the door open just a crack so she can make words out of her parents disturbed voices. She trembles, as she gains the courage to stand. 'I have to do something' she thinks to herself. 'I just cain't take this anymore' The screaming is just too much. Shes heard it before, so why should she be afraid? She closes her eyes and takes a deep breath. The next thing she knows shes out in the living room and the voices get louder. "You never gave me any money for food, thats why we're here, with nothing to eat!" The girls mother viciously attacks. "and what good would that do? what would you go blow it on? drugs? alchol?" Her father throws back. His face tense, and full of anger. "STOP!" The girl screems as loud as her tiny body would let. The two adults turn around in surprise. They hadn't expected their daughter to say a word. "You get back in that room! this is nothing for you to hear!" her father dosn't mean to yell, she knows. But tears swell up in her eyes and she runs back to the room, slamming the door behind her. The little girl sits in the dark with a wet face, and listens to the voices outside. She no longer cares to try and make words out of the screams. It dosn't matter. Theres nothing she can do. Suddenly she hears a SMACK. Silence takes over. The girl looks at the door, wondering why everything went queit. She dosn't dare go and cure her curiosity. And then theres footsteps that stop outside her door. She sits quietly, barely breathing. She hears the person sit outside. "Kelsey, come sit by me, im sorry" her fathers booming but calm voice echos in her ears. she turns the knob and stumbles to his side. They sit there, in silence for a moment and then he puts his arms around her and hugs her tight. "I will never do that again. I promise." the girl looks up into her fathers innocent eyes and wonders, what exactly, did he do?

living in hell

Tue, 10 Jul 2007 23:46 EDT

keep holding on,
even when all the good in life has gone,
just remember who you are
and that happiness isn't too far
don't let them push you around
don't let your gaurd down
stand your ground
this is all we need....
to succeed..
remember that when your blue,
what they say isn't true.
so many things the world dosn't know
but if they looked down deep below
then maybe they'd get the hint
we all have a different color,
a different tint,
so whats the need for war?
letting bodies drop to the floor
these are the words you don't want to hear
these are the words we all fear
nobody wants to be alone or forgotten
it happens all the same, good gone rotten.
nobody wants to be rejected,
each one of us want to be respected.
nobody wants to feel unloved.
so many problems left unsolved.
and we simply don't have a solution
to put these words into motion
you can wish and you can pray
but here is where we will stay
until we peice this puzzle back together,
this may go on forever
now i only have one more rhyme to tell
don't be worried about going to hell
because the world dosn't care
that we're already there.

FEAR

Wed, 27 Jun 2007 12:34 EDT

Monday, December 11th, 2006

If you look fear in the face, she'll leave without a trace. She was once my friend, thought our trust would never end. Now i look into her eyes...... and tell her my goodbyes. Fear has loved and fear has lied, she has hurt and she has cried, drove by pain and fed by guilt.... trappped within the walls shes built. But what fear still fails to see.......hopes shes shattered, dreams shes battered, left the peices on the floor. And now to me, she is no more.

WHAT LIFE MEANS TO ME

Tue, 26 Jun 2007 14:15 EDT

TO ME, LIFE is one big TEST and Pain was meant to be Learned from

TO ME, LIFE was meant for LOVE for EXPERIENCE and Laughter.

TO ME, LIFE is a MYSTERY a SECRET a QUESTION of no sure awnser.

TO ME, LIFE made so we could FEEL so we could LEARN and LIVE.

TO ME, LIFE is BEAUTIFUL, full of HAPPINESS and HOPE.

tO mE, LiFe Is AnYtHiNg I wAnT It To bE.

ABOUT ME

Mon, 09 Apr 2007 17:48 EDT

Hey everybody.... my name is Kelsey....and im just another girl. My life might be a little more hectic than others, but I pretty much love it that way. I live with my dad and my seven other siblings. Im the oldest, so it means i have to take alot of the responsibility to keep our family together, but in the longrun its only going to help me. My dad just got engaged to this amazing woman.....she pretty much gave me my life, (and my dads) back, so i'd like to give out a special thanks to her. Shes helped us more than we realize. Anyway, I'll tell you about myself. Im very friendly, and mello. I take life as it comes and make the best of it. If anybody has any problems, feel free to come to me, i'll be glad to help. My intrests are art, music, and dance......I have some of my art posted on my page, and one of my songs is posted below....but its not a very good one. Im starting this new one, and when i get finished i'll post it on here. I love to dance, but im really not all that great. (not saying i don't have some moves) but I don't even compare to my best freind meg.....shes amazing. LOL. I have an awesome boyfriend, that i can talk to nearly anything about. I love him. and what else...? My favorite color is blue...LOL..pretty obvious, huh? Anyway, i like to meet new people....so if you find me interesting send me a message..if not....i cain't say i blame you. :)

kels

REMEMBER FOREVER

Fri, 29 Dec 2006 12:17 EDT

I can hear the anger

like thunder

rolliing through the clouds

and fear, as she lights up the sky

and noones here to hold me

noones here to wipe the tears from my eyes

and then you hold out your hand

your touch so gentle, gentle and soft,

as you pull me from the sand

i thought my heart

would slowly fall apart

until you found me

and peiced it back together

as the rain falls

one by one before my feet

i hold my breath and remember , remember everything you said to me

honey i love you

baby its true

your the fire that keeps me warm

baby i love you

honey its true

don't know what i'd do

without you- -

boy your voice is like the rain

it takes away the pain

just wish that you were here

i've got nothing to fear

as long as your near